Like "You are right my stamina is already being tested. I listen to spiritual tapes everyday that give me the blessings from God, his strength, his courage, his integrity and all that he is. Plus i have my own experience with pain,denial,confusion, and other aspects of change of lifestyle. I am also a member of 12th step programs with plenty of pain related issues there that i had to overcome and deal with. Most of all now I have an adopted loving family right here. LOL :)"