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By OMG-T2 Latest Reply 2010-03-31 22:04:30 -0500
Started 2010-03-30 15:24:05 -0500

Hello there kiddies!

Just wanted to relate my latest, from my appointment today. I had my first A1C since the initial one, where/when I was diagnosed. I started this journey with an A1C of 11.4 on December 30th, 2009 and today, March 30th, 2010 my A1C is 8.1!

Now of course, I'm not entirely thrilled with this number as I figured all my efforts should have resulted in an A1C under 7, but even as my physician said, this is still new for me, and it will still take some time/medication/diet/exercise and the magical combination thereof for me to hit my mark…but I will do it!

All my numbers were improved on this trip…my triglycerides are down from 147 to 90. My cholesterol is down from 193 to 149. The "good" cholesterol (HDL) could be a tad higher as I am a woman and it should be over 50, but is currently 43; the bad cholesterol (LDL) is down from 96 to a better 88.

In the 3 months since my diagnosis, I have lost 31 pounds. Some could say that the metformin did it, but my physician says that's not always the case, and she believes that it was my hard work that did it…particularly as it reflected in my numbers.

So, that means that since my move to lovely, scenic New Mexico in 2006 - when I started trying to lose weight - I have lost, in total - thus far - 118 pounds! Damn, that's a whole small person! Oh, well, can't say that I miss her, I consider her my diminutive evil twin!

Additionally, my PA and I decided to take me off of Actos, since it was really making me feel crummy. I mean BAD! I was lethargic, sore, moody and I developed a slew of mystery pains everywhere. While the Actos did contribute to a reduction of my BS, it doesn't seem significant enough to justify its continued use, so, bye-bye Actos, hello Amaryl!

I am starting this new medication today, and I hope it will aid in stabilizing my fasting BS and protect me from the ravages of the "dawn phenomenon", but we'll see. My PA said that she didn't initially want to start me on the Amaryl because it can cause some weight gain, but given that she sees how proactive I am in reducing my weight, she isn't overly concerned at this point. Three months ago, when I was an unknown quantity around weight loss, yeah, I would have been skeptical too!

OK, so what have we learned? Well, I am going to make a series of confessions here to anyone who doesn't think they can handle their diabetes.

First of all, I am the laziest person in the universe. I like to run rampant in my mind, not with my body…I detest exercise and figure that G-d had me in mind when He invented cars, elevators, escalators and all other means of conveyance. But when I was diagnosed, I got the heck off of my dead butt and started walking - not a lot, in fact, probably not near what I should - maybe 25 to 30 minutes a day, and even that is broken up into 2-3 sessions. And I don't even do it every day…probably 4-5 times a week. Still, it helps, trust me on this! Sure, I'm cursing under my breath every step of the way, and I am never so enamored of the scenery that I wouldn't prefer to just go take a nap, but I do it because I am getting results!

I currently weigh 242 pounds and while I am a relatively tall, large-framed woman, I'm still obese, and probably always will be to a greater or lesser degree. Getting up and moving is usually the farthest thing from my mind. However, running a close second is the number of times I find that I need to eat - healthfully - each day.

I come from a culture of people that were healthy hunter-gatherers (American Indians) before the introduction of rationing and cheap "refined" foods in the form of white flour, grease, sugar and other nastiness. But I grew up on foods made from those things…I ate frybread and sweet corn soup, grape dumplings (talk about nastiness!) and mega amounts of potatoes in all forms; I ate that crap for most of my 46 years. And I was HAPPY eating it! I miss it still, though I know how terrible it was! Additionally, I also believe that G-d made fast food joints exclusively for me, and was often irritated to see other people in the drive-through lines, taking MY chicken McNuggets, or MY Whopper(s) - forcing me to wait for the next batch and making me wonder if the term "fast food" wasn't as accurate as I had come to believe.

But the day I was diagnosed, I stopped, cold turkey, as it were. Since that day, I have had no more than perhaps one ounce of white potatoes, and most of that one ounce was "hidden" in other foods. No sugar if I can help it, nothing white except cauliflower! I have not had any fast food at all and will be shocked if my local McDonald's doesn't close down due to a lack of business from me. I eat as naturally as I can given that I am at the top of the food chain and didn't ascend to this place only to eat nuts and twigs (though, nuts are pretty good!).

I grill my meats and chicken, I still fry my fish, but instead of using flour or cornmeal, I coat my filets in flaxseed meal seasoned up without salt…tastes just as good to me. I also fry chicken gizzards in flaxseed meal, and they are AWESOME! I load up on sauteed veggies, as I have a deep, abiding love of squash which is particularly good sauteed. I search the internet for recipes that are variations on what I like to eat, because I can be somewhat picky too nowadays.

I just try to make deliberate, sane choices in my diet, and it isn't always easy because there are times when I'm busy or tired (usually both) and it would be a snap to just hit the drive-through and gulp down crappy food…but it's just not worth it.

So, I guess what I am trying to say with ALL of this rambling blather is simply this: If I can do it, ANYONE can - and I mean that.

My co-workers, friends and other loved ones always say that they are impressed with my resolve and my efforts, they always say that if it were them, they don't believe that they would be able to accomplish the same things in the same time span or with the same diligence. I always tell these people the truth, that I'm weak in some pretty stupid places - like when I want a brownie, or some cookies, or when I want to eat mashed potatoes or cottage fries - I don't do it, but it takes a monumental effort. I furiously throw myself into finding some alternative to "bad" stuff, and usually, by the time I'm done, I find that either what I could create for myself as a "placebo" would be tantamount to a science experiment gone bad, or so expensive as to be prohibitive, either the craving is gone, or I just get bored focusing on something so idiotic.

Food is food, it's not a replacement for love I didn't get from my Mother or the love of my life. It's sustenance and while it has its place, it's not all there is to life. It used to be that I lived to eat, now, I eat to live.

So, I stand by my statement that if I can do it, anyone can…I am not perfect, whether we're talking numbers or personality, but I try and believe me, no one is more surprised at my results than I am!

15 replies

alanbossman 2010-03-31 22:04:30 -0500 Report

Great post,you have come a long way in such a short time great job. Keep up the great job you are doing. I hope others that are having similar problems as you have had to inspire them to do as you have done.

OMG-T2 2010-03-31 13:27:33 -0500 Report

OK, folks, it's too early in my day to cry! Yet, in reading the replies to my post, that's exactly what I'm doing…not out of sadness, but because I am totally moved by the love and support I have received from all of you beautiful people!

Thank you SO much for the feedback, I honestly wasn't expecting anything so wonderful, I was mostly just wanting to "let it all out" after my appointment yesterday…that all of you are listening and more importantly, can understand what I'm talking about (a major benefit of being a part of this community), makes me feel like there's more positivity working than just my own efforts at controlling my disease, it feels like I have all of you with me, and I guess I do - I have you in my mind and my heart.

Dang, I am not good at expressing my feelings, but I felt that I should let you all know just how touched I am by the outpouring of support and caring here…actually, not just here, but as it spills over into all the places in my life!

And finally, there is no magic to anything I've done thus far in trying to control my diabetes, but if anyone wants more detail about what I have done and even what I might do, LOL, just email me…I am happy to discuss anything at all!

Thanks again, y'all…you're the best!

Roy531 2010-03-31 13:40:41 -0500 Report

Didn't I tell you in posting your numbers that you would do it, Just to have faith. You DID do it. Again I am so very proud of you

OMG-T2 2010-03-31 14:52:23 -0500 Report

Roy531 of the "sweet as sour pickles" fame!

You are just incredible! You were SO right about the numbers posting thing, had I not had the guts to just be open about that, I probably wouldn't have had the courage to share all of what I did yesterday. I'm sort of shy about these things, and generally don't figure that most people want to hear about my situation…but I guess that's because so many of the people that I interact with in the rest of my days either don't have diabetes or they don't really care about it. I can't blame them, but as a result, so many things get lost in translation, you know?

That you are proud of me makes me feel great! It motivates me to continue to do what's right and to just relax…the two can actually coincide!

Roy531 2010-03-31 15:23:09 -0500 Report

I am not the one that is incredible, you are. Look at what you have done, it is unbelievable in just 3 months what you have achieved. I can't wait to see what you will achieve in the next 3 months. Roy

jayabee52 2010-03-30 20:08:39 -0500 Report

That's FANTASTIC omg! Way to go! Thanks for telling your story! Praying you will continue to make progress and get a better grip on the DM.

from my ♥

dietcherry 2010-03-30 18:09:50 -0500 Report

I love your line about the "evil diminutive twin"! That is funny stuff! Congrats on all your accomplishments and keep it up! Renee :)

Roy531 2010-03-30 17:26:44 -0500 Report

Loved your post and am very Proud of you. I know a lot of people that need to read this, some are not diabetic but still such dedication that you have shown is amazing. This should inspire all of us to do better and work harder to reach our goals. Again I am Very, Very Proud of you.


spiritwalker 2010-03-30 17:12:05 -0500 Report

WOW! I believe you will help empower and inspire everyone who reads
this. You have done the work to reach this point in a short time and you should be proud. You certainly have added inspiration to my day. Keep
up the great work.

KarenH 2010-03-30 17:11:53 -0500 Report

Awesome work! I enjoyed reading every bit of this and want to thank you for sharing with all of us. I hope I can be more like you…Karen

OMG-T2 2010-03-31 14:41:57 -0500 Report

Hi KarenH!

Nah, don't be like me, you are fabulous as you are…I still need a LOT of work! I am not so much proud of my efforts around my particular case of diabetes, as much as I am unwilling to let this defeat me, and I have to believe that all of us that struggle with this disease have a similar mindset. I see it everyday here in what all of the good people here convey and everyone here is an inspiration to keep up the fight!

GabbyPA 2010-03-30 15:47:04 -0500 Report

What an incredibly inspiring post! Thank you so much. I think I will print it out and keep it at my desk to remind me that there are people like you out there. This is just fantastic! I smiled the whole time I was reading it. You are in control of your diabetes, not the other way around. Oh, I just don't know how to say it, but I feel good after reading you post!

OMG-T2 2010-03-31 14:45:54 -0500 Report

Hi Gabby!

Thank you, but I'm just putting into action so much of what I am learning here. I have avidly read many of your posts and gleaned incredibly useful information from them. You have a good heart and a willingness to share what you learn…that's a gift to all of us! I am not special, but hey, if anything I can say gives a positive impact - I'll keep talking! Thanks so much for your comments!

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