Like "When I was first diagnosed, I went headlong into denial. I was fresh out of rehab, so alcohol was not an option, but ice cream was just as bad or worse for me. So I sat in the corner of the ice cream saloon, and ate a huge banana split, hoping no one that knew I was newly diabetic would come in. This was back in 1992, and I still have bouts of the 'I no longer care' thing. That's why I am on the pump now. Which in some cases is better or worse. I can eat pretty much I want, but I have to test with every meal or snack, in order to bolus. In fact, I am currently trying my best to fend off one of these self defeating episodes. Wish me luck!"