I am sorry I have not been here more

HisTxLady
By HisTxLady Latest Reply 2010-10-06 05:48:48 -0500
Started 2010-10-02 05:24:36 -0500

Hello yall, I am very sorry I have been away. I have been so unnerved I am afraid to talk to anyone in fear I will rip there head off!!!! I have a lot going on right now. Hubby is out of work and I did get that paper work from Merck and send it in to get my meds worked out and the doctor did give me a month worth of samples to get me threw till Merck figures out what they are going to do. My BS has been all over and mostly running in the 200's. I am taking my meds and tracking my food with this site I found I also use it to track my BS's but it seems the harder I try the worse it gets. I guess it does not help that I am out of one of my head pills for my Bi-Polor. MHMR here did not get me my meds till today and I have been out of 1 of them for 2 weeks so my head has been going 90 to nothing. My son-n-law is out of work and that is never good for them both to be out of work…hubby and son-n-law…one of them normally depends on the other to make it threw there rough spot.

Also I went to the doctor Monday and she drew a bunch of blood and said she was going to check my liver, a1c, thyroid, cholesterol, CBC, and a few other things. Ok now I had this done on Monday she said she would have the results to me by Wednesday or Thursday and here I sit still shaking in my boots. So hubby called her office Friday and asked about my blood work and they said she took the day off GRRRRRRR, and the only thing she had put in my chart was to take more fish oil. So now I must wait til Monday again and call her back.I don't want to complain and gripe but I have been sweating those test all week…I want to know the results…there are a few I am worried about. My A1C for one and my CBC for another and that good old cholesterol too. Am I just being a very bad complainer or is there a real reason to be mad here. I am trying not to be but everything is hitting me at once.

Ok I have complained enough now my meds are kicking in so since it is 515am here I guess I better go rest a bit. Thanks to yall who listen without complaining that I complain to much lol. I hope everyone has a wonderfully perfect and happy day!!!!!

Hugzzz
Lori


14 replies

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2010-10-03 11:38:23 -0500 Report

Hi Lori,

Sometimes if feels like everything hits at once, not only to us but to the people we care about. Life can seem totally unfair. And then when the support systems we rely on to help us in our time of need, like the medical system, doesn't seem especially helpful or concerned, life seems even more unfair. And so we just have to ask: What's going on here?

There's nothing wrong with feeling how you feel. If you want to do some ventilating and complaining, so be it. We've all been through rough spots.

I would encourage you to stay focused on taking care of yourself and to stay compliant with your medication regimen -- from your message, it sounds like you are. For better or worse, as you know, it is all up to you. And as insensitive as healthcare providers can sometimes seem to be, I would also encourage you not to take anything personally. They are also challenged by limited resources and multiple demands. Please don't be discouraged.

I'm glad you are reaching out to your support system here at Diabetic Connect. You always have friends who are willing to hear what's going on with you. You are on my mind!

HisTxLady
HisTxLady 2010-10-03 17:07:40 -0500 Report

Thank you kindly Dr Gary. And yes life does seem unfair. It is unfair that my Mom had Diabetes and suffered many complications before she passed. It is unfair that now I have Diabetes. It is unfair that I look at my 2 wonderful grandkids and wonder if they too will have to do all of this some day? It is unfair that people, including Doctors, have claimed to me that Diabetes is a eating and weight disorder. I think that one gets me hard because these Doctors are suppose to know how this stuff works yet they continue to blame it on how we eat. I now know why my Mom would get so upset if her sugar was high, she would jump to say that she had been staying on her diet and had not eaten any, what she called nono foods. It is not about the diet alone. I will not argue the diet does play a role in Diabetes, but not the one of the cause. I now track EVERYTHING I eat or drink. Including water. I love the MyPlate D program!!! It helps me to keep track of my intakes and my sugar levels all in 1 tidy page. I really wish and think they need to figure away to let ones Doctor view that page. It would be so much easier than trying to write it all down and keep it neat. This site, http://www.livestrong.com , even lets you download it to excel or a .cvs and print it out, I just always forget to pick up the darn printed out sheets on my way out the door lol. But it is a very nice site with all kinds of information to help diabetics and others trying to lose weight or beef up perhaps. But the site has an info page with like 4 questions on it, like hight weight and how much do you wish to lose or gain. Then it takes that info and gives you how many calories you should eat a day in a week. I myself am on 1,881 calories a day and I have to fight to get all that in and watch my fat, sugar, carbs, and cholesterol at the same time. I normally have like 1/4 of calories left to eat a day when I head for bed. I just don't see why I can't lose this weight on this diet, no i don't exercise a lot, but that is on its way, hubby bought me a treadmill so I can walk with my o2 on.

Yes I am very diligent about my meds. I have a friend with Diabetes and every so often she will drop all of her meds but her mussel relaxers and pain pills and say "I am good now, better off now that I am not on all those meds" and tells me to try it and I tell her noway I have reasons to take my meds thank you and I call them Grandkids.

Oh my I wrote another book here. Sheesh Maybe I need to find a blog to use cause I keep writing books on here!!! People are going to start running from my post lol. Saying oh no there is another post by Lori and I so do not feel like reading a book today lol. So I will close for now, but before I do, Thanks a million Dr Gary for your help.

Hugzzzzzz,
Lori
God Bless

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2010-10-05 12:26:43 -0500 Report

Hi Lori,

Great to hear from you again! I always enjoy reading your posts.

You comments are a good example of how people with chronic conditions -- diabetes being a prime example -- are sometimes treated by members of the healthcare establishment as well as society in general. If you blame the victim by passing off their condition as laziness, then I suppose you can also assume that life is totally predictable, and that 'bad' things won't happen if you are doing the 'right' things. As if we were totally in control! Too bad life isn't that cut and dried, right?

Some great ideas in your post. I didn't realize that the livestrong site had that many tools on it. And congratulations on working so hard to manage your diet -- it the diet program makes it easier to stay on track, and is a little bit fun, so much the better. That is one thing we do have control over. I hope you have a lot of success! And your right, grandchildren are a good reason to stay compliant. That is all of the motivation you need (along with your husband being a cheerleader and treating you to a treadmill).

Maybe you should consider starting a blog!

Thanks for staying in touch. Have a great day!

HisTxLady
HisTxLady 2010-10-06 05:48:48 -0500 Report

Thank you kindly Dr Gary. I am glad you enjoy them and I think I am going to find a blog and I will start typing away when I find one lol. I really don't mean to ramble but I start writing about something and the next thing I know it's a book lol. Yes I used to get SO mad at the Doctors and Nurses that tended my Mother, She to was a type 2 Diabetic but I think it was type 1 by the time she passed. One time she went to ER for being sick and the Doctor told her she had Phenomena and admitted her to the hospital. And my Mom had been on Diuretics for years, Lasix, and the first thing that Doctor did was take them away from her. She swelled up could not talk was not lucid to be truthful. We had to life flight her to Houston for Dialysis and she had to have Dialysis for the rest of her life and I blame that Doctor. But I guess it was an inevitable with her Diabetes but if people would learn to listen and think maybe they would not lose near as many patients as they do. Yes I agree life is not that cut and dried it would be so much easier if it was. Thank you I do work hard at my diet, sometimes hubby and I go round and round about my diet numbers and what I can or can not eat, but he tries very hard and loves me beyond end as I do him.

Thank you so much for your kind words I hope things go well in your life for you too.

God Bless, :o)
Lori

Gabby
GabbyPA 2010-10-02 14:23:48 -0500 Report

Well at least you popped back in to let us all know. That is a good sign that you want to clear the air and move in the right direction. We are here for you in good and bad times...hang in there. Things will eventually work out.

HisTxLady
HisTxLady 2010-10-03 06:37:00 -0500 Report

Thank you kindly Gabby. It was not my intention to join then disappear. We have a cold or flu or something fling around here and everyone has been sick. So my mind and strength was redirected for a few days. Thank you for your kind words I am sure it will work out too its just the stress I get from hubby and kids drive me crazy sometimes. Today I put on my music and went and played in my Facebook account and told them all Mom took the day off please hold your thoughts till a later time ty. lol They thought I had lost my mind.

Hugzzzzzz,
Lori
God Bless

realsis77
realsis77 2010-10-02 10:51:46 -0500 Report

Try not to worry too much because that will raise your numbers
I found that out the hard way. Best of luck too you and I hope you get your treatment plan worked out for the best ! Its great your doctor can give you samples to help out ! God bless and have a great day.

HisTxLady
HisTxLady 2010-10-03 06:28:17 -0500 Report

Thank you kindly and I am sure I will get it figured out and yes stress drives mine up fast. My daughter came by today and after she left my sugar was up by like 82 points which made it 236. I promise I will watch my stress and ty for your kind words and understanding.

Hugzzzzzz,
Lori
God Bless

RAYT721
RAYT721 2010-10-02 09:12:18 -0500 Report

I don't believe that we've had the chance to "speak" before so accept this reply as a little "Howdy" from Ohio. I totally understand the stress that you're under and while I won't go on with a rambling of my views on the medical community and often incompetency, I would think if your blood work were of worry, they would have gotten a hold of you. Sometimes, it's been said, no news is good news… and I hoping that is the case for you. In the case of the employment issue and lack of funds for medical needs, I sympathize and hope you can find financial and medical relief from local and federal agencies. There are many people in need like yours. I hope you can find the appropriate ones, which often takes a lot of research and a lot of patience.

I so totally understand how going without head meds can play tricks on you and hope they will kick in to help with clear thinking as you go through all that you are going through. Please know that I understand and have a genuine concern for your situations … emotionally, physically and financially. How I wish I could be one of those lucky lottery winners to not only improve my life but help to improve the lives of others who genuinely need the financial help. When I read of those winners who go off to bankruptcy, drug addictions and other curses that money sometimes brings. I vow that I would not be like that. If I were ever given the break with fame and fortune, I would use the blessing to help others… like yourself.

While none of us have the answers or help that you require, please know that you are among real friends in a virtual family. We are strangers in many cases but we do share with you the necessity to vent, laugh, share, ask, and even answer our needs as well as your own. We are so glad that you found us and that you have not forgotten about us.

Other than having big ears and shoulders (do I sound like Shrek) to listen and sympathize with your situation(s), if there is anything that I can do or say, won't you please let me know what those things may be? I've never felt as close to a bunch of strangers as I do with the wonderful people here. I hope you feel the same.

I will pray for you and your family to get through the fears and frustrations that you're going through and in the meanwhile know that I have a virtual hug for you. Please keep us posted on the good or bad news you get from your tests but I am hoping for a happier and healthier followup post from you soon.

HisTxLady
HisTxLady 2010-10-03 06:23:23 -0500 Report

Well Ray a BIG howdy from Texas!!!!! I agree with you I don't think we have had a chance to speak but I am glad we are today. Ray I want to thank you for understanding my position. I am really glad you chimed in. I am hoping you are right on the blood work but I fear it is not…for 1 I am REALLY over weight and I am trying very hard to fix that!!!! I do not do much of anything because I never feel like it. It is a big ordeal to get me to the doctor any more, I can still walk just not very much or very long and with me in that shape I don't see good blood work. But I will keep good thoughts and truly try to believe thats is all it is just no news being good news. Thank you for all of your words of encouragement

Hubby wants me to get another doctor. He says the one I have now is nothing but a script writer. I have argued this point with him for a couple months now until my doctor did something that totally shocked me to no end. I am allergic to codeine and PENvk…or penicillin. Sooo I do NOT take either one!!!! Well she gave me a script for Hydrocodone/APAP and she told me if I have any allergic symptoms to take Benadryl. When I take these I must be ready for bed because i need to go to sleep before it hits me. I get very ill affects from it and can hardly sit still…I know it will sound weired but it makes my legs achy and hollow feeling. Plus I get super super hot and flushed and dizzy and nauseated and my head hurts. lol funny I take a pain pill and get a headache.

Ok I am rambling so I guess it is time to turn the soap box to someone else lol. Thank you again Ray and I too have you a virtual hug

Hugzzzzzz
Lori
God Bless

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