Sorry I haven't been online in awhile- been going through a lot

By Chrissy6341 Latest Reply 2010-12-01 19:00:14 -0600
Started 2010-11-30 07:14:30 -0600

Hi everyone,
1s let me say Thank you to those that have left me messages. I will try and answer back as soon as I can. I hope everyone had a Happy Thanksgiving.

I have not been feeling well for a long time. I was in the ER Nov 1st & 8h of this month. What started out as back pain turned into a severe kidney infection and UTI. My white count was high and still is, even being on antibiotics for 14 days, Leviqin 750 mgs. At 1 point my BS hit 550 then slowly dropped down to 70. So now they are thinking I may need insulin. When it hits that low I get sick and even at 110 or so I am so nauseous.
When I saw my dr she sent me to a gastro dr the next day, they did some nuclear test, cat scans, x-rays, blood work. I have something called gastroparisis, from my diabetes not being well controlled. It will heal in time but now on meds for that and have to keep my BS under 150. Most days I cant eat very much, even little meals. My stomach swells up and I feel like I am 12 months pregnant.
They also found something with my heart that has to do with my mitral valve not working properly. Caused by my blood pressure that has been hard to control for some time. Apparently I have had diabetes for awhile and was not ever detected until Augest.
Also found was a mass on my adrenal gland that will need to come out asap. I did see a surgeon last week who referred me to a different endo who specializes in this. The mass, gland and possibly my spleen might have to be removed also. I have an appt this Friday.
They found something with my liver and I am also now facing losing part of my colon in the near future.
I feel like a walking time bomb and most days do nothing but cry and sleep from all this. My family has been great with their support & love. But I don't think they really understand how and what I am feeling at times.
I know I have beaten many odds the past 11 yrs but I just want it all to stop with me now. I did celebrate 11 yrs brain tumor free this month. I keep asking God why me, but I don't seem to get any answers.
I just want to be ME again, the me I was at least a year ago before I started feeling sick all the time.
With all the co-pays I am laying out it just makes it worse for me. It takes longer for me to see the Drs I need to and to fill my prescriptions.
I have already told my kids that they may not have anything under the tree, maybe 1 gift if possible. My husband had a pay cut of 10% and now the company has upped his medical insurance to double.
Between my health and the financial problems I feel so lost at times. I have no Christmas spirit, no holiday spirit at all. My son decorated the outside of the house and while I was away Sunday him and my daughter put the tree up. I am just not into decorating it or doing any of my crafts that I do every Christmas.
Well that's it for now. I just wanted you all to know why I haven't been on for awhile. Its not that I don't think of you all, I do.
I am going to lay down for awhile as I am tired from not sleeping well at night.
Thank you for letting me blab and getting it all out… HUGSSSS Christine

4 replies

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2010-12-01 19:00:14 -0600 Report

Sorry you are being hit with so much all at once. Please blab here all you want. Talking about it clears the mind, destresses a person a little. Please let us know how your appt on Friday goes.

GabbyPA 2010-11-30 12:36:35 -0600 Report

Oh Christine, I am feeling it for you my friend. We are glad to have you back and maybe things can get sorted out a bit among friends here. Good to have you back.

As for the Christmas thing...what we have started to do in our home is put everyone's name in a hat and each of us get to draw a name out of the hat. We put a $$ limit on it so no one feels jilted and then we allow anyone to buy stocking stuffers. That has helped us a lot, as we are also very tight. We spend a lot of our money on helping our neighbors to make sure they have a good holiday. Cooking for a few of them who are alone now.

It is good to have you "blab it all out" and we are here to be blabbed at any time you need.

realsis77 2010-11-30 11:00:12 -0600 Report

Hi I'm very sorry for all your going through! I'm having similar money problems myself and understand the fear and pain of christmas comming up! Be strong and God bless you! Also I pray you will be feeling better sonn and get your health under control. If you do go on insulin don't worry. I'm on two different kinds and I feel so much better and have so much more enegery! Its actually been a God send for me. I think if you do go on insulin you will feel a lot better and be a lot less tired. It dosnt hurt at all so don't worry about it ok. You will be glad you decided to try it. Insulin has made a great difference in my life!

CaliKo 2010-11-30 08:59:39 -0600 Report

Christine, I am so sorry for all you are going through. I will put you on my prayer list.
Hugs to you, stay strong.

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