Hello, those who don't know my situation well I have a one year old sister, Kylie and I have been struggling to take care of her the best that I can and I have been doing the best that I know how and going to doctors and researching juvenile diabetes and everything that pertains to it but she got sick and I failed her.
I needed a break even though I didn't want to leave my sister but my aunt said that it would be good for me to stay with her for a few days before summer when I am taking care of Kylie 24/7. So I stayed with my aunt for four days and I was even excited about having a few days to do whatever I wanted to do and sleep late and go out with my friends and my boyfriend. I was being selfish because the day before I left Kylie's blood sugars started to spike occasionally and I called the doctor and he said to use a chart and give her a little extra medicine and keep a close eye on her sugars. I told my mom, she said she had days off and would be home with her but she just said that to make me feel better about leaving. She hired a babysitter at nighttime even though Kylie was sick and running a temperature of 100 and her blood sugars were spontaneously spiking. Kylies blood sugar went up in the 400's when my mom took her to the hospital. Kylie was dehydrated and had to have and iv and was even admitted to the hospital and my mom didn't tell me. My grandma called my aunt and she told me. She had ketones and was diagnosed with something called DCA, I think, meaning her diabetes got real bad.
I want to take my sister and run away. I'm scared for her that I will get her sick again. I'm scared that I won't be able to take care of her and keep her healthy.
Her doctor treated Kylie when she was in the hospital and when I came to see her he was in the room. He asked me questions like if she was throwing up before coming to the hospital and I told him I didn't know that my mom would know and he said that she said she didn't think she threw up but was not with her because she had to work. He asked where I was and I didn't know what to say. I lied and told him that my aunt needed my help because I didn't want to say that I was escaping a few days at my aunts. The doctor told me she could have gone into a coma if it got worse.
I hate my myself for this and I hate my mom for not taking care of Kylie.
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