Not really guilt from being Diabetic, but guilt for not always doing what I am supposed to do. I checked my bs last night for the first time in weeks, also not taking my meds…and oh gee what a suprise, my bs was 501. I have not seen my dr in a while due to losing my insurance, but I don't even want to think about what she would say if she saw what I'm sure is a very high A1c.
So I am starting over again from square 1, and I'm trying to get back the feeling of gung ho that I had when I was first diagnosed. Damn it, I want to see my daughter grow up and graduate high school, get married, and have kids of her own, so why do I keep doing this?
Sometimes I feel like a recovering addict and I keep relapsing…
Thanks for letting me get all this off my chest…now I'm gonna go walk for awhile!!!
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