Depression is Destructive !

MAYS
By MAYS Latest Reply 2010-01-26 02:31:18 -0600
Started 2010-01-24 09:47:57 -0600

As a Diabetic, your mental state of mind is important, you cannot allow depression to set in because of the negative effects that it can have on you physically,mentally and emotionally.
Take a walk in the park, along the beach, watch a sunrise or a sunset with someone you love, spend quality time with those you love, listen to music,read a book, find a hobby … give depression the boot,send it packing before it can unpack it's baggage in your life.

Life is beautiful, live it to it's fullest !
Don't worry, be happy … !


17 replies

dyanne
dyanne 2010-01-25 02:15:19 -0600 Report

I wish it were that easy… as someone who has suffered from clinical depression for many many years I know. Some people may be able to fight the blues or a little pitty party but there is a big difference and anyone who has a real depression problem will tell you that. I wish I could just tell myself ok enough of this… but it does not work that way. I have had my depression before my diabetes and for me too the depression is the harder thing to deal with. I guess i always wondered when reading many post here why I never really complain about being a diabetic well I guess there is always something worse and if I had a choice my life struggle with depression would be the first to go… it does change your life and how it is lived and believe me it is not to its fullest .Im sorry if this sounds so negative I have been on this site for a long time and I have never really vented before… and yes im not in the greatest spirits at this time…u may have gathered that already !!! Yes living with diabetes is not easy but u can live with it. Depression starts with having a hard time wanting to even get out of bed… it is a fight every second of everyday and it never really leaves your mind you cant just shake it off. I know other people who suffer will understand what im saying and others may just not really get it. Maybe if I have not been through what I have , being diabetic would seem so much worse. Of course I know living with diabetes is not easy, please dont misunderstand me. Thanks for letting me vent … I guess thats what happens at 3;30 am and u cant sleep !!!
dyanne

cc9
cc9 2010-01-25 06:52:04 -0600 Report

yes i know exactly what you mean. i know of ppl who cant get out of bed, cant shower, dont sleep for days, do terrible things to themselves. there are good days and bad days. fighting depression takes more than just one strategy. its a complex issue requiring multi ways to deal with it. and sometimes even a handful of antidepressants,antipyschotics, etc is not going to make you feel better if you are also not dealing with the underlying core issues in therapy. therapy is hard work!!!!! there is no instant "cure" i wish i could find one, i would be so rich.

Anonymous
Anonymous 2010-01-25 12:47:16 -0600 Report

I hear your angony! I had been diagnosised with BiPolar long before diabeties. I was on medications that gave me perminant reactions (left with uncontrolable muscle movement of the face and left side of my body). In time I was on more meds, then you could imagine (13 meds at age 45). Walking pharmacy I say! Soon my depression took me to places I never wanted to go. Later, even on antidepression meds I began to hear voices. Very negitive company they were. Last year I wanted to stop all the madness and stopped my phsyic meds cold I(I do not advise this at all), and rebuked them to those who asked what medications are you taking? Two months later, I went on vacation (anyway) and ended up in the ER (breathing issues). I was given a steroid that drove me right into a dilusional parinoia and attemped suicide. I came to in the hospital (one more time) and felt the incomprehencible demoralization. Being a single parent I knew that something had to change. I Prayed!! Finally realized that I was addicted to medications that were not fixing the malody. I searched for a solution. I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. I wondered what was wrong with me and why weren't the doctors fixing it. I was broken!! Life had not been fair to me (in my eyes). I began to search for a solution. therapy for fourteen years had not helped me to the degree I expected (great expectations there). Soon I realized that Therapy, medications, and other subsinences were not fixing me. Doctors could not fix me, so what is the problem? I had thought that I was a victum, but in retrospect I was my own victum. No one ever met my expectations including me. I had put expectations on myself that were greater then I could handle. I was all that and a bag of chips. Finally I had to look in the mirror and see what what wrong. I was broken!! I had not humbled myself to the possibility that I was powerless over people, places and things. I had to realize that I was not all knowing and the universe didn't evolve around me. Acceptence of not being in control was a hard nut to crack. Acceptence of let go and let it be was also hard to adjust to. Facing myself head on I had to search for a solution. See I am self-centered to the core. It was all about me and what I want. I had to humbly accept what was at hand as it is what it is. Now what can I do about it? I could not fix anyone or anything other then me. It's an inside job. I soon realized that there is a power greater then myself and had to surrender to what will be will be. Once I let go of expectations, judgement and several other self centered defects. I found I was trudging the road to happy destony. Once I forgave myself and understood that I was a product of expectations and worldliness. I finally found true happiness and realized that happiness is an inside job. Only I could make me happy. I had to let go of Pride, Envy, Greed, Sloth (it's not just an animal), Lust (it's not just sexual), and Gluttony (it's not just over eating). So because I am self-centered what was my part in this life of mine and what do I need to change. I had to change one thing and that was everything. I now have a passion for life and accept whatever comes to be what it will be. Good thing or Bad thing I find gratitude in it. Grateful to be alive and Grateful for a power greater then myself. I will screw it up left to my own devices (defects of self will). So I can't, God can and I let him. Surrendered (to go to the winning side) Unconditionally. A Simple 12 step program is what worked for me!! In closing life is a K.I.S.S. operation!! Now I am happy joyous and free. That void in the middle of my spirit is filled with the light of a freedom. Freedom from the bondage of self!!

May you be kissed by seventhousand Angles!

Anonymous
Anonymous 2010-01-25 14:57:04 -0600 Report

dyanne,
you are so right. The person I love most in this world suffers from clinical depression. It is so hard for someone who's never experienced real depression to understand. It's nothing that a walk in the park can cure.

Fortunately, for my best friend, medications help her keep her symptoms mostly under control. She does very, very well. But every now and then, it can drag her down and it's just heart wrenching.

2010-01-24 21:31:45 -0600 Report

Depression is such a terrible side effect of this disease. I try, lord knows i try NOT to feel like damaged goods. Some days I win the fight and somedays I lose. But I fight everyday

cc9
cc9 2010-01-25 01:54:13 -0600 Report

honey you are not damaged goods! noone is. we all have our difficulties and our past to contend with. we are capable of evolving to our highest good.

CarolynElaineAutrey
CarolynElaineAutrey 2010-01-24 16:00:26 -0600 Report

I have to fight depression everyday. Depression is the only life I know. It is very difficult to take control of depression. How I would love to stomp it to death before it gets me to the end. This is the hardest battle I have. Diabetes is easy to me compared to my depression. I always thought my family would help me with my health problems, but no, again I am alone. So I am hoping and praying that this program here will help me.

Iroquois
Iroquois 2010-01-24 14:11:31 -0600 Report

That is so true but because of my legs I can't take a walk right now anywhere LOL. But I can do some of the other things. Your ideas really gave me something to think about at times I get depressed. Thank you, Kathy

Kats2
Kats2 2010-01-24 14:25:44 -0600 Report

Good ole Depression.. It was my friend for a life time, but that was a life time ago. I thought my life was over when I got diagnosed. Just one more thing. I was in a wheelchair from spinal stenosis for three years. The depression went deeper. Then I met a loving friend who suggested a 12 step program. It worked for me! I learned to surrender to what I had done in my youth and what was genetic. Then I realized that I didn't have a medical degree so I truely didn't know better and forgave myself. Tossed my pitty pot out the window and I soon realized that education removes fear. But having a doctor who really will listen and think outside the box is also important. We are all different sharing one desease that effects us individually. I am still learning to know more of the effects on the metobolic system as a whole. Hence I diet accordingly and treat food as if it was a bug I had never seen before. Researcher at heart, but no longer in fear!! God Bless!!