Today, I no longer have diabetes.

By paulbudman Latest Reply 2010-02-28 19:55:27 -0600
Started 2010-01-06 17:33:43 -0600

Today, I no longer have diabetes, no more finger pricks 6 times a day and trying to squeeze out that big enough drop. Today, I no longer have to remember to take my meds, and to keep track of when I’m going to run out. And no longer have to have that medicine spot in the frig. I no longer have to look at that needle and talk myself into being able to stick it in me, one more time. Today, I’m going to enjoy a meal without it looking like a math equation. I will no longer have to try and figure out how many hours or days may have past, when I come to on the kitchen floor. I will no longer have to worry about that blister on my foot. I will no longer have to carry a “man purse” into the restroom before a meal when dining out. I no longer have monthly medical expenses the size of a car payment. I will no longer have to make a choice between refilling prescriptions and buying Christmas gifts. I will no longer have to put off reading for days because my vision is a little out of whack. I will no longer have to be down on myself, for my BS numbers being off. Today, I can be around my family and friends without having them concerned about what may happen when I’m around them. Today, I can find that special person without wondering how they’d feel about being with someone with a chronic condition. Today, I can stop wondering if God is punishing me.

I was diagnosed February 25, 2009, an infection on my neck put me in the hospital, and my A1c was 15.9. It’s been quite the journey over the last 11 months, with the ups and the downs, both physically and mentally. I’ve done a lot of reading and research, and followed everything I’ve been told to do. With my last two quarterly check ups my A1c has been below 7 and all my other numbers look good. I still had it rough over the holidays; I know you just don’t stop having diabetes. I do know that I want to “Live with it” and change peoples perception of what a person with a chronic condition is supposed to be. The thing that motivates me, is some day, with research and medical advances, and the help of God……….some day I will be sending out the above message! :)

26 replies

UNA 2010-02-28 19:49:11 -0600 Report

Paul, this was absolutely awesome. It was so inspiring to read. I am kinda new to the board. I joined three months ago but I am having the time of my life with all these discussions. I am loving each and every one's comments. It is so wonderful to know that you are not alone. You have comments from Types I and II. I use the Medtronic pump along with the sensor. I enjoy both devices.

Sue Turner
Sue Turner 2010-02-28 19:55:27 -0600 Report

UNA, I also have the MedTronic pump…My insurance didn't cover the sensor, but, when I can afford to purchase it, I am planning to do so… How is it working for you, the sensor, that is? Does it make life easier for you? ~ sue

Sue Turner
Sue Turner 2010-02-28 17:45:13 -0600 Report

Paul, that was beautifully written…My mind, I have to admit, was going in a million different directions as I was reading it, then I reached the bottom…Wouldn't that be wonderful?Just last night my husband, and I were discussing this very thing…He was saying to me, they are working on a cure everyday, honey…Maybe it want be long until they will find one! Speaking of the worry of finding that special someone, it may not be as hard as you think! :)

JENNIFERJO 2010-02-20 12:35:08 -0600 Report

Wow, I haven't been on this site in too long! Thank you Paul! I felt as though every word I read was about me. I've been diabetic since I was 8 yrs old and still struggle at times mostly because I don't share like you and so many others. I'm coming back if for no other reason than to know I'm not alone. No more pity parties. One great thing that has happened for me is not as many fingersticks. I now have a Dexcom 7 continuous blood meter. Check it out at It keeps the paramedics out of your room in the middle of the night!

rankearl 2010-02-20 12:45:09 -0600 Report

paul congratulation why coulnt be me lol just kidding im type one jennyjo i want to know how your contious blood meter works i have heard of them i have a cosom pump they have o a contous meter that attaches too mine my old endo reccomded me too get one i waited to long to decide take care hugs julie

JENNIFERJO 2010-02-28 11:13:01 -0600 Report

Hi Julie! Best way to find out technically (I'm terrible at explaining things!) is to check it out at It can work with insulin pumps but I don't have one of those yet. If you are used to a pump, then this is just another unit to get used to on your body. It's a little sensor pod that sticks on your skin and then you pop in the transmitter (400.00 alone so you can't lose it!)into it every 7 days. It's so cool to know what your BG's are doing every 5 min. Talk with your endo about it. It's one of 3 on the market and my dr thinks it's the best. Have to have a dr's order and it took 2 months to finally get through insurance but it was 100% covered and so are the replacement sensors. My insurance allows 1 replacement transmitter/yr in case I do lose it. You can custom set the receiver for high and low ranges, to vibrate and beep or just vibrate. The rcver is kind of bulky but I bet in a few years it will be really tiny just like everything else! I'm very lucky!
Have a good day and let me know when you check it out.

Cricket Crafter
Cricket Crafter 2010-01-27 10:19:39 -0600 Report

This is written wonderfully, and is probably about the most accurate thought for everyone here.
To dream the unreachable dream!

Cricket Crafter
Cricket Crafter 2010-01-27 10:20:40 -0600 Report

Nothing is impossible, things do change, medicines change and research could help some day if they ever really put enough money into it.

dietcherry 2010-01-27 09:48:11 -0600 Report


paulbudman 2010-01-28 18:19:54 -0600 Report

Renee, I now believe with faith, that I have found that special someone, that will be there to celebrate the triumphs of the good days, and be there to support each other to get through the rough days, I can only become stronger going through this together. And yes, it has crossed my mind, why God has given us so much to carry! That I also think God has given us each other the share the burdens! And if God has given me this, I have faith that everything we collectively wish for will come! Paul :)

Monalisa 2010-01-07 16:48:47 -0600 Report

HA,HA!!! You had me there for a second! I was thinking, my God how did he do it? thought "maybe he found something new!" Yes we all have the same dream, but meanwhile we have to learn to live with this and try to educate ourselves, our family and friends about it, one step at a time…LISA

BIRDY 2010-01-07 16:35:41 -0600 Report

you are not alone , I have the same dream too and hope we can read such a news in a newspaper soon…
And bravo , you really succeeded to manage your diabet very very well…

Hinboyz3 2010-01-07 06:28:30 -0600 Report

That was so inspirational we all need a pick me up especially on those very down and out days which we all share all too often. As long as we've got God on our sides we got Faith too. We all know one day their will be a cure, I truly know its coming soon.

Kirla 2010-01-06 22:03:00 -0600 Report

Like you I was diagnosed 26 Feb 2009. My A1C was 14.1. My last two A1C’s were 5.9 in June and 5.6 in October. As long as I remember what I am, I will never go back. I made the changes I needed to make with the understanding its forever. As long as I test and eat right, I believe I have beaten diabetics. I pray it never returns.

JulieC 2010-01-06 19:42:14 -0600 Report

That is just wonderfull…Im happy for you! Your dream is also mine

thiruvelan 2010-01-06 18:01:15 -0600 Report

Everyone should pray for your dream become reality. It is very sweet (full of very sugary substance) to hear without blood sugar rise.

AddassaMari 2010-01-06 17:53:43 -0600 Report

I don't want to get preachy, but I am going to start with the wondering if God is punishing me. No matter what happens, I want you to remember this one thing ( the Apostle James said "For with evil things God cannot be tried nor does he himself try anyone".) That said.

That the BEST news I have had all day, right up there with my kids telling me they love me. I am happy for you. You know that special person would have accepted you, chronic complaint and all. Keep doing whatever you have been doing and keep this pesky condition under your heel.

Cricket Crafter
Cricket Crafter 2010-01-27 10:18:32 -0600 Report

I don't think he is saying that for himself exactly, but generalizing what a lot of us may have questioned somewhere along the way…It does not mean your beliefs are less, it is just a little more of why?

salmanda 2010-01-06 17:41:53 -0600 Report

That is the dream for all of us, isn't it? I have a friend whose granddaughter had a pancreas transplant, and she no longer has diabetes. She had to go through a lot in the hospital before the transplant, but she made it through that. What a way to do it though. I would be happier with a cure.
Sal :)

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