Like "Maria... welcome to our community, our "family" if you will. What you have and are going through is totally understandable. Depression is a common problem to people and doesn't mean there's anything wrong with you but is something that you should consider help for... counseling, medication, or meditation are viable options to help you sort out what you've got going on. We are here for the emotional support. If you ever need to talk, please feel free. We are genuinely concerned about you but I'd think a doctor or counselor may have better answers for you than any of us. If you are employed and on insurance, check your plan for assistance. If you don't have insurance, contact the United Way Agencies in your area for counseling and other resources that can help pull you up. We're here for you!!! "