so heres an update i didn't think was possible

By t0tianna Latest Reply 2011-02-24 09:55:29 -0600
Started 2011-02-22 19:38:58 -0600

today i go to my counceling session and my sickness
may be cause by phycicologic idk how that works
but meaning that im going through such a hard time with life
my brain caused its own illness thats only in my head so i wouldn't have to deal with things?
and now my mom knows about the drug abuse
the achoalism
and pretty much alot a weight was lifted off my chest today
im working on a long successful way to recovery
and i thank everyone on DC for such support
i still have alot but its one less thing
i think im still not sure
but isn't that weird
my depression found a unheathy way of manupuating my body

9 replies

Harlen 2011-02-22 21:38:52 -0600 Report

It is good to get things out in the open
You can get over this I know I did and it is a on going work
I dont drink or do drugs and it has ben 20 years .
So if somone like me can do it any one can. you just got to keep at it and never ever give up. You have the best part of your life to enjoy land it can be great with lots of love ,frends and things to do,feel,see so much I am so glad I didnt give in or give up even thoe at times I realy wished to .

jayabee52 2011-02-22 21:33:39 -0600 Report

That's good to hear, Heather. Yes there is psychosomatic illness (illness of your body caused by your mind ). Yes, I agree with your stranger friend: You have a purpose on this earth. You can be (as a pastor said in a recent sermon) "The fingers of God on earth." Even me, who is a washed up, disabled person are a finger of God, as I try to do good whenever I can.

He really DOES hear and answer prayers! I will continue to pray for you!


t0tianna 2011-02-22 20:26:20 -0600 Report

also i was giving up hope in jesus because of everything
and today this lady came and ran into me today this woman knew nothing about me and basically told me everything that i was going through and told me
it was always going to be ok that i had a purpose in this life and jesus always put sus here for a reason
this was such a mircle
for some stranger to tell me i had a purpose told me i was going to be the best cosmotoglist there was
you know how much strength that gave me and hope
thats jesus really does listen and awnser prayers

GabbyPA 2011-02-23 08:56:57 -0600 Report

The sound of this post is one that you need to remember long and hard. I hear the sound of victory in your post here, I hear the sound of hope. When things get bumpy, just remember this....hold tight to it.

MewElla 2011-02-22 20:12:35 -0600 Report

I am so proud of you…You are taking a big step and this is great. You watch, you will be a winner in your own recovery. This made my day!!