I'm new to this site and I thank God I found it. I ended up in the hospital in June of 2005 with a BG reading of 700. I drove myself to my doctor's office and I work in a hospital. No, I’m not a nurse, I'm clerical. I knew something was wrong with me but I've always been so busy taking care of everyone else that I just didn't take the time and didn't even want to try to take the time to care for me because there was nothing wrong with me that losing some weight wouldn't cure. That's what I believed. I haven't convinced myself fully yet that it isn't true.
But last summer (2007), I took myself off all my meds. I was on metformin, glyburide, actos, januvia, lantus; there were a few more but I can’t remember the names right now. Taking pills made me nauseaus. I felt ok. I was constantly sleepy, had no stamina, nothing…..but I believed that I was ok. I was just overworked. I only work 36 hours a week.
About a month ago, I took my BG and it was 545. I was reverting back to when I ended up in the hospital. I work in inpatient psychiatry and one of the doctors there knew something was wrong with me. He asked me what my BG was so I told him. HE CALLED MY PRIMARY CARE DOCTOR! I was happy that he cared that much but didn’t want to go to my doctor. He was going to put me on meds again and make me take needles. I didn’t want to do that. I didn’t have time for that. But I went anyway. I got yelled at (nicely) because it’s been over a year since I saw him. He said, “we’re going to take one problem at a time and get you back on track” so I agreed. Right now I’m on about 90 units of Lantus at night and 25 units of Novolog three times a day. I had a doctor appt this past Wednesday but I cancelled it. Before you yell at me, I did make a new one…October 8. I will go to that one. I really don’t want to die. I’m just confused, tired and I don’t know what else.
I’m taking the Lantus at night, that’s not a problem but the daytime needles are tough. I remember to take my BG reading every morning and do that needle but forget the other two. My readings are between 220-350 now.
I joined this site yesterday and for some reason, it’s got my attention. I read the posting about how to deal with ignorant people and I read all the responses and I watched a few youtube videos and ya know something…..I cried. I joined other diabetes sites but they didn’t do anything for me. I think this site might just help.
Please don’t tell me I’m stupid or ignorant for what I’ve done to myself. It’s not easy being diabetic, but you already know that. Just be my friend and maybe I can get the strength to make it through this? Thank you for listening to me.
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