Last night, when I got home from work, I was immediately asked what I wanted for dinner. Well, I was already upset. I had just spent my afternoon outside in the heat and humidity for our office picnic and my car wasn't running right. When I am upset/stressed I tend to not eat at all. So my response was "I don't care. I am not hungry." To which I got "You are the one that has the special dietary needs in this house, you are going to have to plan the dinners around what you can have." At this I just walked away. Normally, we work as a team so I wasn't sure how to take that. He looked at me and started to say "I know this is hard on you…" and that is where I lost it. I told him that he didn't know and he didn't understand because he CAN eat what ever he wants. I guess I have finally hit the point where I am tired of counting the carbs and the sugars but I am also tired of feeling the effects of eating the other way. I guess there really isn't a question to this whole thing other then please tell me I am not alone in these frustrations. I guess alot if it comes from the fact that I am struggling at work because there are a few diabetics that work here that don't really watch what they eat. One is on an insulin pump and drinks Mt. Dew, he just ups the insulin. It drives me nuts and I tell him about it all the time. I just changed the way I eat and no one understands.
Don't get me wrong, my boyfriend has been WONDERFUL through this change. I may have just been a little touchy yesterday? He took me to the store to look at what I CAN have in an effort to make me feel better. I just get so bored with eating the same things over and over again. I am a picky eater to begin with, so trying new things is hard for me.
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