I am so down & feeling so depressed and confused. I have decided I want to throw in the towel. I just don't know what to do anymore,I am just left here unsure of anything, just want to run away from my problems. Yesterday was a shock to me w/ a BS of 424 after lunch,took 3 hours to get it down to 190. I had a snack of yogurt, also had 1/2 glass 2% milk,when it was down to 127, shot back up to 193. Bedtime was 133. This AM was 167. I ran out of strips, about 3 that I had left did not work for some reason. I would buy the strips next door at the pharmacy, prices are good, $42. for 50 strips plus 10% off. I am hesitant to ask one of my son's as they too are struggling,one was laid off (25 yr. old)…I was thinking this earlier,but now, I don't care that I have no strips. I have BMC healthnet plan from commonwealth care, they would pay for the supplies, alls I need is a Dr. and for him to diagnose me, give me the scripts. My 25 yr. old lives with me so he knows about symptoms of low BS,and,knows whether it be on the very high end like 424, or what, that if something happens he knows what is wrong. I am not really thinking that will happen though, may have been just a one time thing. I am in that state of mind where I shut down and nothing bothers me, shut off notices for bills, a dollar to my name right now, in process of trying to get Disability, have other medical problems too. I know some may have it worse than me. I was given great advice here every time I needed it, I can't get my blood looked at again until I have someone who can order it,it has been done a month ago,but things have seemed to change now. I just have my BS levels written down.
Thank you once again for letting me vent or whatever. Have a wonderful evening…Darlene
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