Emotional reactions

By Mcamk Latest Reply 2017-02-27 10:48:00 -0600
Started 2017-02-13 20:02:20 -0600

Four months ago my brother committed suicide. Yes I have help and therapy but I must tell you it destroyed much of the progress I was making in my diabetes treatment. After technical difficulties with this site, I found my way back and am trying so hard to care about my own health again. Reading everyone's earnest hard work to stay healthy motivates me a little more each week. Slowly but surely I think I'm turning the corner. I really thought I had this disease under control but now know it's a daily effort and can be affected badly by the emotional hurdles life throws. I just had to mention how hard I fell. Up again now and beginning again.

12 replies

SthrnCook 2017-02-27 10:48:00 -0600 Report

Hi M! I am so sorry to hear of your loss. I too, am learning that this is a day at a time journey, but you can make it. I joined this site, but found it a bit overwhelming, and I didn't really know where to start, so I stopped. But I understand that I need help, and what better help than from ppl who are doing it everyday and are doing well. I know you an do this, you can get a grip on it, and I know you can make it!!! Here's to the new YOU!!!!

Corrie Jo
Corrie Jo 2017-02-20 00:57:48 -0600 Report

I don't bounce back from death so well. I will spare details, but I just get really depressed…like for years. I remember a few years after my Mom died, I was at the ponds and realized the sun was still shining. It was the first time I had felt somewhat normal in maybe 2 or 3 years. I wish you the best in your many challenges. I have not experienced a loved one committing suicide. I think that would be so very painful and leave so many unanswered questions. I had a friend tell me after Mom died, "There are things we may not ever understand. God will have a lot of questions to answer." My friend passed away 2 years later at the age of 36 of cancer, leaving behind 6 little kids. Of course, I thought of her statement many times and how profound it was. Best wishes taking care of yourself. It is hard, but so necessary.

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2017-02-16 21:57:25 -0600 Report

Hi Mcamk, I am glad you found your way back to us. I am so sorry to hear about your brother, a tragedy. I can understand why you would be so overcome with emotions, and how this could effect your compliance. I hope you will be patient with yourself, get lots of support, and take things one day at a time. You're right, diabetes self-care is a daily effort. But we also get through the grief process one day at a time. A hard fall, I know. Take really good care of yourself, you are turning the corner. Keep up the good work. My thoughts are with you. I hope you will stay in touch with us, my friend.

cmr55 2017-02-15 13:35:34 -0600 Report

I am so sorry for your loss and struggles. My prayers are with you. Take each day one at a time. Your emotions are on an emotional roller coaster and I am sure dealing with your diabetes has its ups and downs too. We are here to help. Its going to take some time with your grieve. We all handle grieve differently so there is no time limit. Maybe waking up in the morning and just thinking what you are great full for in your life will help you get through that day. My brother and sister in law will be gone 5 years this year. I miss the Carol/

Pegsy 2017-02-14 12:47:28 -0600 Report

My thoughts and prayers are with you. Dealing with the death of a sibling is so difficult. I went through that around this time last year. Dealing with death by suicide is even more devastating. You really need to treat yourself with TLC and be patient with yourself as your grieve. It takes time. Lots of it. Hugs to you.

suecsdy 2017-02-14 08:12:40 -0600 Report

So sorry for your loss. Dealing with a suicide is not easy. I've been there. But his choice is not your choice. You chose life, and if you want a good one, you need to control again. Beat that nasty little diabeast back into his little black hole and put a big rock on top. You did this once and you can do it again. You are strong.
Please don't stress yourself thinking you could have changed things. You couldn't. Don't beat yourself up trying to figure out what he was thinking. You'll never know. And that kind of stuff will only make you sick. Pray that he's found the peace he so desperately needed. And no matter what anyone says, know that he is with God. He was lost, and God always welcomes the lost children home.

GabbyPA 2017-02-14 06:17:24 -0600 Report

I am so sorry for your loss and can empathize with how it affects our control of this disease. That emotional roller coaster can through us for a loop. I am glad you are back and have a purpose again. There are going to be days when it falls apart again, but just keep on plugging. It took me about 9 months after my husband died to get really back on board with consistency. You will find your way. I am here if you want to talk.

KarmannGhiaChristy 2017-02-13 22:33:55 -0600 Report

I'm sorry for your loss. I'm sure that is a very hard thing to go through. There are rough patches in life, but it's never too late to start over and keep trying… tomorrow is a new day, make it count.
There's a line in Finding Nemo that I've repeated to myself many times in the recent years… Dory says "keep swimming, just keep swimming" and that's what we have to do too (((HUGS)))

WASHED OUT 2017-02-13 21:20:02 -0600 Report

It is always a daily effort for each of us as well, just keep you commitment to yourself to live healthier and you will always gain confidence and be closer to your goals. So sorry about your loss, but we and those around you still have you and you can do this.

Scared ****less
Scared ****less 2017-02-13 21:02:28 -0600 Report

Jus keep trying my friend i know it must be hard but your health is the most important thing right now. So keep trying to stay on track may god bless you my condolences.

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