Hi All. I just saw my doctor yesterday for my routine lab test results. Not too good and for the most part, I did it to myself with my apathy toward having diabetes. My A1C was a little over 7. Cholesterol still high too. I complained about the incessant itching I have everywhere which I now know to be an indicator of glucose levels out of control. The most upsetting thing is that the patch of rash I developed on my forearm about a week and a half ago, is, according to my doctor, a fungal infection. Similar to the itchy rash I have been dealing with from time to time under one breast, also due to high glucose. (Sorry for the TMI!) Doctor prescribed Loratadine (antihistamine) and instead of the Nystop powder I was using for the breast issue, he gave me Triamcinolone Acetonide cream for both rash areas. My friend in the medical field told me to research cellulitis in diabetics. I did so and I didn't see any photos that resembled the rash on my arm but I will ask doctor when I return Jan. 27th. I am quite upset about whatever is on my arm.
I had a bad patch where I would forget to take my insulin and pills or else I was tired of having to deal with it and would tell myself, "I'll start tomorrow." For almost a month give or take a few days, I acted like I didn't have diabetes; did not take proper care of myself and now I'm reaping the results of my rebellion. I'm now angry at myself as well as this disease I have and I'm kicking myself for causing more harm to my body. I don't count carbs, having seen a dietician who explained to me how it should be done and leaving me completely boggled about the process. I even have books that teach carb counting and I find it to be confusing and a pain in the rear. I know to watch out for breads, especially white and that corn is a sugar bomb and I rarely eat sweets but that aside, I still eat pretty much as I always have. After seeing doctor this time, I knew I had to quit this self destructive behavior before I end up blind or on dialysis or missing a leg, etc. He keeps increasing my insulin at almost every visit. 5 more units now, which means 45 units of Lantus both morning and night, plus Metformin twice and Glyburide.
This apathy problem I have has been a recurring thing with me.I start out with proper intentions and then I slack way off. Probably the worst part is that my 72 year old dad was diagnosed as type 2 last year when in hospital after a heart attack. I do our cooking and while I refuse to cook red meat at home, he's sick of poultry, hates fish and still eats pork. He also occasionally will have a cheeseburger at Burger King and I say little about it because if I rag on him, it just aggravates him. I have to learn to cook properly for not only a us diabetics but also for his heart health. I don't exercise at all and I am setting a bad example for my dad which stresses me more.
I have two reasons for this rant. First, to say to anyone out there with an attitude like mine, don't let yourself get this way! Don't be an idiot like me and think that because you can't "see" diabetes that you can get away with ignoring yours. If it doesn't outright kill you, neglecting it will cause you serious and dangerous health problems that you won't be able to reverse.
Second, I am asking for advice. Can a diabetic eat properly without having to tally up every carb they eat? If not, is there an easy to understand way of doing it?
And how can I get out of this rut and get my caboose in gear?? I don't want to die or be so sick I wish I was dead but damn, sometimes I am up to my gills in all the lecturing diabetics get! I don't need constant reminders to inspect my feet every day and things like that and I get tired of food monitors! It's like once you become diabetic, all the world is Wilford Brimley telling you what and how to do! Another thing that frustrates me is the conflicting information from doctors who don't agree on how to treat diabetes. I worry about going with the wrong method. One famous doctor says going on insulin is the worst thing a diabetic can do while another famous one calls that doctor a quack. You probably know who I'm talking about. Actually, I'll make that a separate topic in a bit, and see what you guys think about treatments. I can't be the only confused and and frustrated diabetic here. :) Thank you so much for hearing me out!
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