Like "Wow... I can honestly say that you "really - truley" sound just like I did when I found out I was diabetic(type 2). It seemed like breathing was spiking my BS. And because I have other medical problems - when they give me problems or if I'm in alot of pain - my BS will spike. It took me about 2-3 weeks to get past this. The hardest part was "accepting" that I was diabetic, and that if I didn't take care of myself than I wouldn't be here. Not being able to grow old w/ my hubby - watching my kids grow up - get married - and one day see my "Grandchildren". Some days it's so easy, and I still have those days that I just want to throw out all my medicine - meter, strips everything to do w/ diabetes. Wanting to eat anything I want and as much as I want. I found out the hard way that even w/ the medicine and checking my BS 3 times a day... you can't just eat "anything" you want because you will pay for it in the end. It will get easier. Once you get over that inital shock, anger, depression, crying, temper tantrum, feeling as if its the end of world,etc. Hang in there sweetie!! You can do it :) You did make one good step in the right direction by joining this community. You will have lots of support & get lots of ideas and someone will share tips that will help out. Always, Babs"