I have been fighting and struggling to take control of my diabetes. Making sure I take all of my BG, eating the right amount of carbs for my diet, getting LOTS of exercise. I have the appropriate good balance of minerals and supplements I take each day. Yet, I have hit a road block in my fight with my diabetes. My diet plans is working GREAT for me but this road block I am talking about has to do with my oldest daughter (which she is 12 going on 23…I'm sure this is said by others too…). let me explain more in detail before you throw your eyes brows and questions of how she is a effector here.
I buy all of the groceries in my home. I plan my meals out accordingly and with flexibility. I purchase foods that are healthier for everyone in my house. Some of those foods are still to high for what my diet guidelines fall. Therefore, I also purchase foods that are healthy & great for me to intake. I put these foods well up and out of the reach of my children. Along with pointing out and telling them Not To Eat these foods. There is ALWAYS food in my house for them.
My oldest daughter feels the need she has to eat ALL of the foods that were purchased for me to eat. Than when there is no food for me to eat. I am forced to eat the foods I know that are higher in carbs then what I can have. Because of my sons weight issues (per his doctor & dietician) I have a routine of 3 meals and 3 snacks. If they are wanting more then I have always asked that you ask. I understand that kids have growth spurts, I understand all of that stuff. I also understand I am dealing with a child with other serious personal issues. Issues I have been CONSTANTLY talking to her doctors about.
Please do not get me wrong here. I love my oldest daughter to no end but this is hurting me as well. I have tried to change how often I shop to once a week. I was told to lock these things up not just because of her but because of other issues. AGAIN, the whole money thing. I am soooo furious and angry here.
I do excellent EVERY MONTH till all of this starts going on. We stopped asking the reason(s) why because we already know this answer. I am thankful I am going to be talking to someone starting Monday to help me with various issues. The things that are going on right now is above and beyond what I am able to handle. I am almost at a breaking point of wanting to walk away from EVERYTHING I have worked hard to do. I will take the blame when I do something I know I am not suppose to do but I refuse to take it when I am not the one doing it. I am lost and refuse to be told and lectured and said it is my fault for when I things like this happen. It's all over…if things do not start changing i my home… I am done…I am giving up on it all. I am sorry. I fight to find the positive but this is breaking my heart trying.
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