Today, I no longer have diabetes, no more finger pricks 6 times a day and trying to squeeze out that big enough drop. Today, I no longer have to remember to take my meds, and to keep track of when I’m going to run out. And no longer have to have that medicine spot in the frig. I no longer have to look at that needle and talk myself into being able to stick it in me, one more time. Today, I’m going to enjoy a meal without it looking like a math equation. I will no longer have to try and figure out how many hours or days may have past, when I come to on the kitchen floor. I will no longer have to worry about that blister on my foot. I will no longer have to carry a “man purse” into the restroom before a meal when dining out. I no longer have monthly medical expenses the size of a car payment. I will no longer have to make a choice between refilling prescriptions and buying Christmas gifts. I will no longer have to put off reading for days because my vision is a little out of whack. I will no longer have to be down on myself, for my BS numbers being off. Today, I can be around my family and friends without having them concerned about what may happen when I’m around them. Today, I can find that special person without wondering how they’d feel about being with someone with a chronic condition. Today, I can stop wondering if God is punishing me.
I was diagnosed February 25, 2009, an infection on my neck put me in the hospital, and my A1c was 15.9. It’s been quite the journey over the last 11 months, with the ups and the downs, both physically and mentally. I’ve done a lot of reading and research, and followed everything I’ve been told to do. With my last two quarterly check ups my A1c has been below 7 and all my other numbers look good. I still had it rough over the holidays; I know you just don’t stop having diabetes. I do know that I want to “Live with it” and change peoples perception of what a person with a chronic condition is supposed to be. The thing that motivates me, is some day, with research and medical advances, and the help of God……….some day I will be sending out the above message! :)
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