Feet and Infections ~

By sNerTs1 Latest Reply 2010-11-09 15:29:43 -0600
Started 2010-11-06 13:09:57 -0500

My family has a long history of diabetes on my Daddys side. While my Dad did not have it, all of my uncles did. I had and have multitudes of friends living with it as well. I guess you wonder where I am going with this … it all has to do with "psyche" and how it plays on us.

I have seen family members and friends lose limbs (amputations), eye sight, heart problems, yadda yadda yadda … so when I found out that I too am a diabetic, my head went wild with everything. Yes I read and educated myself and tried to follow everything.

In April I had gotten a pedicure. I do this because I am vain and hate my doctor to have to check my feet while they are rough and yicky. When the lady did my foot she did something to my big toe and it hurt like a dickens. Being the girl that I am I shrugged it off and said "dont be a wuss Cheryl, suck it up" and I did until June when I couldnt stand it anymore and noticed that my toe was getting that lovely bright red of an infection. I immediately went in and saw my doctor and he put me on a string of antibiotics and foot soakings for awhile none of which totally took the infection away totally.

In October, I went in to see my doc and said "Ive had enough you can rip the nail off now" as to which he said really? Yep he did it that day. Im a person who is very toleratant of pain so we happy to get rid of infection. It is now healing nicely and is … yes DRUM ROLL HERE ~ healing nicely.

My mind, on the other hand, went all over the place during this. I sat up at night wondering if I was going to lose my toe and how would i know what gangreen looked like anyway as I have never seen it, would I limp or look funny … on how vain we humans really are. I lost tons of sleep for no reason at all, I took care of myself and was followed closely by my doctor and that shoudl have been enough.

What I am wondering is … like me, do any of you allow those visions to get into your head so much that you cannot sleep? That it affects your routines and how you look at anything like doing something physical because you could hurt yourself? Does it stop you from doing things because of that?

A little background into my situation ~ I take Metformin 500 mg a day. I used to take a half tab in the morning and 500 mg at night but I got so incredibly sick on that, that it was reduced. My sugars naturally fall in the 90-110s range before eating and 140-180 after eating depending on how bad I was with carbs and not drinking enough fluids.

Thank you for reading and thank you very much if you reply and help me with my "mind games" so I can get more settled.

30 replies

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2010-11-09 12:40:24 -0600 Report

I am a big time worrier about my feet and legs. Of course having nearly lost my life and/or legs due to a vascular problem earlier this year might explain it. I was diagnosed with diabetes during the disaster. I don't want to risk that ever happenng again, so no non-medical pedicurist for me. I didn't hesitate to pass on a free one offered to me on Saturday at a day spa event my niece was having for her pre wedding.
I guess I'm not to overboard with worry though. I did watach an old movie on TCM yesterday about a baseball player who lost a leg. Didn't even have nightmares last night from it.

sNerTs1 2010-11-09 12:56:52 -0600 Report

Oh my it hurt to read this Graylin!! I pray that you are well now. The disaster meaning your vascular problem? So was your vascular problem attributed to diabetes? Im sorry for asking if it hurts you to answer, please refrain, Im just trying to understand better where you are at with all of this. I have gone to a pedicurist for a very long time and never had a problem, I still trust them with my feet as i see they have a autoclave and sterilize their instruments before each use. I didnt see that at the other place but I went as a gift from my girlfriend.

I cannot begin to imagine the nightmare you went through with your problem and yes, the nightmares to follow watching anything similar augh!!

Thank you for sharing with me. I learn from people just like you and cherish that you have allowed me just that.

Take Care of YOU ~ Cheryl

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2010-11-09 14:49:36 -0600 Report

I don't mind you asking. The disaster was my vascular problem. Venous insufficeincy, venous stasis, or venous reflux are all terms the Doctors used. It basically meant the pumps in my leg veins went bad. Slushy leg veins caused serious leg ulcers. Cellulites and MRSA somehow got thrown into the mix. Between the stress and bad infection I think that might have been a tipping point to the diabetes. My Dad had the same bad leg veins. Whenever his legs got bad his blood glucose would go up. He always stopped at the pre diabetic level. Since shortly after my 3rd surgery my BG levels have improved. My BP has dropped to good numbers since my veins are working properly.
Trying to learn about my vein problem was very frustrating. I didn't know I had it until things went bad. It is hard to find info that is current aboout it. Even my Vascular Surgeon says there needs to be more information out there about it so it can be caught earlier.
I am most of the way healed. The Infectios Disease Doctor got rid of the cellulites and MRSA. The Wound Care Doctor and Wound Care Nurse healed the wounds. The Vascular Surgeon fixed the bad vieins with ablation surgeries. The GYN got rid of the pelvic mass that was compromising some veins, and trying to crush my liver. I still need to wear thigh high compression stockings. I need to have another set of ultra sounds and see the Vascular Surgeon in about 6 months. Hopefully there will not be other bad veins that need fixed. Then I will learn how often I need to be checked in the future. I still get tired to easy. I did extra walking at my niece's wedding on Sunday, went up and down a couple of flights of stairs at least10 times. Monday and today I am worn out. But it was so wonderful to be able to walk and go up and down those stairs. It didn't hurt, just made me tired. I'm going to take the stairs tonight at Tuesday''s Girls Night Out at Mom's. I'm too wuzzy to walk the 2.5 miles to her house today though.
As too the pedicure…I am paranoid.

sNerTs1 2010-11-09 15:29:43 -0600 Report

You are in my prayers. I hope that all goes well for you here on out and WOW about being able to do the stairs and extra walking!! YaY! That is most excellent. Take it easy on your body too, dont over stress it potentially hurting something more and your body will love it and react the way it should. Like they say, gradually go back into it and you will get stronger before you know it.

Take Care of YOU ~ Cheryl

GabbyPA 2010-11-07 09:27:35 -0600 Report

I sometimes let the tingle of neuropathy in my feet keep me up, and not because of the discomfort, but because of the worry. I do understand your concern, but there are far less worrisome things. The trick it to let your mind fill with positive things. Not to lie to yourself, but to keep a positive view of what is going on. Even if it seems that you would suffer a complication that would be altering to your appearance or lifestyle. Keep a heart of solution and perseverance that keeps you from filling things with doom and gloom thinking. I hope that makes sense.

sNerTs1 2010-11-07 12:50:13 -0600 Report

Pefectly good sense. The thing for me is I dont really worry until I feel something. I meditate and keep my mind pretty dang healthy, its just times like this with my toe nail that brought back all of those memories of everyone else and as it would be, I am a worry wart (thanks to my mom LOL).

I thank you muchly for your words of wisdom and I have pocketed them for when/if something enters in that shouldnt be there.

Jeannie Holmes
Jeannie Holmes 2010-11-08 14:55:56 -0600 Report

My husband is always telling me to quit worrying! Yeah right!!!!

jayabee52 2010-11-08 15:29:36 -0600 Report

I used to tell the mother of my children (now ex wife) that I had no need to worry 'cause she did enough for both of us. She'd tie herself up in knots which manifested in "trigger points" mostly in her back. Then I pressed the trigger points to relax her tension which had built up. We found a book by Bonnie Pruden which title, I think was "Triggger point therapy" which taught us how to do that.

Jeannie Holmes
Jeannie Holmes 2010-11-08 17:23:50 -0600 Report

I used to get so uptight and worried I'd brake out in hives. I think I had hives everyday for about 15 years. I finally got over that, but I still stress myself out too much!

sNerTs1 2010-11-08 22:28:55 -0600 Report

If ever you need someone to talk to, Im here for you Jeannie and I mean that sincerely. Its not good to stress yourself that much and I suspect you know this. If i can take any of yours on, I certainly will and help whenever I can.

You are much too beautiful of a person to stress yourself out.

*HugS* Cheryl

sNerTs1 2010-11-08 15:35:58 -0600 Report

Yeah to worry that much isnt good, you know that. Good approach to take on that one James =) I am always twisting what he says to me and it usually gets a good laugh or three.

jayabee52 2010-11-08 15:42:30 -0600 Report

actually the trigger point therapy often lead to a time of intimacy between us, cause after the Trigger point therapy I would massage her, which she loved and, well, I probably don't need to tell you the rest.

jayabee52 2010-11-08 17:37:28 -0600 Report

a GENTLEman never kisses & tells ! You son'r have to plug your ears and do the LA LA LA LA thing. LoL! ;-}

GabbyPA 2010-11-07 18:48:51 -0600 Report

I wish there was an on or off switch sometimes to make it easier. Fear does creep in, and that's okay as long as it doesn't unpack the suitcase. =0)

Jeannie Holmes
Jeannie Holmes 2010-11-06 16:02:59 -0500 Report

I totally understand what you are saying. I often wonder if the least little pain is something thats going to turn up bad. I can't talk to my family about this cause they would get upset with me. It great we have this site to go to. Otherwise I don't know what I would do.

sNerTs1 2010-11-06 22:47:30 -0500 Report

Oh Jeannie let me be your family then!! Together we can work it out =) Seriously though, it is hard. Most of my family members just dont get it while the one really does so I go that way and let her know whats going on. I must say though, my husband is a godsend through all of this. He just goes with whatever is needed and we do it. Thank you so much for your reply.

Jeannie Holmes
Jeannie Holmes 2010-11-07 12:07:03 -0600 Report

My husband is really supportive also. But He worries so much about me I hate to have him deal with my insecurities . As it is there is enough problems to upset him. Thank you for reaching out to me. I would be proud to have you as part of my family.

MAYS 2010-11-06 15:59:40 -0500 Report

I have something that may interest you, it's a book (pdf format) entitled
"Diabetes Atlas of the Diabetic Foot." (Wiley Publishing).

It's very precise and visually graphic, it explains medically, (as well as show you photographically) everything that can possibly happen to the feet of a diabetic due to uncontrolled glucose management, Nueropathy, and neglect.

Message me if you are interested (there is no charge, it's free).


sNerTs1 2010-11-06 22:48:34 -0500 Report

Absolutely Mays and thank you for replying. I would love that and will definitely message you. Knowledge is key in this, the more i know the better I can try to control everything. I appreciate your willingness to help me out.

Harlen 2010-11-06 15:56:21 -0500 Report

I love my feet and being X-mill I take care of them as a man I love getting my feet done and if sonone did something that hurt I will speek right up bigtime
Love your self like you wish to be loved
Best wishes

sNerTs1 2010-11-06 22:50:02 -0500 Report

I know right!! I love getting my feet done and gosh dang I snarled at her when she did it and I dont snarl ever. To think that i lost a toenail through all of this when it could have been prevented is hard but all of my family are already discussing how they are going to paint faces where the nail is. I guess thats ok sort of LOL!! Thank you so much for replying =)

runthe 2010-11-06 15:16:09 -0500 Report

Hello sNerTs1, I play mind games to. Being a diabetic you often wonder if you are going to lose a limb or lose your vision. I guess its a part of who we are. Do you have someone close to you that you can talk to about your fear? Coming to diabetic connect everyday and reading and talking to others like me helps me a lot. I don't have anyone close to me to share my fears with. That is why I come to this site everyday.

sNerTs1 2010-11-06 22:51:59 -0500 Report

Thank you Runthe!! I am not alone and that in itself is a huge relief for me so thank you for that. I do have one family member I can talk to and my husband is absolutely wonderful so Im blessed that way too. I am so AB normal though, that I am one of those that will hold it in and worry like that. For no real good reason. But, I think this site will help me come out of that shell =)

Thank you so much for replying and your words of wisdom. =)