a place to vent

By marla50 Latest Reply 2010-10-03 07:30:27 -0500
Started 2010-10-01 01:03:00 -0500

I am new to this. I'm wondering if this is where I want to be. I need someone to talk to. Some where just to vent. Having diabetes for a very long time, I'm begining (that doesn't even look right) to have alot of strange things going on. I woke up sometime this morning to a low. First I dream, and in the dream I realize I'm in a low and eventually I have to go to the bathroom. I don't have a voice, I can't call for help. I make it to the floor, I crawl into the bathroom, I barely can pull myself onto the toilet. I then crawl into the living room and yell for my mom. I'm crawling!!! I'm on my hands and knees. Somebody shoot me now. They ordered me a pump today. I tried it before, it almost killed me. thanks for reading this

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Guardianstone 2010-10-02 02:18:05 -0500 Report

Such a vivid dream. Talk about the night terrors. Whatever you had before bed, forget it.
I realize you feel upset with the dream. It is difficult to let go.
I have had dreams that make my skin crawl that seem to last forever. They are vivid beyond imagination. If you find a cure, or preventive, let me know.
With all the problems heavy on your mind it would be unlikely that you would be having anything but nightmares.
Take care of yourself. I am trying meditation. I'll let you know if I find anything that works.
Gods blessings
Guardian stone

GabbyPA 2010-10-01 08:18:09 -0500 Report

Just a clarification Marla, what you described is a dream, not your actual situation? or is it?

As for this being the right place...you bet! We are all here to talk about what we are going through, what we are learning and what we are needing help in. Vent anytime you like, I hope that you will come back in to read the things folks share with you.

marla50 2010-10-03 00:29:48 -0500 Report

i realized after I re-read it, it sounded like I was talking about the dream. No. it really happened' The lows are really getting to be a real bad experience. THANKS FOR THE INFO.

GabbyPA 2010-10-03 07:30:27 -0500 Report

That has to be horribly frightening. As many have shared, you might look into a slow release carb snack before bed such as a bit of chocolate, a slice of toast with full fat cream cheese, or even an apple with peanut butter. The other thing you might want to consider is keeping a small can of coke or glucose gel at your bedside so you can easily reach it if you have a low.

Are you alone? Do you have someone you can get help from when these happen? I am sure if the pump is programmed properly it will help. I have heard so many great testimonies about them here.

Guardianstone 2010-10-03 01:13:06 -0500 Report

Im sorry I misinturpreted what you were saying. I can offer you an ear to vent to. If you need I can also offer a sholder to cry on. If you want to talk, holler out.
Guardian stone

Elrond 2010-10-01 06:47:15 -0500 Report

Hi Marla,
It certainly sounds as if you need help. You need to discuss this with your endocrinologist or diabetes educator. You shouldn't be having low sugars while you're sleeping. If necessary, eat a little more protein before bed. You might also need to adjust your insulin schedule but talk to your doctor first about that. If you had trouble with the pump before, either it was improperly adjusted or you weren't giving it accurate carb information. The pump can only act on the information you give it. If you tell it you're going to eat 30 grams of carb and then eat 15, it will give you an overdose of insulin. The result will be a low sugar. If you eat more carbs than you tell the pump, your sugar can climb through the roof. So especially with a pump, carb counting is the key. Even if you have to guess, you can learn to guess pretty well with practice. And don't cheat. If you just can't resist a candy bar or bag of chips, tell the pump about the carbs; it won't judge you, it will just give you insulin to handle it.
An important thing to remember is that every low can cause irrepairable damage to nerve cells. And brain cells are nerve cells. High sugars can be nearly as bad. At least until you get these nighttime lows under control, keep a source of quick sugar near your bed. (glucose tabs, non-diet soda, etc) I know from experience that thinking is difficult when your sugar is low so don't count on doing anything complicated. Pop a top and drink or chew.
Again, talk to your doctor and see if you can find a good diabetes education class. In the mean time, read the discussions here and feel free to ask questions. We're all happy to help.
Good luck.

GabbyPA 2010-10-01 08:14:21 -0500 Report

Elrond, this is a great post! Judgment is reserved for the ignorant. I love how you put it here, thank you.