Lack of Willpower

Tamy_K
By Tamy_K Latest Reply 2009-11-06 12:21:09 -0600
Started 2009-11-05 10:35:36 -0600

I have been newly diagnosed diabetic and am struggling to get my blood sugars under control, with the help of my physician. I have hypothyroidism and also high cholesterol, and take medication for these conditions as well. I am on metformin and insulin. I test my sugar twice a day and rarely (even fasting) is it below 200. I am my own worst enemy. I knew I was doomed to have full blown diabetes eventually, as I was diabetic with all three of my pregnancies, and I have a great amount of family history. I know the diet, I followed it religiously with my first two children and did remarkably well. I did not require insulin at all. During my third pregnancy I was diagnosed with obsessive compulsive disorder and severe anxiety that did not go away after my pregnancy. I was also insulin dependant (quite heavily) for the entirety of my pregnancy. I found the diet harder to follw this time. Currently (my youngest is 1) I am having the hardest time following a healthy diet. It is rediculous. I need idet help. It seems that when I think of a new way to plan my meals that I just want to give up and then I end up eating something that I shouldn't. I know that I have to start eating healthier or I am going to end up with many more issues than I already have. I am sending out an SOS! Does anyone have good recommendations on how to get organized into a good diet state of mind. I need fresh ideas, because I can only stand so much chicken, and salads! Thanks!


19 replies

LoriAnne
LoriAnne 2009-11-05 21:40:56 -0600 Report

JUST LOOK AT YOUR CHILDREN! ISN'T THAT THE BEST REASON IN THE WORLD TO DO IT! THINK ABOUT NOT SEEING THEM GROW UP, GO TO COLLEGE, GETTING MARRIED, HAVING CHILDREN OF THEIR OWN. THAT IS THE ONLY REASON RIGHT NOW AND THAT I KNOW IT'S A MATTER OF LIFE AND DEATH IF I DON'T. I HAVE GOTTEN WORSE IN THE LAST YEAR, I AM ONLY 45 WITH A 6 YEAR OLD AND GROWN CHILDREN AS WELL. THEY ALL NEED ME IN ONE WAY OR ANOTHER!! WHEN I GO GROCERY SHOPPING GO BY YOURSELF AND TAKE YOUR TIME AND LOOK AT LABELS BUT YOU ALSO NEED TO REMEMBER TO SHOP FOR YOUR FAMILY BUT IF THEY ARE LIKE MINE. THEY NEED TO EAT HEALTHY AS WELL SO THEY WON'T BE DOING WHAT WE ARE DOING. FOR ME IT'S NOT WILLPOWER IT'S DO OR DIE!!! YOU ARE THE ONE AND ONLY ONE THAT CAN CHOOSE WHAT TO PUT IN YOUR MOUTH. FOR THE RECORD I ALSO AM ON INSULIN AND PILLS, BUT I'VE LOST 25 POUNDS IN 6-8 WEEKS AND I FEEL BETTER, LOOK BETTER, AND MY INSULIN USE HAS COME DOWN. THAT'S THE BOTTOM LINE! BUT FIRST AND FOREMOST DO IT FOR YOU!!!!

Tamy_K
Tamy_K 2009-11-06 06:34:41 -0600 Report

Thank you Lori Anne! I am amazed at the amount of positive comments I keep getting from people. It is great to know that I am not alone in this battle. I finally think I have found a place to go where people understand what I am going through! My husband tries, and he is a great man, but he has a hard time really understaning what it is like!

LoriAnne
LoriAnne 2009-11-06 12:21:09 -0600 Report

This is the first place I go when I feel down and want to eat and give up on my diet. NO YOU ARE NOT ALONE!!! M y husband is the same way. He's don't mentally understand diabetes and it's affects or anything about it. He just thinks if you don't eat you get shaky! That's part of it but he just don't understand the whole picture. He will joke around when I am talking about diabetes to someone else. It still hurts my feelings. So you will find several men on this web site as well . I don' tmean for personal but for diabetic friendship. Harlen is one and roger1966 is another one that I chat with. Check them out as well. If I think about eating I come here and forget about it and have passed another hurdle. YOU CAN TOO! Keep in touch, any time you come across a hurdle of any kind. A Friend, LORIANNE

salmanda
salmanda 2009-11-05 17:33:20 -0600 Report

I have struggled with willpower as well. When I was growing up, I was a beanpole, and I could eat anything I wanted, all I wanted. I never had to practice willpower! Now that I do, it is so hard. My friends were always jealous because I could eat and not gain weight. Now, I am the one who is envious of them because they learned to use willpower. I have great intentions, but slip too often. I try not to beat myself up too badly when I slip, but I know I have to be much better, too.
Good luck to us both! We will take the willpower journey together! :)
Sal

Tamy_K
Tamy_K 2009-11-05 19:50:15 -0600 Report

I've never been skinny, but I have always been able to control my weight fairly well. I have never dieted before my stint with diabetes during pregnancy (and that really isn;t a low fat diet, and if you tell yourself you are doing it for your baby it has a more direct result, for me at least) I agree that I never learned willpower. Pretty much in any aspect of my life. So this really will be a life style change. I will have to spoil myself in different ways, and I will be glad to have someone to share my journey with

Harlen
Harlen 2009-11-05 14:01:22 -0600 Report

Hello Tammy we have all been there and know how it is to backslide from time to time dont come down on yourself so hard
I ma T2 and on the pump I tried the diets
and the pills and was glad to get the shots that made my BS come down
Befor the shots I didnt eat anything that wasnt green lol and that just wasnt a good time at all now I count carbs and am always dropping a little bit each month It didnt go on in a day and will not come off in a day lol WE can wish lol
Best wishes
H

Tamy_K
Tamy_K 2009-11-05 19:41:53 -0600 Report

Thank you for your comments and your support. It is very comforting to know that there are others who have been through this

SuzyAttendorn
SuzyAttendorn 2009-11-05 13:34:46 -0600 Report

Hi Tamy, I was diagnosed in August. I immediately started following the weight watchers program. A few weeks later, I started using my Wii Fit and am now working out about 45 minutes a day and have lost 20 lbs. All it takes is to start. Take it one day at a time. Before you know it, it becomes second nature. Finding out that I had diabetes was my starting point. I have a lot to live for, and so do you. I wish you the best of luck. Suzy

Tamy_K
Tamy_K 2009-11-05 19:40:20 -0600 Report

Thamk you for the support. and the idea! I have a Wii Fit and always looked at it like a game because it is sooo fun. I never thought of using it as a real exercise tool. I have an inspiration!!!

Hinboyz3
Hinboyz3 2009-11-05 12:53:47 -0600 Report

We all feel that way Tamy, their is only so much that we can chose between. But on this site you will find very easy recipes, and they are fun and easy to prepare too. It makes it so much more easier to shop and compare all kinds of recipes. I was thinking the very same way as you are.

Tamy_K
Tamy_K 2009-11-05 13:12:20 -0600 Report

Thank you for your comments. It is nice to know that other people have gotten past the way I feel, and found success!

London
London 2009-11-05 12:34:14 -0600 Report

You should check out the recipes on this site. Amazing food of all sorts. I know how you feel but I tell myself I don;t need that junk food to live and I have 2 kids who I need to be around for. It's hard at first but you can do it. Good luck.

Tamy_K
Tamy_K 2009-11-05 13:13:20 -0600 Report

I have been checking the recipies! Some of them "look" amazing! Thank you for your reply and your support!

ptsparkle
ptsparkle 2009-11-05 11:21:24 -0600 Report

There are many more choices than chicken and salads. Moderation and portion size are a factor. As for motivation, plaster your refrigerator with your childrens pictures, and think how they are going to feel if Mom isn't around. It's tough foe all of us, but you have to get in the right frame of mind. You have an excellent support group here, don't hesitate to ask for help.
Jim.

Tamy_K
Tamy_K 2009-11-05 13:11:18 -0600 Report

I agree with your comment, and that is why I have sought out the help of the diabetic community. I want to be around for my children, I want to do this for myself, I want to be the person I was, and not let diabetes define me. I just need a starting point, now that I have made the decision! I'm looking to this site, and thankful for all of your suggestions and support. It really is going to be key in helping me manage my diabetes so I can get back to being a wife, and student, and mother of 5 beautiful boys!

hbkunkel
hbkunkel 2009-11-05 10:41:32 -0600 Report

Have you considered joining weight watchers? You have to follow their guidelines but have a true variety of foods and it teaches you to make better choices. I have lost 8 pounds in two months and the slower I take it off, the better chance I have to keep it off. My goal is to reduce my insulin and other meds. Keep working at it, it is worth it for you and your family.

Tamy_K
Tamy_K 2009-11-05 13:18:34 -0600 Report

I hadn't thought about weight watchers. I have a non diabetic friend that has had a lot of success with that program. She has lost over 150 lbs in 3 years. She's the stuff commercials are made of. It isn' only diet with me. I like a large variety of foods, Which is why I had little problem with my 1st 2 pregnancies. The other huge issue I currently have is exercise, being a mom of 5 ranging in age from 13 to 1, I am having a hard time finding the time to exercise. I feel I need to include the kids, but I live in a cold weather state, and I don't want to drag them around in the weather and get them sick. they do that often enough on their own. I have come to the conclusion today though, that I need to find my inner strength and determination, and stop making excuses for myself. Taking care of myself and properly managing my diabetes will enable me to be the best parent and wife I can be!

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