Diabetes and Depression.

petals
By petals Latest Reply 2011-01-25 09:29:02 -0600
Started 2011-01-15 22:02:21 -0600

I was wondering if anyone else on here is dealing with the double d's, diabetes and depression? I was put on meds. yesterday for depression, which will take about a month to get into my system. How do you cope with both of these together? Any advice at all would really help me. I am feeling really lost and alone. I also feel and almost overwhelming feeling of sadness.


103 replies

MewElla
MewElla 2011-01-24 08:56:54 -0600 Report

How's today going Petals?? You have a great day. Please keep us updated…

petals
petals 2011-01-24 12:39:53 -0600 Report

I feel so so today. Didn't get much sleep, my pain level was very high last night, so I am very tired today. How are you doing MewElla? Thanks for checking up on me. Hugs.

MewElla
MewElla 2011-01-24 13:30:23 -0600 Report

So good to hear from you. Sorry about that pain last night causing lack of sleep. The next day when we don't get enough sleep is just rough…Hope you feel better this afternoon and you can get some rest tonite. Take care of yourself. Just wanted you to know I was thinking about you. God Bless You!! I am doing good today, yesterday another story…Thanks for asking..

petals
petals 2011-01-24 14:04:06 -0600 Report

Glad that you are doing good today. What happened yesterday? And thanks for thinking of me.

MewElla
MewElla 2011-01-24 14:15:41 -0600 Report

Just an emotional day for me remembering my husband that died of a massive heart attack. The diabetes was driving some numbers low and I felt lousy that I was by myself and no one to be with me. Some days are gold and others are "rocks." Thanks for checking, you are sweet..

MewElla
MewElla 2011-01-25 08:26:59 -0600 Report

Yes, numbers are great and I am feeling better. Thanks for asking…Have a good day, and hope you could sleep some last night. Take care of your kitty and stay warm.

petals
petals 2011-01-25 09:09:28 -0600 Report

I slept great last night and I feel better today, thanks for asking. Glad that your numbers are great today and that you are feeling better. Hugs.

petals
petals 2011-01-24 14:23:08 -0600 Report

Sorry to hear that you had such a bad day. I like how you put that some days are gold and others are rocks. Sorry aboutyour hubby as well. Was it recent? Hugs.

MewElla
MewElla 2011-01-25 08:28:40 -0600 Report

Thank you so much. I lost my husband 7 years ago at Christmas and life has not been the same since. I miss my best friend terribly. You are sweet for asking and a really big hug back to you!!

petals
petals 2011-01-25 09:21:05 -0600 Report

I am so sorry for your loss. That must make Christmas hard for you. I feel that my hubby is my best friend as well. Even though we have hit a rough patch, we are working on it together and moving forward. A big hug to you too!

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2011-01-22 21:02:20 -0600 Report

Hi petals,

Very glad to read that you are sticking with the meds and feeling a little better. Great news! Please keep us all posted!

teststrips
teststrips 2011-01-21 13:35:54 -0600 Report

I would see a doctor and get some antidepression pills. There is no need to feel like this all the time. Life is too short

petals
petals 2011-01-21 20:24:12 -0600 Report

I am taking meds, for it but it will take about a month for them to get into my system. I am feeling a little better, this site and the caring people on here have helped me alot. Hugs

DORO2
DORO2 2011-01-20 08:45:53 -0600 Report

The double d's!!! THAT WHAT IS AILING ME. Is hard to explain especially when so many others are dealing with worse problems. I have been diagnosed with type 2 diabetes since oct 2009. One of the meds.. metformin …did not agree with my tummy.I am on glyburide and now on a diff metformin as of today. My primary care doctor has been treating me and now i have made an app with an endo doctor. I just feel like crap. I take a anxiety med when needed but i have never been a pill or med person. I had a heart attack 3 yrs ago ..so i am on 3 other meds for that. THAT REALLY PUT IN A DEPRESSION PIT!! Is hard to share my feelings mentally and physically with anyone..family and friends seem to tire of listening and i am tired of feeliing so lousy.I am hoping new doctor gets me on the right road and i know i ''must'' get my own self together. Some days i feel so ''despairing''…terrible way to feel. My faith in a higher spirit is not good . Somany more ppl out there with other problems more so than mine . The cold weather does not help.. snow and ice all over, is hard to get out. I feel closed in and alone. I hope by joining this group and getting to talk about life helps. I KNOW HOW U FEEL PETALS…AND WISH BETTER FOR YOU!!

petals
petals 2011-01-20 09:34:16 -0600 Report

You are not alone you have me and everyone else on this site! Talk to us anytime day or night. So what if others have more problems then you, that doesn't make yours any less important. I am sorry that you are feeling so bad right now. The weather does affect our moods, I unedrstand that as well. I pray alot and I ead my Bible every day and I have a daily devtional as well. I spend the first hour that I am up with the Lord, this helps me to become centerd and it is what gives me the strenght to get through the day. I am here if you need me. Hugs.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2011-01-20 09:31:46 -0600 Report

Howdy Doro!
It doesn't really matter whether people have here is "worse problems". Kind of like the principle of minor surgery = not too serious operation on someone else, major surgery = the very same surgery on me!

The fact that there are people afflicted with "worse" problems still leaves you with your own struggle and pain and dis-ease.

Please feel free to "talk" freely to the folks here on DC (or should I say the "inmates" here - LoL) because many of the folks here are usually 1 of 2 types (no. not t1 or t2): the inexperienced and those who have some experience controlling their diabetes, Many of the experinced "inmates" here are willing to listen and talk to you about things you have in common.

So use the people here as a sounding board. Ask questions, share your problems. There were discussions back in 2009 which were pretty popular called "PissnMoan" (or PnM) It was a place where we`raiiled against 6 foot tall red haired lepracauns (Ray) or told jokes or complained about our conditions. It was something we needed at the time. It drew us together and we commiserated or shared our joys and victiories in life and in controlling our diabetes.

There are still a few of us who were regulars on those (i seem to remember we had some where around 14 of thise discussion threads back in the day) discusssions still around (like me).

So please feel free to vent, pissnmoan ask questions or trumpet your successes. I think you'll find many of the ppl are willing to give comfort & encouragement & celebrate your successes with you. I think you will see it in most any discussion you will want to check out.

So don't feel intimidated by the fact that you might see other ppl's medical challenges more serious than your own. Chances are, others will have similar challanges as you do.

I've asked you to be a friend. Please accept my request if you haven't already done so. That way, you can email me directly using the DC mail system.

Blessings to you and yours

James

memmie
memmie 2011-01-19 18:10:57 -0600 Report

new member here. So relieved that there are other diabetics that are struggling with depression. I have battled it for several years and it was only after I was forced to go to a psycholtherapist that I discovered that my depression exacerbated by my diabetes. No doctor had ever told me that…Go figure. Right now I am struggling out of a deep depression where I have been off work for 3-1/2 months and have now lost my job which has thrown me back into the "Pit". All of the advice here is "right on", especially Dr. Gary's advice. One of the things I try to do every day is try to make a list of all the things in my life that I have been blessed with, ex: family,grandchildren,friends,still have fairly good health, etc. Sometimes, when I'm feeling at the bottom of the "Pit" I try to think of all the people that I know that are suffering from diseases like cancer, heart disease, multiple sclerosis, kidney disease, etc. Then I try to think if there is something I can do for that person, if possible. If not, I pray for them whenever their name comes to mind. Petals, wish I had better advice for you, but all I can say is there are a lot of us out here who completely understand what you are going through and to all of those, including myselft, Never, never, never, ever give up ! God Bless YOU!

petals
petals 2011-01-19 19:54:40 -0600 Report

You did give me some good advice about counting my blessings, I haven't thought about that, thank you. I have been praying alot and I am not ever going to give up. Thanks for the support.

Mrs Angie
Mrs Angie 2011-01-20 08:00:58 -0600 Report

Yes Petals I agree. Prayer helps. Thru God all things are possible and we can do nothing without him. I would like to share these 2 scriptures with you.
Psalm 103:3 — who forgives all thine iniquities, who healeth all all thy diseases.
and Isaiah 53:5 — but he was wounded for our transgressions, he was bruised for our iniquities. The chastisement of our peace was upon him; and with hisstripes we are healed. no offense intended to anyone not with the word. But I had to let you know that. So prayer helps and with us doing the right things to help ourselves can bring some stableness with this condition. I'm shooting for it to be gone. I done good for a minute loosing weight. It had been a struggle. The bigger I got comes more problems like sleep apena. The nurses say you will always have it, and that I will always have to sleep with that mask. For a minute I belived them because I would stop breathing while sleeping. Well as I began to loose weight, airway passages wasn't blocked and I was getting the oxygen that I needed. I prayed and asked God to help me loose weight and help me be diligent to my eating habits. I started walking and becoming more active. (walking) walking does burn the fat and I was able to keep my sugar count down to 109 - 126 range which was good for me. I hadn't seen that in all the time of being diagnoses with diabetes. LOL I was eating small meals and I paiyed attention to what I ate. I ate anything that I wanted but in small portions. I lost 14pds in 2 months and that was Great for me. Unfortunately I've gained those pounds back I too fell into a depressed state and just didn't feel like doing nothing. The mood swings can be irritating sometimes. I try to keep myself motivitated by reading the WORD I know Gods word rules. Knowing that I must prevail. I keep myself encouraged because I know this disease can be licked it really is about us eating proper and getting exercise especially at my age.(50) it's hard to loose weight when you don't want to do anything LOL I retired from my job last year and I have sat for 6 months and put that weight I lost back on not realizing it. I can't sit like this. I have to do something because that's what helped me keep the weight off. I walked everywhere once I got to work. Now it's nice to sit and sleep til you feel like doing something but not LOL I got to put myself back on a walking program and eating program to get the weight back off and as I lost weight I felt real good and energised too. Sorry to have written so much. Guess I needed to share as well, it helps me see things about this condition knowing I as well, isn't the only person experiencing what I feel from time to time.

petals
petals 2011-01-20 08:50:25 -0600 Report

Thanks for the scripture, psalm 103 is one of my favorite ones to read and also psalm 121 and 91. I know that I can't do anything without the Lord being in my life. I pray all the time. Sometimes I may not listen t his answer, and I am working on that! I have started walking this week and all ready my mood has lifted some. Working on staying on track with my diet as well. With all the stress the past couple of weeks I haven't done that well. So I can understand were you are coming from. I am here any time that you need to talk. Let's get our butts in gear and take care of these great bodies that the Lord has given us!!

memmie
memmie 2011-01-19 21:05:06 -0600 Report

Petals, Thanks for acknowledging my message. I am so happy to find this group. I feel like you and all the others truly understand what is happening to me. I have the hardest time trying to explain to my family and friends what depression and diabetes do to you. I have also been diagnosed as bipolar, which I don't know much about and I also have osteoarthritis which also has depression as a side effect. I have been feeling like I was the only one that had this and that everyone thought I was just becoming a hypochrondiac. It has made me feel so much better to know there are people out there who understand. If you like, email me privately and I will give you some Bible verses that I have memorized and carry with me all the time and also a book you might enjoy reading. I pray that God will give you the wisdom and knowledge to deal with all your problems and that He will give you peace. Memmie

petals
petals 2011-01-20 08:57:35 -0600 Report

I understand how you feel 100%. I come from a family that has a history with diabetes and they still don't want to talk about it, heck half of them don't take of themselves at all or are in denial. I also come from a family were depression is common. Sorry to hear that you were diagnosed as bipolar, I don't know much about it either. But I will see what I can find out. I wll e-mail you, thanks. Hang in there things will get better. Hugs

MewElla
MewElla 2011-01-20 08:09:58 -0600 Report

Always here to listen to you. It is so comforting to know someone out there really "hears you.." God Bless you.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2011-01-19 22:48:00 -0600 Report

Yes Memmie, we are here all around you both diabetic aqnd non diabetic! I have a friend who has bipolr disorder. Since you say you don't know much about the disorder here is something from the Nationaal Institute of mental Health, a multi page brochure telling you about it: http://www.nimh.nih.gov/health/publications/b... Please note there are links in the upper right of the first page. You can download the brochure as a PDF file, or request to have a printed copy sent to you.

I pray this is useful to you.

James

PS: please accept my friend request and I'd be interested in seeing the Bible verses also.

armymom355
armymom355 2011-01-19 11:23:54 -0600 Report

If you have any group theapy available to you see if you can join. I enjoy my groups I belong to 2 Loss and grief and woman's issue group they are my extended famiily. I don't know what I would do with out them. We support one another call cry, laugh, listen, hugs, we are there for each other. Try to keep a positive out look on life. Don't be afraid to cry and call on a friend. Good luck and God Bless you

Gabby
GabbyPA 2011-01-19 13:59:34 -0600 Report

My mom went to those after my dad died and she is still close friends with several of them. That was 14 years ago. They help get you on track and feeling human again.

Mrs Angie
Mrs Angie 2011-01-19 10:46:36 -0600 Report

try to stay positive. When I took to depression pills I got lazier and didn't want to exercise and got fatter. It's hard to stay positive but, I got tired of being tired that I asked to be taken off the depression pills so I could have alittle bit of energy coming from me. I then changed how I was eating and started eating lighter. No starches and carbs. I felt alittle better and started walking. You still get at a stand still but you just have to work through it and keep going. My goal is to not have take the shot and to someday get off the pill because I can control the diabetes by what I am eating. I still have my good and bad days. It's how you eat and how much of it.

petals
petals 2011-01-19 14:55:21 -0600 Report

Thanks and I agree with you. Th only thing that I feel like I control right now is my eating.And I have been walking alot this week and that has made me feel better.

MewElla
MewElla 2011-01-19 08:02:31 -0600 Report

Definitely understand what you are saying, sometimes, waves of sadness roll over the top of me and I try very hard to get my mind on sometime else. Sometimes it is almost impossible to do, but I try to take "baby steps" forward and climb into a better place. It really helps to "talk" to someone to release your feelings, but some of us are all alone, and trust me, it's not easy. Will be thinking about you and pray you will be feeling better…

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2011-01-18 14:29:30 -0600 Report

Hi,

Some great advice from your friends here. I am glad that you reached out for help. As your physician said, it takes awhile for your body to adjust to the medications. So be patient with yourself and hang in there.

This is a good time to also reach out to your support network, like your friends on Diabetic Connect. And keep in touch with your doctor, to make sure that he/she is aware of anything that you experience that makes you uncomfortable in any way.

It might also help to work on your self-talk. Remind yourself that you are doing the best you can under very difficult circumstances, that you are doing something about these overwheming feelings of sadness, that you will be feeling better over time.

Find things to do that you enjoy, that are comforting or soothing in some way, try not to push yourself too hard. Try to avoid siituations and people that will be upsetting, stressful, negative in some way, as much as you can. Ask for help when you need it.

You are on my mind, petals. Take good care of yourself and stay close to your friends! And keep us posted! Don't go through this alone!

petals
petals 2011-01-19 08:49:39 -0600 Report

That is some great advice Dr. Gary and I thank you for it. I hadn't thought about the self-talk at all. I will do that. There is one thing that I can't avoid right now and that is working on my marriage. My husband has done somethings that he shouldn't have done. He didn't have an affair, but he has become addicted to porn. This has hit me very hard and I feel that he has cheated on me and with all the lies I don't feel that I can trust him any more. We are going to therapy now, we have had one appt. with another on friday. Any thoughts on that?

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2011-01-19 09:19:19 -0600 Report

Hey petals,

Thanks for your honest post. I am sure it wasn't easy to write.

I can understand why you would be feeling dishonored and hurt. The Internet is a wonderful thing, but one of its dark sides is that it has created new avenues for addictive behavior, and I am realizing that many, many people are addicted to pornography, mainly through the Internet. Like any other addictions, pornography addiction is treatable with a lot of motivation and hard work.

I hope that your husband is able to beat this addiciton. Many people have. Counseling and 12 Step programs have been very successful.

I am glad to hear that you are in therapy together, that's really important right now. It sounds like you are trying to have a compassionate attitude toward your husband. I would encourage you also to have a compassionate attitude toward yourself, to take good care of yourself, including your health, and to reach out for lots of support.

We are here for you! Please keep us posted and let us know how we can help!

Gary

petals
petals 2011-01-19 10:34:42 -0600 Report

Yes, I am trying to be compassionate toward my husband, it is very hard to do. This has been going on for over 8 years, and I found out about 5 months ago. I am also seeing a therapist seperatelly from my hubby. I am an honest person, I have always spoken my mind and I will continue to do so. My hubby knows how I feel. He keeps telling me he is sorry, but right now that is not enough. He also says that he doesn't know why he does this. Since the porn we don't have a sex life anymore. This also makes me feel ,like less of a woman. Thanks for listening.

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2011-01-19 11:42:30 -0600 Report

Hey petals. I totally understand. It is going to take a lot of work on your husband's part to regain your trust. He has a lot of work to do and I hope he is getting treatment to help him. I am really glad that you are seeing a therapist. It's really important for you to get lots of support. My thoughts are with you! I am here anytime to be a freind, so please stay in touch.

sc1boy
sc1boy 2011-01-18 13:31:21 -0600 Report

I have been dealing with the double d's for about two years and I am still on my meds. I didn't think I was being depressed but my wife said I was and said something to the doc and they decided I need it. I just deal with it a day at a time.

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2011-01-18 14:23:07 -0600 Report

Just want to add that I am glad you're wife jumped in and suggested you might be depressed, and that you talked to your doctor about it. So many, and way too many, people try to keep a stiff upper lip, or tell themselves they shouldn't be depressed, when they are. It takes a lot of strength and courage to admit that you need to reach out and get some help. Happy to hear that you did! And it is one day at a time, that's all any of us can do. I would encourage you to stay close with your doctor and let him/her know if you are experiencing any changes in your mood and/or outlook. It's important to stay on top of this. Take care!

Argarcia9206
Argarcia9206 2011-01-17 15:12:25 -0600 Report

I have been dealing with a duel diagnosis for several years now. Over the years I have learned a lot about my depression and diabetes. The best way I know to talk about it is to show you this: http://www.diabeticconnect.com/videos/1247-di...
Watch this and if you have any questions friend me and send me an email through here or you can just send an email to diabeticcookbook@gmail.com small. I wait to here from any who wish to discuss this or any other issue dealing with diabetes and depression.

petals
petals 2011-01-18 12:33:00 -0600 Report

I just watched your video and it touched my heart. I have been feeling alot of what you mentioned for about a year off and on. Thanks. Maybe w can talk more , I will friend you.

DiabetesDiva
DiabetesDiva 2011-01-17 14:44:00 -0600 Report

My mom was bi-polar and had serious bouts of depression. I am not bi-polar, but have been battling depression for several years before I was diagnosed as type 2. What works for me is therapy, mediation and activity. You are NOT alone in this!!!
It's not a matter of will power, but a biological condition. Big girl panties will not help, nor will big boy jockies! I've had days I did not want to get out of bed and taking a shower required more energy than I had. Fortunately I have a very supportive husband. Hang in there, it will get better!

jayabee52
jayabee52 2011-01-18 08:50:59 -0600 Report

Please,Diva, don't put down ANYONE'S way of dealing with their problems. Especially if it works for them. If on putting one's "big girl panties" works for them wonderful! If you get relief through therapy & meditation, wonderful!

Neither Diabetes nor Depression isa one-size-fits all kind of diseases.

I would hate to get in a spitting contest over whether or not one way of dealing with either disease is the absolute best. What worked for me getting out of
depression, as I have written prior, was accomplished by dancing classes.

DORO2
DORO2 2011-01-20 10:11:57 -0600 Report

AHHHHH.. GOOD FOR U JAYABEE52!! DANCE CLASSES.. HOW WONDERFUL. I USE TO LOVE TO DANCE. U HAVE JUST GIVEN ME A ''COOL BEANS'' IDEA. IM NOT SURE IF THERE IS A DANCE CLASS I CAN AFFORD AROUND ME BUT I WILL CERTAINLY LOOK INTO. I WAS GETTING READY TO JOIN A HEALTH EXERCISE CLASS THIS WEEK UNTIL MY CARDIO DOC SAID .. HOLD OFF TILL OTHER TESTS ARE DONE. THAT PUT ME A DOWNWARD SPIRAL. I HAD NOT THOUGHT OF DANCE CLASSED..WHICH I BELIEVE I WILL TAKE SLOW ONE..LOL ..IN THE BEGINNING AND MAYBE LEARN TO DO THE ''TWIST'' AGAIN. THANK YOU FOR ALSO MENTIONING THAT DEALING WITH OUR PROBLEMS IS NOT FOR OTHERS TO PUT DOWN. WE ALL NEED ''PICK ME UPS''.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2011-01-20 11:56:38 -0600 Report

Well thank you for your endorsement, Doro2.

I got hooked up with free dance classes (donations were asked for a battered women's shelter) through a local church singles group (I was in Las Vegas at the time). You might want to ask around or use a search engine to locate something like that in your neighborhood. I used a search engine to find another such ministry in a neaby town after I had moved to the SF bay area, and my bride had passed from this life.

I had been involved in the dance classes (mostly east coast swing) before my disability, and used the love of those dance classes to get me back on my feet (I needed a walker at first when recovering - not for dancing, of course) and again when my kidneys quit and I had to go on dialysis. I used my love of danceing in that class and others to overcome my being "balance challenged"

I pray you can find something locally around you. Maybe I might do a search engine search (since I know what to look for0 for places near to where you live, if I knew where you lived. You can email me that info, & I'll email what I find (if i find anything).

Blessings to you and yours!

James

PS I thought that Irish pubs had whimsical names like "pig & whilstle" or something like that. LoL!

Gabby
GabbyPA 2011-01-17 13:41:00 -0600 Report

My mom suffers with this. I can tell when she has not been taking her depression meds. When she is taking it properly, her attitude about everything is so much better and she is more happy. I know there are medical reasons for it, but as with any chronic illness, it can be something that a good network of support can help as well.

petals
petals 2011-01-17 14:33:29 -0600 Report

You are right I am building a network of support right now and I hope that some of you on here will be part of it.

Gabby
GabbyPA 2011-01-18 13:52:00 -0600 Report

Of course we will. What ever we can do to help. We may not know all the things we need to, but a shoulder is always useful no matter what you are going through.

Gabby
GabbyPA 2011-01-18 14:18:37 -0600 Report

I am here anytime. Post me a private note whenever you feel a need to talk. I don't know a lot about depression, but I have broad shoulders and at the very least an interesting outlook on life.

PetiePal
PetiePal 2011-01-17 12:47:47 -0600 Report

Absolutely. I went through a good few months of being depressed about it. It almost felt like the 7 Stages Of Grief… at different times I felt pretty much all of the below:

1. SHOCK & DENIAL
You will probably react to learning of the loss with numbed disbelief. You may deny the reality of the loss at some level, in order to avoid the pain. Shock provides emotional protection from being overwhelmed all at once. This may last for weeks.

2. PAIN & GUILT
As the shock wears off, it is replaced with the suffering of unbelievable pain. Although excruciating and almost unbearable, it is important that you experience the pain fully, and not hide it, avoid it or escape from it with alcohol or drugs.

You may have guilty feelings or remorse over things you did or didn't do with your loved one. Life feels chaotic and scary during this phase.

3. ANGER & BARGAINING
Frustration gives way to anger, and you may lash out and lay unwarranted blame for the death on someone else. Please try to control this, as permanent damage to your relationships may result. This is a time for the release of bottled up emotion.

You may rail against fate, questioning "Why me?" You may also try to bargain in vain with the powers that be for a way out of your despair ("I will never drink again if you just bring him back")

4. "DEPRESSION", REFLECTION, LONELINESS-
Just when your friends may think you should be getting on with your life, a long period of sad reflection will likely overtake you. This is a normal stage of grief, so do not be "talked out of it" by well-meaning outsiders. Encouragement from others is not helpful to you during this stage of grieving.

During this time, you finally realize the true magnitude of your loss, and it depresses you. You may isolate yourself on purpose, reflect on things you did with your lost one, and focus on memories of the past. You may sense feelings of emptiness or despair.

7 Stages of Grief…

5. THE UPWARD TURN
As you start to adjust to life without your dear one, your life becomes a little calmer and more organized. Your physical symptoms lessen, and your "depression" begins to lift slightly.

6. RECONSTRUCTION & WORKING THROUGH
As you become more functional, your mind starts working again, and you will find yourself seeking realistic solutions to problems posed by life without your loved one. You will start to work on practical and financial problems and reconstructing yourself and your life without him or her.

7. ACCEPTANCE & HOPE
During this, the last of the seven stages in this grief model, you learn to accept and deal with the reality of your situation. Acceptance does not necessarily mean instant happiness. Given the pain and turmoil you have experienced, you can never return to the carefree, untroubled YOU that existed before this tragedy. But you will find a way forward.

Now I still get kinda bummed out sometimes…most recently in the cafeteria at lunch! I had a grilled cheese on wheat sandwich, some broccoli cheese soup and I passed a delicious looking blueberry crumbcake. A really heavyset older woman was like giggling to herself as she grabbed a slab, and I kinda felt a little depressed pang that I couldn't enjoy that too today lol. But you know what whatever I'll have a little ice cream this afternoon and be just fine bc I've got my diabetes under control and it's not all pain and misery…After awhile you really do start to get used to your routine, your diet and you begin to enjoy more what you DO have.

The best thing you can do is to go to your friends, family and other forms of support (like DiabeticConnect!) or a local support group. Most hospitals run a monthly one. If you REALLY feel that these things don't help a therapist is the next step! Never be ashamed…it's a tough thing to be told you're going to have a disease for the rest of your life and we ALL have felt down about it at some point.

I'm pretty optimistic and cheerful about the whole situation but believe me I was at a low point last summer/early fall too.

petals
petals 2011-01-17 14:39:02 -0600 Report

Part of my depression is the diabetes, I have had it for almost 9 years now. And up until last year it was under tight control. It's not anymore and that is one thing that I am working hard on changing. I like everything you said about, thank you. The other part of my depression is my marriage, we are having some trouble right now and are going to therapy for it. That is causing me extra stress. So I dealing with alot right now, but my health has to come first.

nana2005
nana2005 2011-01-17 04:51:08 -0600 Report

I understand what you are going though I have the same problem and it is very hard to deal with but once you have the right meds and well under controll it help you out in every day living. but you will have bad days and good days. I am also still on my meds to and I always will.
( the meds that I am On it Zolof 100 mg 1 x day.
So I wish you all the best., but if you feel at any point that you need more help talk to your DR so he can help you out more.

Good luck lol.
Anna

petals
petals 2011-01-17 14:40:30 -0600 Report

Thank you Anna for you kind words and support.

nana2005
nana2005 2011-01-18 08:26:43 -0600 Report

you are very welcome any time lol. if you need to talk let me know okay.

God Bless .
Take care

petals
petals 2011-01-18 12:14:55 -0600 Report

I will and thanks again. It's raining here today and that seems to make it worse. I guess it fits my mood though!

nana2005
nana2005 2011-01-19 02:20:02 -0600 Report

well try do watch something funny when you get in that mods ,I try that and sometimes it works for a little while.
I wish you all the best and take care, I hope this work for you, keep in touch.

Hugs Anna

petals
petals 2011-01-19 08:51:38 -0600 Report

I have been doing that and you are right it works for a little while. I will keep in touch and thanks Anna. Hugs