This is so HARD!!!!

longhornmom2002
By longhornmom2002 Latest Reply 2009-12-18 15:07:51 -0600
Started 2009-12-16 21:46:22 -0600

ADJUSTING TO THIS NEW LIFESTYLE IS SOOO HARD, I HAVE A FAST PACED LIFE AND ALWAYS ON THE RUN, I FORGET TO EAT MEALS AND TAKE MY INSULIN IN THE DAYTIME CAUSE IAM ALWAYS ON THE GO, IAM GOOD WITH BREAKFAST AND THEN DOWN HILL FROM THERE TODAY IT WAS 3P BEFOERE I REALIZED I HAVENT EATEN, I DID MY INSULIN ON THE PRETENSE I WOULD EAT,AND ENDED UP AT A FRIENDS DRINKING WINE AND SNACKING ON SOME NUTS AND THEN TO ANOTHER FRIENDS WHERE I FINALLY ATE AT 9P, AFTER ALL THAT I TOOK MY BS AND IT WAS 174, I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO TO GET MYSELF ON A SCHEDULE OF MEALS AND INSULIN OR WHAT HAPPENS LIKE TODAY I DID MY INSULIN AT BREAKFAST, LUNCH AND DIDNT EAT TIL 9P SO DIDNT DO DINNER DOSE OF INSULIN AND JUST NOW DID BEDTIME DOSE, DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO TO REGULATE ALL THIS CHANGE IN MY LIFE,AM SOOO NOT USE TO THE CHANGE SINCE IAM TRYING TO COME OUT OF ANORXIA AND HATE FOOD OR NOT THINKING OF EATING, I DO TRY BUT HELP!! THIS IS WAY HARD!!


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Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-12-18 15:07:51 -0600 Report

Like I have said, we are the sweetest of the sweet, and sometimes we have too much! Now we know how little kids feel on Halloween night! ughhh— PR

rankearl
rankearl 2009-12-18 14:25:54 -0600 Report

wow honey you need to slow down i was there too until life gave me this little lesson chronic pain yea and i have alwysa said if eople only knew how much work it is to be a good diabetic we are all good people arent we all your comments touched my heart thanks hugs julie

Hinboyz3
Hinboyz3 2009-12-17 21:41:52 -0600 Report

We all have good days and bad days, but we just have to hold onto what we make of them, and try again tomorrow. Noting is this life is going to be easy, but you do have to just get a grip on things. I carry snacks with me where ever I go even class, in my book bag, granola bars, cheese sticks, wheat crackers, water, plenty of water, sugar free hard candies, etc. You just have to be ready cause you never know when your not going to be able to get a good meal when your on the go. So prepare yourself well in advance. Dont get soo upset, just sit back and take a good look at how your day looks in advance so you can throw something extra in your purse, or bag. Just try, what do you have to loose?

Deb-G
Deb-G 2009-12-18 08:34:31 -0600 Report

This made me giggle a little bit…I remember when my kids were small I couldn't wait to get rid of having to carry that big-azz diaper bag and all the crap I might need everywhere I go…Now the babies are gone and I have to carry a medical kit practically and food storage…its just funny…but it sure beats needing it and not having it…So much for having a small purse! lol

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-12-18 12:37:50 -0600 Report

Hahaha—, Oh, Deb!! Me too!! We had 4 children in 10 years, but they had diarrhea terribly, like Celiac, 20 to 30 BM's a day etc, bags, bags and more bags, now it is diabetic stuff plus a pkt of crackers, my oxygen—just in case—and a BIG PURSE or sorts, just for STUFF! It is easier when I shop to put small things into my purse, then dump it all out later, and sort! hahah—I tell everyone that I am the Bag Lady!! haha—in Ks. Pat R

Sue Turner
Sue Turner 2009-12-18 13:16:01 -0600 Report

That's some pretty funny stuff, Deb. I remember the same things. When raising my babies/children. I thought I would never get them raised and get away from dragging practically everything I owned with me everywhere I went, now you should see the size of MY bag! Haha It is so big and so heavy that my husband has to carry it for me…

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-12-18 13:39:03 -0600 Report

Hey, you guys, me too, with the overloaded purse—I can't find what I want in it anyway, BUT I tried another smaller purse last week, about DROVE ME NUTS as I pushed and pulled, snorted —had to even dump things out to find my car keys, the same thing that I did with my BIG purse! I used to have a big safety pin to pin my keys to the top strap, guess I will have to go back to that.

One time, at a PEO meeting, they had a contest for the one having the heaviest handbag, they WEIGHED them! My kids were shocked when another woman actually had one that outweighed mine!! My husband watches me walk too, and he says no wonder that I walk lopsided, as my purse pulls me over—-probably —but its the same hip that used to carry our 4 children on—during that phase of their lives! Haha—PR

Deb-G
Deb-G 2009-12-18 14:50:09 -0600 Report

LOL Sue and Pat…Pat, I tried going to this "oh so cute" Coach purse last year…I just wanted something cute!..Same thing…I fought to get just about everything out of it and had to neatly stack it back in to get the dang zipper closed…I carried my "extra's" in a separate bag and inevitably always ended up leaving it in the car, or wherever, because who wants to carry TWO bags! lol…So now…I am back to one larger sack…but hey..the large bags are "in" now! hahaha!

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-12-16 23:15:48 -0600 Report

The hard part for me, was learning to TAKE the TIME to reinvent regular meal times, I HATE to stop gardening to come in to eat and check, but have learned to do it so I can feel better. Sometimes one just has to stop and take stock of their lives, where are you running to——is it worth it? Reinvent your own values, making time for yourself and PLEASE do it while you can do it for yourself, BEFORE you get a bad reaction that lands you in the hospital, THEN your choices will become even more limited!

Please take care of yourself, and stop to smell the roses.. I too, was a BUSY person, until I collapsed a few years ago, was the caretaker of our family, thought my person depended on being BUSY, seeing how many hours I could cram into a day or week. After I retired at 65 yrs, I cared for others in their homes plus worked hours in a flower shop, taking only one hour to bathe as I ran from one job to another. I HAD TO DO IT, I THOUGHT!! I was working 72 hours a week (many back to back—), plus many activities, was so proud of myself on going on one or two hours of sleep!!!!! I managed for another 10 years, knew I was getting weird in the head, but could not stop——until I completely fell apart, ended up, in and out of psych wards, unable to find the strength to walk across the floor, let alone cook and all of the little housewifely things my husband expected!! And did he or our 4 kids get it,or even CARE????

No, my husband raved at me constantly about what I did NOT get done, which was about everything—-no one came near me as I was an angry RIP!!

I over ate in order to fill the emotional vacancies in my exhausted heart, BUT sadly had to come to the conclusion, that IF I DIDN"T TAKE CARE OF MYSELF!!!! No one else would!!! Not eating would be the reverse, but about the same reasons, I think——

Find your REAL person and be true to HER, make a loose schedule and try to stick to it, a bit at a time—-and I think that your overall life will be much improved, diabetis included!

Keep in touch as we all want to help you, and yes, it is HARD to start over, but not impossible!!! I am here to witness to that. Love, Pat roth

dietcherry
dietcherry 2009-12-17 18:11:36 -0600 Report

Pat, that is a very moving story and brought tears to my eyes! How kind of you to share that with her (and us)! :)

Deb-G
Deb-G 2009-12-17 18:21:00 -0600 Report

such a nice reply…

Infact I think you helped me with a little life-perspective as well…

Smell the roses…because they are beautiful…

and thx for sharing Pat ((hugs))

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-12-17 18:30:15 -0600 Report

Thanks, Deb!! Trying to help others with similar problems is the only thing that has kept me going—-everyone has to have a mission, or a purpose in life to make the struggle worthwhile—-to help others, to me, is the sole purpose of being, and in that way we help ourselves too. Turning around was the most difficult thing that I ever had to do—-but essential—-

I guess I wanted, NEEDED LOVE so desperately, that I thought if I worked hard enough, folks would care and show it—"Oh, you poor thing, you shouldn't work so hard, take care of yourself, we love you!!" NOT!!! I had such low self esteem I don't think that I could have accepted kindness anyway, I did NOT deserve it, and until I could remember and work thru the root cause, nothing else mattered—-"If you really knew me—-!" When, I got down to it—-it was trivial—so much HELL—and all because or being misinformed, as a small child, denied and buried.

I always try to find something positive, so I guess that you can call me the "Queen of De nial" ! hah—Love you ALL!!!

Best of Luck and Love,longhornmom!!!!! Pat R

Sue Turner
Sue Turner 2009-12-18 13:08:13 -0600 Report

Pat, you are such a kind loving person, and always have such good advice. We all need to take time to stop and smell the roses. Like you said, where are we rushing to?
Hugs to you Pat, your friend, Sue T.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-12-18 13:33:03 -0600 Report

Thanks, Sue! That reminds me of one of our physician's son that had a car wreck on a lonely side road. The droll Dr commented, "He didn't know where he was going, but he sure was in a hurry to get there!" I think of those words so often—-they can apply to so many areas of our lives! And so TRUE!! Hugs, Pat R

SBChappywme
SBChappywme 2009-12-16 22:57:45 -0600 Report

Well I can offer a suggestion. I was aleways forgetting to take my evening pills, as I am on oral meds. I put a reminder on my cell phone to go off at 6pm. Just a note that says t p. I then stopped after I got use to taking the evening pill but I do add other notes to my cell as I have those Senior Moments more frequently now at 60 years of age For awhile my grandson would say gramma take your pill no matter what time my alarm went off. LOL So, maybe a reminder on your cell phone for awhile might help you too. Good luck and hang in there.

ptsparkle
ptsparkle 2009-12-17 12:07:35 -0600 Report

My thoughts exactly. Most all of us have cell phones that can be programmed with alarms etc. The key, is to recognize the alert, and not turn it off and ignore it. Hard as it is it's important to be on a somewhat regular meal schedule. Just as important as taking meds on schedule. Hang in there, it will come, slowly but surely. You are not alone.
Jim

hbkunkel
hbkunkel 2009-12-16 22:22:05 -0600 Report

I agree, stop being so hard on yourself and take tiny steps to overcome your problem. Keep ready made food with you at all times - tomato juice, granola bars, packaged crackers and peanut butter, you get the idea. Then try to schedule lunch on these at a reasonable time and take your insulin. Sooner or later you will get yourself on a more reasonable schedule, You really need to put your health first and not put it off so you can live longer and healthier. Good luck on this very hard job.
Betsie

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