I know I need to keep this short, but I'm so frustrated at this point, that I think I would much rather die than continue to live like I have. I have an insane amount of medical problems including a herniated disk with radiculopathy, asthma, fibromyalgia, CFS, sarcoidosis, sleep apnea, narcolepsy and diabetes II. I've had a cardiac arrest and 3 blood clots in my legs and a pulmonary embolism. I'm on enough medication to make anyone's head spin. And to make things worse, even though the diabetes is bad (I've got neuropathy also), my pain issues have become my target because I can't even cook or do common household chores without being doubled over in pain. My blood sugars were remaining somewhere between 350 and 500 for the last 2 months, until I saw an endocrinologist up in Denver, who put me on almost twice the amount of insulin I was on (now my blood sugars range from about 200 to, still, 400). I quit seeing the doctor I was seeing because I felt she was making things worse than better and in the meantime, I entered the "doughnut hole" with my Part D insurance, meaning that my insulin alone (getting it as Walmart where it's the cheapest) is costing me $150 a month, let alone all the other meds I have to be on. Patient assistance for prescriptions won't help me because they say "I have coverage) - what good is that coverage when it's not paying a single penny? I try to live on disability, but even before I fell into this "hole" I was still coming up short of money by the 3rd week of every month. My podiatrist just told me that he thinks there's something underlying all of my problems and that I need to be looking at them as a whole and find out what is actually going on in my body. I can't even find an internist that I can talk to who will actually listen. I feel like I'm such a loss right now and I really, really want this all to go away.
Oh yes, and I'm only 49. My father is 73 and is in better health than I am.
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