Hi everyone! I'm brand new here and am looking for some support. I was diagnosed with diabetes just this past week. I'm 22 years old and have led a lifestyle of healthy eating and exercise…the diagnosis is due to my genes. I'm not in denial of the diagnosis and I have no problem changing my diet and lifestyle or taking pills (well, maybe I have a little anxiety about the side effects of Metformin). My big issue is testing myself.
I have severe anxiety when it comes to needles/blood. I avoided routine blood tests for ten years because of this. When I see a needle (in person/on TV) I get the heebies-jeebies…I get light-headed, dizzy, nauseous, black outs, hot flashes, cold sweats, clammy and the color leaves my face. In high school, I walked through the room where a blood drive was taking place and I fainted; I wasn't even giving blood! In the past, my doctors would order the lab work and I would ignore it every time. I was in great health so I guess they didn't care too much that I didn't get the labs done. This past summer, I was very ill and had to have blood tests done to figure out what was wrong. I wanted to know so badly what was my problem but my nervous system got the best of me. I would start having a panic attack before even leaving my house for the tests! I consulted my doctor and she gave me some anxiety medication to help out. The meds worked great and I was able to get the tests done.
But now I am faced with a much bigger dilemma than getting lab work every now and then…testing myself on a daily basis. I cannot do this. Everyone says, "Oh you'll get used to it." Well, I can't get used to it if I can't do it in the first place. Before I was diagnosed, my mom tested me to see what my fasting blood sugars were. It took about 20 min before I finally let her do it and afterward, I got dizzy and nauseous and had to lay down. Another time (before I was diagnosed), I tried to do it myself and it took me 45 minutes…and I didn't even get enough blood! All that hype for nothing!!! I was diagnosed nearly a week ago and as far as I got was setting the meter up before I had a nervous breakdown. I know how to do it…I just can't.
I don't want to have to take anxiety medication every day but it doesn't seem like I have much more of an option. I'm looking into hypnosis, psychiatry or therapy. This is a problem now and will only become worse when it comes to testing more than once a day and/or having kids!! Anyone have some advice??? THANK YOU! : )
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