Being honest

London
By London Latest Reply 2010-06-22 20:52:37 -0500
Started 2010-01-24 02:14:30 -0600

When I first was told I was T2 I did everything by the book. 5 months into this whole life style change, I started to tell myself, My doctor must be crazy, I can't be diabetic. I think I told myself that to feel better. After I ate 2 bites of a brownie and a BS reading of 180 I have come to realize yep, I'm diabetic. Now I have to stop talking myself out of the truth and play the cards I've been dealt. Some times it can be stressful but when I wake up tomorrow I will put my 2 feet on the ground and conquer what comes my way! Cravings and all!


15 replies

BondedbyBetis
BondedbyBetis 2010-06-22 20:52:37 -0500 Report

Stressful in more ways than one 1! I kept holding onto a false reality that it would go away if i didn't eat this or just did anything the Dr's told me to! Today I stand here accepting myself and my situation! its a tough one but worth the fight! Stay Encouraged!

Miminv
Miminv 2010-04-01 04:29:10 -0500 Report

You know your being honest about your Diabetes: When you wake up in the morning and your level is 87.

shorty31
shorty31 2010-03-31 11:19:35 -0500 Report

you know when i first found out i cried i tried to remember all the thing that i had done to lead to this. never in my wildest dreams did i think that my life style could efect me that way. you know my doc. told me once that what ever is stressing me out get rid of it because to much stress could led into diabeties then when i took the class to learn what to eat i got very depressed because i had to adjust to eating healthy. but you know what reall open up my eyes the first time i had to go get glasses, then getting buises on me looking like i had been in a fight. but the one that meant the most to me is my grand baby when she saw all this medication i had to take. it's not easy wanting icecream and can't have it or dinking pepsi at least 4 times a day icould drink a pepsi and would not eat so you know i was killing self. now some time i get angry because i have shoes that i can't wear anymore. i quit feeling sorry for myself and said on day at a time i will get through this.

Miminv
Miminv 2010-04-01 04:13:45 -0500 Report

I understand what your saying about the shoes. I got rid of all my shoes that I couldn't wear anymore at a yard sale my mother was having. I brought about 20 pairs (which was most of my shoes) when a women walked up and wanted to buy a few of them I told her she could have them all. I felt better knowing someone would get to enjoy them. Shoes used to be the one thing I could have fun buying to go with a dress or an outfit. Now I don't even want to get dressed up because the only shoes I can wear now are SAS tennis shoes. Yes I do have four pair in different colors but it is in no way the same as picking a pair from the 20 I had. The Neuropathy in my feet came from too many years of my levels going up and down and smoking (I quit in 2008). I have had four surgeries and with every surgery it has taken longer to get my levels back under control. It starts with I am healing you can have some Ice Cream to you have been doing well have a brownie. That is how I used to think, but it only took seven years for my feet to go from wearing sandels in the summer to wearing tennis shoes all the time because anything else is too painful to wear. I am at the point now were I have just gotten myself to stop drinking diet soda all the time and drinking water. Take one thing at a time. Slowly take the carbs away and replace them with something better for you. I know when I have had a realy bad carb that I want more. Have food around that is not high in carbs that you can turn to when you are stressed and want to eat something bad. You will feel much better about yourself when your levels are good.

Gabby
GabbyPA 2010-03-31 11:02:38 -0500 Report

I can totally relate. When I am doing well and my numbers look good I get this stupid sense of false security and I push the envelope a little. Man, that is such a mind game. I am not sure why we play it, but many of us do. Being honest is the key and as long as the meter tells me the truth, I have to listen.

Turtle
Turtle 2010-01-24 22:08:01 -0600 Report

I know what you mean but like you said the next morning is a fresh start and if you goofed up the day before you can re commit yourself the next day with rest and fresh feelings.

Turtle

spiritwalker
spiritwalker 2010-01-24 16:14:00 -0600 Report

I understand what you are saying London. Its easier and at the
time feel it safer to assume the Dr. made a mistake or is
just wrong. Its human nature. I have never met anyone who
enjoys being diabetic.
You have made a choice to control your diabetes, and not let
it control you.
We all do the best we can.

Blue Angel
Blue Angel 2010-01-24 15:24:44 -0600 Report

I said the samething but in my case my sugar was low. I was tested two times after that. I was told I have diabetes but I have it under control.

P2putt
P2putt 2010-01-24 08:39:28 -0600 Report

Very good,London. You are quite ahead of the game. Many,including myself waited too long to accept what you did in a brief peroid.We are all prone to avoid what is unpleasant or painful.Guess that's a built in defense we have but it can be dreadfully harmful especially when we deny the BIG "D".So BRAVO to you. Stay well Pete

Harlen
Harlen 2010-01-24 08:33:25 -0600 Report

Yep I think we all have done that I know I did lol
Its a lot of work and we all hate change
Keep up the great work
Best wishes
H

Hinboyz3
Hinboyz3 2010-01-24 08:10:20 -0600 Report

Thats the truth London, we do have to be strong, even when we feel theirs no strength left in us. We just have to hold on until tomorrow cause it'll be a better day for us all. I just love the encouragement we all give to eachother. We have to be strong to make us better in the long run.

Susie624
Susie624 2010-01-24 06:13:59 -0600 Report

We are all in the same boat here,and we all have a new life style to learn when we get that diagnoses.and we all go through that if I ignore it,it will just go away,well we can't and it won't so we just have to learn to live with it and do what we have to do.

hbkunkel
hbkunkel 2010-01-24 05:53:25 -0600 Report

Hi London, What you are experiencing is very normal. It was explained to me that you must go through the stages of mourning when you are diagnosed and it takes a while for you to get to the acceptance stage. Now that you seem to be accepting the facts you can go forth and work hard on a daily basis to keep yourself in the best health and shape as possible, Remeber we are here to support you.
Betsie

Sue Turner
Sue Turner 2010-01-24 17:16:02 -0600 Report

I don't know if everyone is as frustrated as I am… For the past several days, my BS has been in the 200s…I get so stressed out dealing with it, then I get depressed because I do everything I can think to do to get it down…Sometimes, I just want to throw up my hands and quit, but I know I can't…I just have to keep struggling, and hoping for the best…