Feeling hopeless

By bobec4 Latest Reply 2011-06-04 13:39:11 -0500
Started 2011-01-03 17:47:11 -0600

First off I would like to apologize for my previous posts it seems lately I have been out of line on this board and also with my own family. I have been working very hard on my health and it seems I am getting nowhere fast. My BG is all over the place, going from 300's to the lowest I have had was 38. To me it makes no sense I have not changed my diet besides to cut out a few carbs, I have been going for walks, and generally doing the right things. Then today I go to my doctor feeling concerned and he puts me on my first injectable medicine. To me this is a huge step backwards and I am feeling pretty down on myself. Then on my way home my father calls me on his way home from his doctor. Seems he is going to have to have his foot removed due to this disease. so all in all a pretty bad day. Thank you for letting me rant it does help to get thing out of your system.

18 replies

Gimpalong 2011-06-04 02:13:56 -0500 Report

I'm sorry you are having problems with your BS. It's not easy at times. Stress can also make your BS's go up and down. I'm so sorry that your father is going to have to have his foot amputated. I'll be thinking about both of you, and I will be praying for you both. God bless you both.

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2011-01-07 20:56:18 -0600 Report

Hope you are feeling better today. Some days it seems like we can be hit with two much. As others have posted it is not a step back. You just need another tool to help control Diabetes. Sorry your father is facing amputation.

PetiePal 2011-01-06 14:28:26 -0600 Report

While insulin may SEEM like a step backward it really isn't. Back in the 60s/70s/80s there was a large stigma created that insulin dependent diabetes (Type 1) was the BAD diabetes. This no longer rings true.

If I've learned anything in the past half year since diagnosis it's that diabetes is a very specific and similar disease at the same time! What do I mean by that? Well there are specific symptoms to each person and many similarities between those who have it. My father is a Type 2 for over 20 years and the foods that affect him don't affect me the same way. I also respond differently to meds than he does. He's actually on insulin (Simlin and Humalog I believe) to treat his now and he's doing better than ever.

I'm sorry to hear about your father, but if anything that sobering news should empower you to be determined to take the best care of yourself you can so that never happens to you. As Jusssme said sometimes it takes the Trifecta of Diet, Exercise AND medicine. If you were on pills already don't view the switch to injection as a backwards step, it's more a lateral slide (electric slide boogiewoogie if you will!) to a different type of medicine.

Jusssme 2011-01-03 22:58:03 -0600 Report

Sorry to hear about your dad. I know you don't realize it at the moment but maybe this can be a eye opener for you.

When I was first told that I had diabetes I was placed on oral meds and insulin injections. I was in denial, angry, hurt, you name it I felt it. That weekend I spent most of it finding any information that I could find.

Cutting carbs and getting exercise is great "BUT" as you can see it is not enough, a diet change may be needed.

Look at the injections as a tool. When your door squeaks, you lube it with oil. When the sun goes down, you turn the lights on. Well, when your numbers are bad you need injectable meds.

There's no steps backwards here, you're moving forward in your treatment to a better life.

Hang in there and vent anytime. Sometimes I just want to scream and kcik the dog too (so to speak).

When life hands you lemons, throw them out. Let someone else make the lemonade. The sugar will kill us. lol

GabbyPA 2011-01-03 19:54:53 -0600 Report

First let me say that all of us have had our days on here. I hope that things calm down for you specially at home. I am sorry to hear about your father, but simply let it be a guide for your attitude for control for yourself. Vent here all you want if it will keep peace at home. That is what you really need.

Also, never think of an injectable med as backwards. Insulin or other injections are just part of treatment. It is not a sign of failure at all, and you should never think of it that way. Also, your doctor should NEVER "threaten" you with that. I have heard many of them do that. If it is the way to better control, then that is what it is, pure and simple.

Hang in there and know that we are here for you in any way you might need. Even if you are feeling grumpy or yucky.

Harlen 2011-01-03 19:54:26 -0600 Report

First it is not a step backward its just what you need so menny think they are giving up NOT its just what you need .
I lost my mom to diabetis she just didnt like taking care of it ,it was to hard.
I love me and I was up to 300 ut of insulin a day and only taking in 45 grams of carbs then I got the pump and cut my insulin need down by 50 % and I can now have up to 65 grams of carbs cant this chainge YES I may need more insulin later in life but for now I am doing good keeping my BS good.I will do what I need to do to keep me well.
Take a deep breth and know that its going to work out as it dose as with anything you get out of it what you put in to it
Best wishes

agentfe36 2011-01-04 10:13:25 -0600 Report

Wow. Your concerns are just like mine. I am a recently dianosed diabetic, 3 weeks now. I have found myself to be "ready to jump" especially if a loved one disagrees with my thought process. I recognize it right away and apoligize but I feel it is not enough sometimes. My brother, 46 years old, just died of diabetes related complications about a month ago. I really feel down in the dumps, almost feeling worthless at times. My vision used to be 20 20 with no problems. Prior to medications my vison became extremely poor, scarey. I get a little confused when everyone gives me advice, i know they mean well, however it always seems to conflict what others are saying. My doctor just started me on Janumed (??) and I am already feeling a lot better. I was 386 when first diagnosed and my A1C (??) was 13.6 (i was told this was really serious??). Well I am hoping to take this disease by the horns and work to get under control, if anyones has suggestions please feel free to comment. Thanks, it helps to write this down

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2011-01-07 20:49:56 -0600 Report

Welcome to DC. Sympathies on the lose of your brother. I know it is so scarey to have something that contributed to a family members death. You wonder how it will affect you. My dad died two years ago of a condition I share with him. Taking charge of Diabetes is the best way to deal with it. Sounds like you are off to a good start.

Harlen 2011-01-04 12:44:09 -0600 Report

Hello and welcome
First it takes time to get this worked out for each of us are difrent
So dont give up if it dont fix every thing rite away.
The biggest thing I can think of is to cut the carbs and right down what you eat and what your BS is 2 hr after you eat .
Best wishes

agentfe36 2011-01-04 13:48:17 -0600 Report

Thanks. I guess I biggest concern is how my eyesight get real poor when my sugars are up. Maybe this should not be my biggest concern, but it is right now. Before being dianosed I always took everything for granted, as far as ingredients, sugar and carb content. I am starting to be much more aware. It helps that the City of Philadelphia now requires all restaurants to posts the nutrienital information on the menus. I am on the road most of the time and I use fast food alot. I guess I just need better choices.
Thank you for your input.

Harlen 2011-01-04 14:48:22 -0600 Report

Do you test 2 hr after meals?
this will help you know if your making good choices and help you make better choices .I right every thing down what I eat how much what my blood sugers are before I eat and 2 hr after
It helps a lot to look back and see what did what
If you keep your blood sugars down that will help your eyes
Best wishes

agentfe36 2011-01-04 15:02:39 -0600 Report

Yes. I just started today. Since I am on the road a lot i will be keeping a note book then i will add to the excel spreadsheet that is on this website

MewElla 2011-01-04 14:23:09 -0600 Report

I think it makes all of vunerable when we know we have a physical problem and we start really taking in everything that is happening to us, like you mentioned your eyesight. It is great that most of the resturants now post the nutrientions and leaves it up to us to try to make the best choices. I have a food journal that shows what I eat at each meal, my test #'s and how much I excercised that day. When #'s are inching upward, I pull the journal out and start tweaking it like mad. It's like I am accountable to me, and sometimes this is not easy to look at. Good Luck to you.

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