By Deb-G Latest Reply 2010-02-20 00:29:43 -0600
Started 2010-02-15 09:22:49 -0600

Wow…we've come a long way…6 continuations of our hearty fun…Our only request is mean spirited comments directed at anothers post are not welcome…but bit*h, moan, groan, joke, or whatever else you like and about anything you like…its all about venting and finding humor in the things that are making us crazy :)

Lets keep the laughs comin :)

303 replies

Goog 2010-02-19 12:56:47 -0600 Report

Just went to the Doctor after a year, oh well, atleast i went, now i'm on more meds, totally depressing but i did losse 9 lbs since the last time i went and 5 inches off my waist anothe milestone!
I have type two, working on the weight loss thang and eating right so i can hopefully get off the meds someday in the future, hopes the sun starts shiniing soon, it's so depressing all gloomy and grey! have a nice wekend all! god Bless, Goog

Deb-G 2010-02-19 13:07:03 -0600 Report

Hey you be proud of that 9 lbs! Thats great..and its a step in the right direction right :) So ok you have more meds but think of it as a temporary safety net for your body while you keep doing the wonderful job your doing…I think weight loss is an extremely difficult thing so take pride in that success! :) You have a great weekend too!

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-18 13:52:12 -0600 Report

"It is Heck if you do,
and Heck if you don't!!"
My observation on a snitty comment on another post!! Since the other person had not already started a new post on a same subject, I thought maybe they didn't know how, so did it to keep from scrolling down so much! Don't worry, I will keep further HELP to myself!!
Pat Roth

Danni-the-diabetic 2010-02-18 15:07:03 -0600 Report

What's going on Pat?

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-19 11:25:05 -0600 Report

Hi, Danni!! Guess I spoke out of turn again, sorry, dietcherry thought that I stole your thunder—I honestly didn't think of it like that, I had been thinking for sometime about re-starting a thread, the original was Deleted and it was so long ago, I saw where someone (I really didn't remember who at the time—-do now) suggested that YOU restart it, and I went ahead and did it, seeing that you hadn't and maybe didn't know how—-if I had really thought it thru, I might have forseen the complications and thought processes of others, but I didn't, just typed away ( feeling useful for now I KNEW how—-)and started something more than I intended. I really don't know why it became such a big deal to one, but it sure did. anyway, YOU have my apologies for jumping in—-I was just trying to contribute—-and jumped in where I shouldn't have, but the other person attacked ME, which was the main reason I got so angry!

But you are a sweetie, Danni! Hang in there and ignore some stuff——I am trying to—-need a good quote to help! Hahah Let's see, "Forgive them, for they know not what they do." Hugs, Pat R

dietcherry 2010-02-19 12:31:49 -0600 Report

Pat, it appears I have joined the long list of folks you rant against on a regular basis. Common courtesy is meant for everyone, not just those who agree with you. It is never helpful to attack others when you are feeling guilty. It often leads to regret. And I do forgive you for not knowing what you do. Have a nice day.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-19 16:42:32 -0600 Report

Oh, for Pete's sake, Cherry!! I have no idea of who I have been ranting about, unless they openly wrote darogatory comment against me—But it just amazes me how you can be so sweetly FORGIVING when you were the one who slammed me!
Whatever—-I think you see what you want to see—-and I am having a great day, pulling weeds and cleaning up outside in this sunny, cold weather. Pat R

dietcherry 2010-02-19 17:26:07 -0600 Report

Pat, I never attacked you; saying that I did does not make it true. I do forgive you even though you never said sorry. Nobody has slammed you; you are mistaking me with someone else who has. I will not to respond to this nonsense again unless you continue to attack me. Have a nice day, Pat.

Deb-G 2010-02-18 16:22:25 -0600 Report

I've been being a good girl and trying to stay off all other posts and stay outta trouble…I'm not sure what happened but dont worry…we're here :)

dietcherry 2010-02-17 10:43:44 -0600 Report

Deb, we need #7 STAT! Renee:)

Roy531 2010-02-17 09:34:58 -0600 Report

A young cowboy sitting in a saloon one Saturday night recognized an elderly man standing at the bar who, in his day, had been the fastest gun in the West.

The cowboy took a place next to the old-timer, bought him a drink and told him of his great ambition to be a great shot..' Could you give me some tips?' he asked.

The old man said, 'Well, for one thing, you're wearing your gun too high-tie the holster a little lower down on your leg.'

'Will that make me a better gunfighter?'

'Sure will '

The young man did as he was told, stood up, whipped out his .44 and shot the bow tie off the piano player.

'That's terrific!' said the cowboy . 'Got any more tips ?'

'Yep,' said the old man. 'Cut a notch out of your holster where the hammer hits it-that'll give you a smoother draw'

'Will that make me a better gunfighter?' asked the young man.

'You bet it will,' said the old-timer.

The young man took out his knife, cut the notch, stood up, drew his gun in a blur, and then shot a cufflink off the piano player.

'Wow!' exclaimed the cowboy 'I'm learnin' somethin' here. Got any more tips?'

The old man pointed to a large can in a corner of the saloon. 'See that axle grease over there? Coat your gun with it.'

The young man smeared some of the grease on the barrel of his gun.

'No,' said the old-timer, 'I mean smear it all over the gun, handle and all.'

'Will that make me a better gunfighter?' asked the young man.

'No,' said the old-timer, 'but when Wyatt Earp gets done playing the piano, he's gonna shove that gun up your a**, and it won't hurt as much.

Deb-G 2010-02-17 07:05:16 -0600 Report

hmmm…ok…does anyone know ?? as a friend?…Pardon me for being suspicious but yanno with the perverted inbox notes going around the name is a bit of a red flag lol

He could be a perfectly nice gentleman…anyone else know him? hehe

cc9 2010-02-17 07:32:46 -0600 Report

nope. pity we cant block and delete so called friends.

2010-02-18 15:59:30 -0600 Report

@ cc9, i agree about that. Having to go through Red Tape to do so is …Oh well. Thats why I do not accept invites off the whim. If they aren't on the list of people I trust HE knows who he is (haha). I do not accept.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-17 07:39:14 -0600 Report

A new one on me—keep us posted, we are in this, TOGETHER!! Love, Pat R—-

Hey I just downed the LAST of my barium!!! YEAH!! LEts celebrate with—-hmmm someone be thinking——-haha—Pat R

Deb-G 2010-02-17 07:47:20 -0600 Report

Ok…duh…just realized I can click on the name and see activity even though i'm not a friend…Seems the activity is good and a few common friends…sooooo…plz disregard my concern lol

cc9 2010-02-17 08:01:05 -0600 Report

lol hope you dont have to be doing the hula hula to get it to travel down, pat. i am so angry with jack for his cop out.

Roy531 2010-02-17 08:33:43 -0600 Report

That's what I'm here for, of course I need a lot of it, I mean Support. Some days are worse than others.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-17 12:47:09 -0600 Report

Thanks, CC! I think that is what my soul has been wanting so desperately, SOMEONE to see MY SIDE of the situation and NOT BLAME ME for his lack of sympathy!! Since I now have you guys, it doesn't hurt so badly, and I am not really expecting much from him—-and that HELPS!! PAT R

Sue Turner
Sue Turner 2010-02-17 09:09:35 -0600 Report

Boy, from scrolling down all the replies, looks like there is a lot of Pissing N Moaning going on this morning…LOL. Deb, who is this person you are talking about?…I can't keep up with everything that is going on lately…I'm getting slow in my old age, I can't keep up anymore…LOL!

ferk01 2010-02-17 00:12:31 -0600 Report

I have had that same situation happen to me recently. You eat all the right foods and try to do as much exercise as you able and your A1C is still high. Please keep on trucking and it will get better.

cc9 2010-02-17 07:35:18 -0600 Report

you hang in there too. it will get better. my A1C was 8.9 and the last one i did was 8.7. not a huge drop but it didnt go up inspite of a lot of work stress and sugars being all over the place in dec and jan.

Danni-the-diabetic 2010-02-16 23:12:42 -0600 Report

I went to the Dr.'s today feeling optimistic, that my A1C and blood tests would come out good. I have only been keeping a good look at my sugars for the past month or so, but still…my A1C was 8.7 - might as well say 9! Last time I think it was 9.something, so realistically it didn't really go down at all. I feel like I have been busting my butt for nothing. I have nothing to show for it, except bad blood tests at the Dr.'s and still continuous pain in my feet. And here I am being negative again…I'm just frustrated, discouraged, irritated, defeated and all of those feelings are leaving me even more freaking depressed. Yes, I know I can keep working at it and my next test will be better, but I just had my hopes up - and what if they don't make a difference, cause it didn't seem to make a difference this time. Blah, Blah, Blah-I know!!! I am so thankful for you all here, don't get me wrong, but sometimes, like now, I feel greedy and wish I had more people here by my side to cheer me along and keep me on track like you all do and it's so irritating when my friends and family don't think twice about pushing junk food in front of me. Like tonight, my friend Britt asked if I wanted some oreos (yummy) and I said no thanks, she asked why not, I reminded her again that I was diabetic and she said "Oh come on, you can cheat whenever you want to, my cousin does, just take more meds"…I know I need to focus on the positive, like I have you all and a great Dr and better sugars than I had a year ago…so why can't I ?!?

Danni-the-diabetic 2010-02-16 23:14:46 -0600 Report

Oh Yeah! I don't get my other test results in until tomorrow, for my kidney and liver function and she wanted to check my thyroid. I can only pray and hope those aren't too messed up yet.

cc9 2010-02-17 00:41:28 -0600 Report

your A1C did move down. it is a tiny move but you had a lot of probs about not being able to get your meds and all so what you did manage to do helped. dont give up. and you did well not falling for the oreos. bravo!!!!

Danni-the-diabetic 2010-02-17 00:59:49 -0600 Report

Thanks CC :) I was able to get my insulin, just not my other meds for other issues..
I love oreos too! lol

imsuzie2 2010-02-17 04:57:12 -0600 Report

Danni, an improvement is an improvement! As we have determined, having other issues can make it harder to keep bs in control. One day at a time, sweetie. Don't give up, and if you slip at 1 meal, get right back on track. We are only human!! HUgs

Pam from KCMO
Pam from KCMO 2010-02-17 05:45:47 -0600 Report

My dear Danni - you say you've only been keeping tabs on your BS for a month and look what happened! Your A1C DID go down and you're moving in the right direction. I'll bet your next A1C will be even better. Just keep at it.

Roy531 2010-02-17 07:02:23 -0600 Report

Danni, stay strong, good things don't happen overnight, you have to keep working for it. It is a hard life trying to do the right thing, Look at what Job had to go through and look at how God Blessed him in the end. You can do it I have the Faith you can. Temptations are the work of the Devil and we don't want to give in to him. Stay Stong and Never, Never give up Hope

Deb-G 2010-02-17 07:02:38 -0600 Report

Never give up!

Small steps are still steps…

Is this an endo doc?…do they work with you and try to know you and seek ways to make this improvement more possible for you? Just wondered as I have a friend who's office is not very thorough and her A1C never seems to get better…she gets so fustrated…but i do not offer her oreos! ;)

Hang in there girl, you can do it! :)

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-17 07:36:18 -0600 Report

Oh, Danni!! Life does get depressing when we think our efforts will make more of a difference, than what they do, but I bet that next time it will really show. As for Britt, tell her to eat your share—and crunch on a safe product for YOU!! She should respect you for your courage, and NOT taking the easy way out, even if she doesn't say so!

We ALL are here for you and your courageous battle, diabetis isn't for wimps, although I do get WIMPY at times!! hahaha—Hang in there Hon, we all LOVE and SUPPORT YOU! Would you like to drink part of my Barium?? ahaha—Just teasing, I about have it all down, am drinking as I write and somehow it is easier!! Love, you, DAnni!! Pat R

Danni-the-diabetic 2010-02-17 15:48:04 -0600 Report

Thank you everyone for you support and encouragement, I do take it and hold it with me throughout the days, it helps me get by so much.
Roy, the story of Job is one of my favorite books in the bible, oh how the devil tested him and took everything from him..it's very inspirational.
I don't see and endo for the fact that I have no health insurance, however I have been seeing this Dr. for ten years and she sees several diabetics, for she takes an interest in them. She knows me and my history and right now is trying to get me on Lantus too hoping that'll help my morning sugars. She had me sign a form to mail to them so maybe I can get it free or at little cost.
I think in another three months, especially with the support of you all here on DC that my sugars will be alot better. I guess I need to take baby steps, but I'd like for my next a1c to be no higher than 6 - of course 5 would be fan-freakin-tastic!!
I would have given up if I didn't have you guys so thanks for your support again and caring, love ya'll!!
((Hugs)) Danni

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-16 21:36:58 -0600 Report

Well, I have a BIG P@M, that has about destroyed my life—still fighting to not let my husband's attitude tear me apart, and I do NOT want to hear folks on HIS side of the problem—BEEN THERE AND HEARD THAT!! What about the little lady (me) that carried his 4 children etc,worked my tail off, yet nothing was ever enough!!

Well, things are better between us as I try so hard to NOT EXPECT anything from him, but today has about got me down—-he is truly showing what a chicken he is!!!! I am to drink my goop at 7am, drive myself 10 miles north to the hospital, have an IV started, then blood, and the cat scan! I THOUGHT MAYBE THIS TIME HE COULD SUPPORT ME!!! But NO!! His back aches, it always does—-"It is in a different place today—" So after hearing him all day, I told him that he didn't need to go with me tomorrow, I could take care of myself, I always have—-what else is a person to do??? FOrce him to go and hear him swear every step of the way??!!

No thank you!! I told him to go ahead and go to his Dr tomorrow for his back, he has been there before—-not much going on—-but he said,"thank you, I will see." Well, he has not said one more word about his back, and is snoring in his easy chair, about all he is good for!

And this is NOT the first time—-It was like this when I delivered our children—when the test came back negative when I was in Isolation with what they thought was leukemia—-a few years ago, when I was in the hosp last fall, 2 times—-trying to get built up so they could take out what was left of my kidney, plus the large malignant mass—-How dare he complain that I can't keep house like HE WANTS, he is working on it himself now, with my permission—-PLEASE DO—-
When we were first married I got pregnant, was 7 1/2 mos along, was carrying in the gro., while he went on ahead—and I slipped and fell skipped 2 steps and fell on my swollen belly—-he turned around at the door, snorted as he looked at me, and WENT ON INSIDE, leaving me to get up out of the snow and ice, pick up the gro, then stumble on into the house!!! I SHOULD HAVE LEFT HIM THEN!! As it did NOT get any better——I THOUGHT that I could change him, I guess—-it just breaks my heart to think that even having cancer, for real, that he is still so COLD to me!!! Everyone seemed to think it was MY fault, and of course, with my low self esteem I thought so too!! NOT!!!

This may just be the last breaking straw——it hurts so bad to know how little he thinks of me—-oh, he SAYS he loves me—-but his actions speak louder than words!! If it wasn't for my new friends on this site, I would have ended this a long time ago, even his kids side in with him—-are getting nicer to me—-but LOVE THEIR dad, and I never wanted to destroy that, knowing that they really would hate me if I left——but—I am 77 yrs., and frankly, this way of life has NOT been worth it!!
I may just make a definite decision tomorrow, cancer or not!! No one has to take sides, I just NEEDED TO VENT or P@M!!! Pat R

Roy531 2010-02-16 21:52:33 -0600 Report

I'm behind you all the way Pat, been there and done that. Whatever is best for you and your health.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-16 21:55:51 -0600 Report

Thanks you, Roy!! I so hate to rock the boat—BUT am I meant to continue to live —or exist like this?? I can reason a lot of things away, but this type of behavior just blows what is left of my mind!!! PR

Roy531 2010-02-16 22:05:21 -0600 Report

My ex would play the part of a poor deprived wife because of my ED at the doctors off but away from there she was a tyrant. I couldn't do anything right and always around her friends would belittle me and make fun of me and my condition. Didn't know what is was like to sleep in a bed until I moved out.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-16 22:13:12 -0600 Report

Isn't that amazing how others can seem to fool others and get by with it?? It just blows my mind at some of the things that have gone on around here, and no one believed ME!! I think that hurt more than anything—it leaves one with NO support!! PR

Roy531 2010-02-16 22:17:58 -0600 Report

That's one thing I really love about this site. Support I feel in God's eyes we are all equal

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-16 22:20:44 -0600 Report

Me too!!! The folks here have been so understanding and supportive, for the most part—it felt so WONDERFUL to be believed!!! I had never lied or given anyone reason to doubt me, but—-oh, well—-PR

Roy531 2010-02-16 22:23:54 -0600 Report

I know how you feel. I had better get to bed 10:30 here and get up at 4 But I'm use to it. Love you Pat. Stay Strong

2010-02-16 22:25:15 -0600 Report

Life is too short to put up with (bleep) like that. This is not a dress rehersal, live your life.

You can do bad on your own-no need to have someone there helping you experience bad.

I hope things work out Pat.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-16 22:29:04 -0600 Report

Thanks to you both—I keep telling myself,why a divorce NOW, look at all of the years I have put up with this in hopes he would change and give me the loving support that I so desparately need—-But he moved out of our bedroom 24 years ago, no explanation, I felt deserted—and still do, but I KNOW that he just can not change, it isn't in his makeup and I did marry him for better or worse—-but CHEEZZZZ——-I didn't check with my heart, first!! Pat R

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-16 22:31:39 -0600 Report

Oh, he awoke from his nap, to go to bed, said that his back quit hurting shortly after he took a pain pill!!! I wanted to kick him—-mine hurt in spite of 6 Soma and 4 Percogesic, in one day, could NOT find relief—-had to go to ER and got 2 shots for pain. I think that he is aiming for something like that—I had thought so before, then beat myself up, "Oh, surely not!"" But now, I am afraid that is what he is trying to do!! Pat R

cc9 2010-02-16 22:38:35 -0600 Report

dearest pat, you did the best you humanly can. and like soms says life is too short to do bad. whatever you decide it will be the right one for you and we are all here to love and support you. i am praying for you for your mri. hugs and love.

ptsparkle 2010-02-17 00:13:25 -0600 Report

You have the patience of Job. You need to do what's right for YOU. All that added stress over the years, certainly haven't helped. My heart goes out to you, and other Women who are treated such. Bless you for the Woman you are, be firm, hold your head high, and you will do what's right.

Susie624 2010-02-17 11:11:17 -0600 Report

No Pat you are not meant to live like that.I know how it is.You do everything that you can to make the sob happy but nothing works.My mother lived like that for 52 years,dont get me wrong dad loved mom but he always seen what didnt get done compared to what did,so if you can manage on your own go for it,you deserve a little enjoyment in your life.`

Danni-the-diabetic 2010-02-16 22:40:11 -0600 Report

Pat, I hate hearing stories of such, they piss me off and make me sick! I am so sorry that you have put up with that sorry excuse of a man for so long. My heart goes out to you. You have dealt with his crap for a long time…don't worry about what other people think of you, do what's right and makes you happy. Do what your heart tells you to do. I think you may already know what you want to do…

tholz 2010-02-16 22:51:55 -0600 Report

Pat iam so sorry. I need to give you a hug we both need one. I know right where you are coming from. I havent sleep in his bed for yrs I moved out and will not go back. If we go on vaction i do only cuz i dont want the floor but i have dont that to. Why do hubbys do what you ask him not to do I dont get it. Wish I could disapper to Love ya Tammy

KarenH 2010-02-16 23:20:34 -0600 Report

I am glad you were able to vent on here about your husband and hope it helped a bit. It is painful to read some of the things you have had to endure during marriage especially like him not helping you up when you were pregnant and fell. I can definitely understand how bad it must feel to not have his support with your doctor procedures etc.

My first husband was physically abusive to me and my second marriage is better but not what I had envisioned for myself either. I just wanted you to know that I care about you and I am truly sorry you have had such hard times.


Kira_xo 2010-02-17 04:15:53 -0600 Report

Oh my gosh *hugs* Pat, I applaud you for putting up with this mans horse shit for so long and not going insane. I know it has got to be hard on you especially right now. You have so much on your plate and I think it is down right horrible for someone, who you have devoted your life to, to be so un-supportive, and a down right a-hole. You deserve so much better than that! You know all of us here are for you in every way we can be. *hugs*

Pam from KCMO
Pam from KCMO 2010-02-17 04:33:37 -0600 Report

I'm only 3 hours away, Pat, and your post makes me want to drive down there to southern KS and give your husband a piece of my mind.

Unfortunately, I have to go to work. :)

So sorry you're dealing with such an uncaring man.

imsuzie2 2010-02-17 05:04:25 -0600 Report

Pat. It is time to live for Pat. You need to see an attorney if you decide to divorce that sorry piece of sh**. You need to protect your interests…if you live in a community property state you might end up still having to support him, in which case, you might want to live in your part of the house and him in his. Just do for you and let him fend for himself. Sometimes when you do that, he has helped a bit to get you to do for him. You first and foremost…if you have anything left that day, then give him some. And, I don't blame you, I wouldn't want to share myself with him either!

Remember…"I just can't remember how you like it done, can you show me again?" "You do it so much better than me, do you just want to go ahead and do it?" "I just hurt all over today, and I don't know if I can make dinner…will you?" "Jack, my knee hurts and I can't stand on it, will you get me lunch?"…etc. Your turn!!!

Deb-G 2010-02-17 06:58:27 -0600 Report

Dearest Pat…I think in your life you have already earned your wings for that day down the road when you need them…

However for today…your stories make me SO SAD…I so wonder if you have any family at all near you?…You should not drive yourself alone to such tests…you shouldn't be alone for the results of such tests!…I wish I lived closer, i'd drive ya myself :(

I often wonder if you have a sister you could move in with? or a dear friend or someone like that where you will have some companionship in the way you deserve…(love and support of someone that cares about you)…I cant begin to pick apart what is wrong with your husband that he cant seem to be human…but I look beyond that to what I wish for YOU and wonder if there's any way possible at this time in your life to be around people that CARE about you…

You are a sweet, caring, giving, smart woman…I admire your spunk, and your wit, and your charm…I so wish things were better for you! :(

xox Deb

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-17 13:11:17 -0600 Report

Thank you so much for you verbal support, Deb,and ALL!! That helps more than you can know, I have been hurt so much for so long, it is hard for me to accept touching, or anything physical, BUT kind words work WONDERS for me!! I now feel like I can go on and COPE so much better, I don't have to WAIT any longer for kind words, they are here, with you guys!!! As long as we have a kind, supportive source from someone, it so HELPS!! I have no brothers or sister, my folks are gone, but I was their caretaker, so always FELT alone—-I cared for Jack when he was sick and the Drs didn't know what was wrong, and I had to earn the living as well—-I TRIED to not complain, BUT that got all twisted up in my mind, and drove me NUTS! Literally—-in a way, that was a relief, but I KNEW that I was RUNNING NOT Fighting, so am now where I can fend for myself again, with all of your help!! Don't ANYONE Ever think that you are not needed in this world!!! WE ALL need to stand together and support each other as we never know how close to the end of their rope, is ANYBODY!! Even our critics!! Pat R

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-17 13:11:17 -0600 Report

Thank you so much for you verbal support, Deb,and ALL!! That helps more than you can know, I have been hurt so much for so long, it is hard for me to accept touching, or anything physical, BUT kind words work WONDERS for me!! I now feel like I can go on and COPE so much better, I don't have to WAIT any longer for kind words, they are here, with you guys!!! As long as we have a kind, supportive source from someone, it so HELPS!! I have no brothers or sister, my folks are gone, but I was their caretaker, so always FELT alone—-I cared for Jack when he was sick and the Drs didn't know what was wrong, and I had to earn the living as well—-I TRIED to not complain, BUT that got all twisted up in my mind, and drove me NUTS! Literally—-in a way, that was a relief, but I KNEW that I was RUNNING NOT Fighting, so am now where I can fend for myself again, with all of your help!! Don't ANYONE Ever think that you are not needed in this world!!! WE ALL need to stand together and support each other as we never know how close to the end of their rope, is ANYBODY!! Even our critics!! Pat R

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-02-17 07:30:40 -0600 Report

Oh, Pam, you made me laugh!!! "But you had to go to work" says it all—a taste of reality—-hahaha—I don't know why I find that so FUNNY!! But it struck a chord in my heart, as did all of the above posts—of SUPPORT!! That is the ONE THING that has been lacking in my life—-SOMEONE standing up for ME. It helps me to feel like I won't blow over now, I will pursue the day with FRIENDS SUPPORT and it does help!! That is what I felt was lacking in my life!! THANKS SO MUCH!!

Now, do I have any takers on helping me to drink this Barium?? hahah—Love you ALL, Pat R