Hi, I'm new here and not entirely sure how this works but I just really need a place to get all this out.
I found out Monday that I have diabetes and I can't stop crying and feeling hopeless and anxious. My numbers weren't terribly high, fortunately, and I'm not on any medication currently; just a strict low carb diet and lots of exercise while self-monitoring at home. Which is a big change to adjust to but it's nowhere near impossible. But I just can't stop thinking about how this is it, this is the rest of my life. Out of the blue I suddenly have to change the way I live forever. I know it sounds (and is) dramatic. Especially after searching around and seeing so many people who have it so much worse than I do. I should be grateful. And it's just a diet and exercise! Which I need anyway. But I think what's getting to me is the suddenness and not having any choice in the matter. I feel like my control over my life has been snatched away from me and I can't stand it.
I also can't stop obsessing over all the possible complications and whether or not I'm going to be able to do this right. I have no idea what's going to happen now or in the future and I'm scared to death. I hate the thought of this disease ruling my life forever. I'm afraid it's all I'll ever be able to think about and I'll never be able feel carefree and enjoy my life again without this shadow hanging over me.
I guess I just needed to vent, but also wanted to ask if it ever gets easier? Do you ever come to terms with it and not let it bother you and stress you out? After the initial shock wears off, do you go back to enjoying your daily life, just with the added task of managing your blood sugar?
Sorry if this sounds too dramatic or whiny and thank you to anyone in advance for listening. Any tips on getting/staying more positive are of course welcome. It's just been a rough week.
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