Like "Enjoy that trip. Get clear, there is nothing like being outside to do that. Write it down and take action. You have a lot going on, but even just dealing with one of them at a time, you will feel so much better. The worst part of it is the looming decisions, once you make them, even the hard ones, there is a huge relief. I went through something very similar last year around this time. My numbers were out of control, my husband was bed ridden and one of my dogs was overtaken with cancer. It all came pounding down on me in October. I was on here, much like you, frantic for direction. I made it through as you will too. We are here for you. Just a side note...this year was 110% better!! So look for that silver lining. It's out there."