Like "I pray it will be. I really wish you (and everyone here) could have met her. Actually when I opened up to her on that, my heart was in my throat, but I had decided I wasn't gonna hide anymore and if that was, for her, a deal breaker, I would have been disappointed, but not crushed. I didn't want to be keeping secrets from her and play false to her because she was such a trusting, loving lady. Jem had the kind of love that I had wanted for years. Even before I met my first wife. "