I was diagnosed about a year and a half ago. My fasting bs was 150, so doc just told me to watch what I eat and lose some weight. I had gained back 40 pounds in about 3-4 months time. My dad was diabetic and took 2 shots a day. I was terrified. I'm a needle-phobe. Got into a deep funk. Checked my blood twice a day, cut carbs out dramatically (Atkins), did some walking on my lunch break. BS stayed with the 80-120 range doc wanted me in. So I thought, maybe he was wrong and I'm not diabetic.
So I started cheating a little bit here and there. Quit walking and quit Atkins (too hard to stay on for any length of time). bs was still okay. So I quit monitoring it closely..just sporadically. Then one day I checked it and my bs was 212. I went WTF???? Then started checking it more often and it would be anywhere from 160's to well over 200, sometimes even higher. Uh oh.
So, went back on Atkins and gained 2 pounds. WTF???? My hair was brittle, my skin was dry and making me look my age…I'm in denial there, too! :)
My feet hurt. My heels. Bad. Excrutiating pain. I feel like my feet can't hold me up sometimes, especially when I first wake up. So walking is not an option right now. Doc told me to get some arch supports..I did…they still hurt bad.
Now I can't get my bs under 140 no matter what I do. I wake up in the morning and it's in the 180's or higher. I'm watching what I eat, making sure I get more protein and fiber and less carbs. And can't get a handle on it. I'm afraid to tell my doc (I think he may have forgotten I'm diabetic) cause I know he'll want to put me on meds and I'm afraid if I go on them I will never get off them. I hate taking meds. I did finally agree to BP pills because I don't want to stroke out. I have sleep apnea so I don't sleep good, which I know has a bearing on my BS readings.
Now the funk is back. I'm not motivated to "suck up" the pain and start walking. I don't know how to proceed from here. Could really use some suggestions, without someone YELLING AT ME ONLINE and telling me to quit whining. I know I need to do something but there's so much information out there regarding diets for diabetics and exercise and blah blah…information overload. And like I said, the motivation is lacking. I keep thinking I should be motivated because I don't want the complications this disease can cause. sigh…HELP!!
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