I think I need some support here...please!!!

By Darly Latest Reply 2009-08-30 08:28:51 -0500
Started 2009-08-24 16:57:35 -0500

I am so down & feeling so depressed and confused. I have decided I want to throw in the towel. I just don't know what to do anymore,I am just left here unsure of anything, just want to run away from my problems. Yesterday was a shock to me w/ a BS of 424 after lunch,took 3 hours to get it down to 190. I had a snack of yogurt, also had 1/2 glass 2% milk,when it was down to 127, shot back up to 193. Bedtime was 133. This AM was 167. I ran out of strips, about 3 that I had left did not work for some reason. I would buy the strips next door at the pharmacy, prices are good, $42. for 50 strips plus 10% off. I am hesitant to ask one of my son's as they too are struggling,one was laid off (25 yr. old)…I was thinking this earlier,but now, I don't care that I have no strips. I have BMC healthnet plan from commonwealth care, they would pay for the supplies, alls I need is a Dr. and for him to diagnose me, give me the scripts. My 25 yr. old lives with me so he knows about symptoms of low BS,and,knows whether it be on the very high end like 424, or what, that if something happens he knows what is wrong. I am not really thinking that will happen though, may have been just a one time thing. I am in that state of mind where I shut down and nothing bothers me, shut off notices for bills, a dollar to my name right now, in process of trying to get Disability, have other medical problems too. I know some may have it worse than me. I was given great advice here every time I needed it, I can't get my blood looked at again until I have someone who can order it,it has been done a month ago,but things have seemed to change now. I just have my BS levels written down.
Thank you once again for letting me vent or whatever. Have a wonderful evening…Darlene

17 replies

2009-08-24 22:12:44 -0500 Report

I know how you feel because I have been there. I have read the other replies, and they have given you good advice. I would be telling you the same thing. It is necessary you get help and if that means going to the ER, GO!!! As another person said, they cannot refuse to treat you because of your financial situation. Get the help you need!!!! Love and prayers are with you.

Darly 2009-08-26 20:27:41 -0500 Report

Hello! I want to thank you all for your support! I am babysitting this Tues. Weds> Thurs> for ex sister-in-law, 3 girls 7yr. old twins and 11 yr. old sister, you want to talk about getting exercise after being w/them for 9 hrs. a day!! She paid me cash today, I took the girls and went down the street to Walgreen's in Arlington, they had a Truetrac meter kit with meter,control solution,10 strips,10 lancets,and lancet pen…All in one kit on sale for $14.99,plus I printed out a $5.00 coupon from her computer! The kit cost me $9.99 and 25 test strips for $19.99, I am back on track to test again! I didn't get home until 6PM, read all the directions,made a lil supper…waited the 2 hours, my BS reading was 198…before I ate BS was 127…not too bad I guess?? I am behind on bills,shut off notices yes, but, as you all have told me I have to take care of myself and that is why I went out and spent the money,oh,bought a nice jar pumpkin spice candle for $4. couldn't resist as I love candles!

Darly 2009-08-29 17:11:20 -0500 Report

What is this "honeymoon period" I hear of? Does this mean your BS will be down for a while? I am asking because on the 27th my AM BS was down to 95, but post meals were up…(158,209) yesterday had BS of 90,random…another 90 before snack, 129 post, and then back to 95 later on. I had a BS level of 98 (random) today @ 4PM. I had a very small baked potato @ 5PM, BS is 158 (only thing I had today,was not hungry) I am trying to understand without being a pain in the butt! I am sure I will understand more soon,when I see a Doctor. I know there are a couple of you here who told me to accept the idea that I am diabetic,not pre. I certainly agreed at that time,now I am wondering…
Are there times that your BS will be in normal range and still be diabetic?

Judy(JP) 2009-08-29 22:09:46 -0500 Report

Yes there are times when your blood sugar can be in normal range and still be diabetic. Many things affect it. The food you eat, exercise, stress, illness, etc… That's why you need to keep track every day so that you can see patterns and see if it's a specific food or stress making it higher or exercise making it lower. If you are Diabetic or PreDiabetic or what ever you want to call it taking an active role in your own care is the best thing you can do for yourself. Testing, learning, like you are right now is the best.

Good luck

Darly 2009-08-30 08:28:51 -0500 Report

Thank you Judy. I think I now see a pattern in my AM levels,I took it a few min. ago,it is 157. I looked and than remembered that some mornings I do some light exercises w/ my arms to get me going,I know I did not do that this morning…that may be it. This past week, I babysat the 3 days, more exercise than normally…I have not been that hungry at all for a few days. Last night my son thought I took something as I was so tired suddenly, it seemed like I was drunk,standing there weaving back & forth,hardly able to keep my eyes open,I did feel that way also even though I haven't drank in many years!…Thank you again!

Darlene =)

hbkunkel 2009-08-24 19:22:17 -0500 Report

You need help ASAP and the ER can not turn you away. Explain your situation and someone there may know of local help to get you on the right track. You need to get into the mindset that you ARE a diabetic and plenty of us will give you support. Keep us informed of your progress. By the way, you need to eat even if your numbers are high. Protein in small amounts is a good help.

mamaoak 2009-08-24 17:22:20 -0500 Report

you should get to er as soon as possible this is nothing to fool around with . i order my strips on line i get a three months supply for $ 25

mamaoak 2009-08-24 17:22:20 -0500 Report

you should get to er as soon as possible this is nothing to fool around with . i order my strips on line i get a three months supply for $ 25

Darly 2009-08-24 18:43:29 -0500 Report

How do you do that? Do you have a script for them?

mamaoak 2009-08-24 19:04:42 -0500 Report

yes when you can get to a dr and get a prscription for them tell her or hin you want to order them on line. they will contact him and then send you the strips. get some strips to tide you over untell then. go to wall mart they have a travel meter that has some stripa i think they ar only 15.oo to tide you over . it might have been yesterday but you should go to er see if they can help you. i sent you an email of carbs did you get it. measurement with it.

Sarguillo 2009-08-24 17:16:00 -0500 Report

Girl, You are diabetic. Im not a doctor so you dont have to listen to me. but with your numbers, you are diabetic.
Ok, With a number of 424 (are you sure you had clean hands when you took the test), get yourself down to the ER. at an ER, a different doctor will look at you. But you also said you got down to 190 in 3 hours. I couldn't do that without medication. Keep tracking your numbers. Find a new doctor. present new doctor with your log. Try to follow a diabetic diet, start now. Log not only what your Blood sugars are, but also keep a diet log. Let the doctor make the diaognosis and if needed, find the correct prescriptions that you will eventually need. When I was found to be a T2, I had a BS of just alittle over 500 and they put me on IV and kept me in hospital for a week to get my numbers back down slowly.
Good luck.

Darly 2009-08-24 18:42:09 -0500 Report

I would go to an ER but the BS of 424 was yesterday,doesn't that matter? I tend to agree w/you that I can finally say that I am a diabetic with my numbers,"whew" that was hard to swallow!I have been keeping a log along with dietary intake,times. I have no idea what it is now. I did not eat anything while my numbers were up yesterday. They are higher than when I 1st started to log them,not much but at times.
Thank you!

beadmom 2009-08-24 17:10:56 -0500 Report

OK.. I am noted for thinking way outside the box. ..and I am not advocating abusing the medical system…(I hope) BUT.. maybe you can push them a little?

Can’t you go to urgent care, tell them what is going on and see if someone will write you a prescription for strips? I might consider that 400+ BS falls under URGENT and maybe someone can help you or direct you from there.

I mean how far really can you go wrong testing your BS? It’s not like you are begging for oxycodone. Someone should help you.