so things have fallen worse for me since december

By t0tianna Latest Reply 2011-02-22 18:26:21 -0600
Started 2011-02-17 20:14:19 -0600

the more life seems to go on the harder this is to deal with
i have no support at home
ii get hell at school (when i go)
i have no one to turn to when i get into such down falls..
since december :(
i have gained and lost weight i have been struggleing and struggling this battle and im beain told loose loose loose
but now i am beain told my liver is inflamed and it could be my diabeties causing it
they told me it could rupture i could slip into a colma and die a slow painful death but they are trying to figure out what is causing it.
i am in counceling now because things are getting hard to deal with in life
between PCOS dieabeties and all theese troubles in faceing at school and home
i feel hopeless like theres nothing more i could do…
idk what else i can do
i want to loose weight
i want to be happy
but im stuck and i done know how to start off on the right foot…

11 replies

ajtwins 2011-02-20 00:45:48 -0600 Report

Wow sweetie you have a lot on your plate. Like the whole world. Everyone is going through so much in life. We just dont see it. What i can suggest is to put ur life in god's hands. give ur life to god. He will help u through this. I hope and pray that u fell better. Stay positive. Try to change something everyday. Take things in stride. Try to fix and better the things you can change quick. Ex; if u are drinking soda try diet sodas. If you eat because ur bored grab things like fruits and veggies. The support system join other online support groups. The abnormal liver functions and pcos will change with better lifestyle changes. I have pcos and diabetes. It is very common. Good luck

MewElla 2011-02-19 17:59:56 -0600 Report

Most bullies pick on others to scream out for attention. For some, this is the only way they get it by try to walk all over others. Just keep going and remember, we are here for you…You have your own support team kiddo!!

realsis77 2011-02-18 11:00:16 -0600 Report

Hi. As with any task in life we must take one baby step at a time! Then before you know it these baby steps will add up to giant steps. Don't be soo hard on yourself! Remember you have many people here on DC who care and will support you in any way we can! Just tell yourself today is a new day and any small steps you take today will be giant leaps later! I wish you the very best. Anytime you want to talk I'll be here for ok. God bless you!

melissa5786 2011-02-18 10:07:25 -0600 Report

I think baby steps are the key. You're getting help to deal with things, which is a great start. Now, tackle one of those obstacles at a time and hopefully things will get easier for you. You're in my thoughts as you go through all of this. Just be strong. Take it from me, we are all stronger than we think. Especially in times like these.

GabbyPA 2011-02-18 05:59:56 -0600 Report

I cannot even begin to understand what fears and frustrations you must be facing. So much for someone so young.

I have a few questions for you...
What happens at school that equates "hell"?
Your downfalls? Do you mean when you are facing off with a lot of the things that are happening?
Family support? Are you living with parents or with room mates?

Like Jaybee said, taking on all of those obstacles at once is overwhelming. I know they are linked and it becomes a ball of knotted yarn. But use some patience and sit down to look at things and make some small goals for yourself. In the beginning, make them very easy things to obtain. That feeling of success often feeds your confidence and allows you to attempt bigger goals as you go. Like playing a video don't start at level 21. You start at level 1 and work your way up, learning as you go.l

I know when you feel like you're alone it is the hardest thing. We are here to help you through and if you want specific one on one help, just drop any of us a note.

t0tianna 2011-02-18 15:06:34 -0600 Report

i get picked on at school pretty much bullied
thiis guy told me
you know your just ugly you stank when i walk by you get i smell this stench
and you wear the same clothes everyday u just uhh a discrace to look at
i also get clowned for my wieght which ihad been an everyday struggle for me since i was 11
and the hair that grows on my face because of PCOs.
dowfalls are when i get hopeless like theres nothing that could do me worse where i've had it to the last straw..
and i live with my mom…

GabbyPA 2011-02-21 12:41:33 -0600 Report

I went through a lot of similar things in school as well. I hid mostly in art classes. I actually used to skip P.E. and go to art class. I had very few friends and was always the fat girl in school. Even as an adult, one time on a business flight, I had the person who was sitting next to me confront me after we got off the plane because my arm was touching her...I was so humiliated. But I am FAR more than what you see on the outside. That woman had no clue that I managed million dollar projects for major retail companies such as Macy's and Lord and Taylor.

Mean comes from ignorance. Don't let them make you who you are. There is so much more to you. It is hard when you are young, but you will live through it and the confidence will come.

Are the things the boy said true? No...then why worry about it. I know it hurts, but he is the smaller minded person because all he can do is belittle people. You are not formed by him, but by your own character and spirit. You might have to fight through some hard things and even some partial truths...but that is where you can grow and change and prove them wrong. That is the most satisfying thing you can do for yourself.

jayabee52 2011-02-22 18:26:21 -0600 Report

From my experience Jr hi & HS were the worst. I got teased almost constantly, and got pounded on sometimes too.

If you can get through HS without losing your self esteem things will straighten out. When I lgraduated from HS, things got better for me. I didn't have problems during the 3 years of working after HS and in the 8 yrs of college & grad school.

There IS hope for you, Heather! Please don't give up!

Meganshene 2011-02-19 17:40:27 -0600 Report

I was picked on also for my weight growing up. I was also told that I was ugly. I know where you are coming from. I also have pcos. I am now happily married. I have 2 beautiful stepchildren. I am also a security guard. My peers that picked on me when I was younger some are in jail. Now wehn I run into some of them they are fine with me. As you get older they probably will talk to you like they never bullied you before. Some will grow out of it and some will never grow out of it. You also need to know that the ones that bully are looking for attention. This is the only way they can. They are trying to take the attention off of them. Have you talked to a counslor at your school? We are here for you.

jayabee52 2011-02-18 03:58:58 -0600 Report

So sorry to hear of your troubles. Heather. IDK you or your situation, but I wonder if you might be trying to tackle too much too soon. Baby steps , as Ray would say. If you choose one thing to focus on doing, you may get it done, then you can tackle something else. Eventuallly things may improve.

I will be praying for your physical and emotional health.

I pray you will be blessed

James Baker

Meganshene 2011-02-18 09:02:08 -0600 Report

Hi! Do you like bike riding? I have been up and down with my weight since I was young. I found going for a bike ride helped lose the weight. It is also a good way to relax. What is going on in school? Have you talked to your counselor? It is hard to lose weight but so easy to gain it. Be strong and we are all hear for you.