I need Help!!

Tamalynn
By Tamalynn Latest Reply 2013-07-15 17:27:19 -0500
Started 2009-09-24 08:40:47 -0500

Why can't I get this? I have been diagnosed for about 8 years and I still just ignore it. I try sometimes. I get worried about dying. I want to see my grand children grow up and yet…why? I won't check my sugar, I won't eat what I should and I won't take my meds. Do I want to be sick? Do I want to die? I can't seem to find the answers, only excuses for my behavior. I am to busy, to tired, not enough money, no one cares. I need a good shaking I guess. I need someone to help. Someone who can help me understand my own thoughts and reasons.


9 replies

carol47240
carol47240 2009-10-07 19:01:28 -0500 Report

I believe that unless you have super human will power everyone of us has been where you are at sometime…but it does concern me that your denial and noncompliance has lasted so long…I agree with the posters who recommend therapy…there is some underlying cause for your problem…Personally I have absolutely no willpower when it comes to my diet so I do have empathy for you in that aspect…I think that the fact that you have posted on this discussion board is in fact a cry for help…Please take the next step and reach out to a professional…

MarineMomX2
MarineMomX2 2009-09-27 14:18:53 -0500 Report

Denial's got to be a common thread for everyone here at some time and point. Finding what will make you change is the key too, as I like to say..getting through your thick skull that you have to change. It took me turning 50 and waking up to the facts that diabetes killed my mother when she was only 54. Did I want to take the same path she did or live to be older and enjoy my life. Considering I've already got the rocking chairs for the front porch, I trying my derndest to make these changes! Hang in there!
Nelda

salmanda
salmanda 2009-09-27 08:11:07 -0500 Report

I too have been where you are. I am/was in denial. I know the consequences, yet don't always do what I need to do to take care of myself. I know I can only change this myself, and the same is true for you. We are all in charge of our own destinies.
Good luck…it's hard.
Sal

T&T
T&T 2009-09-27 08:54:12 -0500 Report

Today is my first day on this network and it has really blessed me. Your words echoed within me about myself. Why do I do the things that I should not do (concernind my condition) , and not do the things that I should ? Truthfully I guess I have not really in these years faced or even accepted the truth of my condition. Oh, I'm a minister and a Pastor … and I have help so many with so many things … but have not took the time to stop and hep myself.Your questions and words this morning was like giving me a taste of the meds that I've been giving out . Thanks …It's time to Change … Thank You Again for saying all the fears that I had for some time locked up inside … so no one could see . I do not want to Die … at least before my God Given Time .

LisaLu
LisaLu 2009-09-24 14:28:59 -0500 Report

you sound just like me, I am the same way. I wonder if I am just in denial because everyone around me is constantly telling me how dangerous and deadly diabetes is and I am not taking it seriously enough. It's not that I don't hear them, I just am not sure what I can do to make it better.

BeckyJ
BeckyJ 2009-09-24 10:40:54 -0500 Report

I too went through this for tooooo long a time. I finally started seeing a therapist for other issues (I have Bi-polar disorder) and when we started to talk about health concerns I brought up that I was not compliant with my medications for any of my conditions but especially with my Diabetes. After about 20 minutes of lecture on the importance of at least a small degree of compliance he said that it was actually a pretty normal occurance. If we don't treat the problem we don't have to face the problem. It took me being forced into the hospital by family (they got a court order to say I was temporarily incompetant) to face my problems both physical and emotional. I still have days when I don't want to take my meds or check my sugar but with help I am now much more in control. The frustration for me was that even with the meds they had given me I was not feeling better. I didn't know at the time that you may have to try a lot of different things to get the best result. Getting help from a therapist truly helped and I am so thankful now that I said something and did not continue down my path of self-destruction. I still have a ways to go to correct all the problems my avoidance caused but now I have hope that at some point I will succeed. PLEASE look into talking with someone. Even just talking with a good friend can help. I also give MUCH thanks to the Pastor and Youth Pastor at my church. They mostly just held my hand but their guidance and understanding made the transition from doing nothing to being active in my health decisions a much easier path. God Bless and Good Luck. Becky

popplecove62
popplecove62 2013-07-15 17:27:19 -0500 Report

Thank you. I don't know why these posts are so old, but I have been telling myself I need to see a therapist. With the emotional issues I am facing and trying to take care of myself it's overwhelming. You convinced me to reach out. I have no family support at this time and o am angry, lonely and depressed. Makes for a decent recipe don't you think? Lol

Moondancer426
Moondancer426 2009-09-24 10:29:21 -0500 Report

You need to ask your dr. about some psycological help. Sometimes a short session with a psycologist will be all you need to set you straight. There will be something that will make it click. I will pray for you also. But, really do ask you dr. for some help, that's what they are there for!

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