By Darly Latest Reply 2009-08-20 08:01:33 -0500
Started 2009-08-19 12:58:24 -0500

I have decided that I give up on everything. I still have no appointment w/ my new Dr.,have been testing the right time frame now in the AM,has been in high 130's,I find out I have some kind of Arrhythmia w/fast pulse (120's)..was put in to get a RHYTHM ECG on Monday at the clinic,nothing yet…My therapist, the only one close to a Doctor is going on vacation for 2 weeks. I texted to her I needed someone to refill my meds. while she was away and that I guess the ECG can wait till she gets back,meanwhile I am on aspirin therapy. Is it me just being a Biatch,or,is there something wrong with this picture? I am just so done with the glucose testing etc…I am not being cared for by a doctor anyways. I am sorry but I just can't deal with this crap anymore.
All of you on here are so nice,kind & caring,and,I appreciate that so much. Sorry I just ranted once again…Darlene

12 replies

Jipwhip 2009-08-19 22:00:18 -0500 Report

Don't go giving up on us. You are too important to do that. I know things are hard right now, but they will get better. It always seems to be the darkest just before the light comes on. Venting always helps, keeping stuff bottled up hurts you worse. So vent or howl away you will feel better when you do.

Avera 2009-08-19 20:42:07 -0500 Report

Hi Darlene!

I'm sorry for all the situations that are bringing you down. Like most things in life, they will get better. When I feel down, I always watch this video. It is very short. Please watch it!



Anonymous 2009-08-19 21:45:19 -0500 Report

Great video!

Darly 2009-08-20 08:01:33 -0500 Report

Thank you Avera,this puts it all into prospective for me!! What a compelling story,when I see something like this and know I can do something that could avoid such a tragedy it puts my mind into a more prospective mode for myself…Thanks again for the motivation. Great story. =) Darlene

mamaoak 2009-08-19 18:45:11 -0500 Report

dont give up hope pleas your to important to do that. i would be royaly cheesed my self . it is ok to vent we need to do that. can you find a other dr i hope so. can you go to emergency or a clinic to get some help they cant refuse you. i wish yoou all the best am praying for you . you have to take care of your self as best you can. i just hhope all works out for you you are in a terible situation. sure wish i could help . hugs take care ok dont do anything foolish try and realax getting up set will raise your sugars take care

Darly 2009-08-19 20:18:19 -0500 Report

I want to thank you all for caring so much about me. You are all right, I can't just give up. I think because I have to track blood sugars,and,ask myself why am I doing this,I don't know if I am type 2,yes,I finally figured out that you have to be up & about for about 10-15 min. to get the right level,now that I do that I see they are in the high 130's first thing in AM. Everything I eat raises BS,and bedtime BS is usually higher than it should be,so I question myself about checking my BS as some say it should be higher to be a diabetic,mine may not have reached the 200 mark (yet),but has been pretty close a few times,guess everyone's body reacts differently. Yes Sarguillo, your right about my eyes and extremities, my vision has been getting worse,I have the tingling in my hands feet,legs,take Lyrica. Someone here told me I may not even be diabetic,then I question myself again. I do not take any meds. that would interfere with BS,was already checked. I have been taken the same meds. for years,except for one. That one is being lowered as of tonight because now I was told I may have serotonin syndrome as my antidepressant has it, this nortriptoline (SP?) which is to help w/the migraines I get. This may be the cause of Arrhythmia,I hope so!! Your right about eating like a diabetic,I was ready to just start eating anything I wanted,which sure will push those BS up. I have not had a big meal since testing,maybe I should so I would really know. I hear the new Dr. I will be seeing is very nice and will take the time with you…So for all of you dear friends of mine,I will do what I can right now,I will take my meds.,do the aspirin therapy because of the cholesterol,and test my BS until I run out of strips. Is it okay to just test in the AM & PM?…does anyone know with readings in the 130's in AM refer to being diabetic? I'm sorry,I am just hot and confused.
You are all so wonderful,I would be crazy to just give up and not be here with you guy's!! Have a healthy night,and I will do the same. Words can not explain how Good I feel right now because of all of you..God Bless, Darlene

P2putt 2009-08-19 18:09:28 -0500 Report

Sometime we have to rant-rant is good!.It is important to vent our feelings so that they do not overwhealm us.You are really in a very awkward situation. I sense you don't have much confidence in your Do. You may want to consider some options.Are you on meds,if so are they beneficial?Does your Doc usually take time to talk with you,get you imput? Whatever you do ,don't give up. Get another opinion,see another Doc. Don' give up hope. Pete

SusanJ 2009-08-19 17:52:16 -0500 Report

I am sorry for all that you are going through. But please do not give up. You are an important person. I have been were you are. I still battle with the doctors at times. Keep us posted on how you are doing. You are in my prayers.

Sarguillo 2009-08-19 17:11:20 -0500 Report

Giving up is not an option. Remmber, your eyes, your extremities and your life, That is what is lost with complications of diabetes. Sometimes in that order. Ok, you cant see a doctor right now. Is there antoher doctor you can see in the mean time? If so, do so, if not, wait untill you can and go see that doctor. What medicines are you on at the moment? If the doctors say to take them, and you feel they are helping, please do so and take them. If not, then when you do see the doctor, find out what you should be taking. Untill then, please try to eat a diabetic diet. More vegtables, less carbs, smaller portions except for green vegtables. If you cant see the doctor now, please do so when you can. If you dont like what you are hearing from your doctor and your doctor is not working with you, please find another doctor. Please dont give up. I did that for about 10 years and you and I dont want to know the damadge I caused my body. I probably lost a good 10 years to my total life expectency by ignorning my diabetes. To ignore diabetes is a slow form of suicide. Not anything I would wish on anyone. Please take as well of care of your self as you can. Nobody can do this for you. It has to be your want. Nobody can make you get help.
I wish all the luck in the world and a long and happy life.
Ive been there.

DiabetesDiva 2009-08-19 14:47:59 -0500 Report

Hang in there! Unfortunately, August is the month most doctors and therapists go on vacation. It won't help your heart condition to be upset. It must be frightening not be to under a doctor's care at this point. Now take 5 deep breaths. Remember if you need care, there's doc in a box and the emergency room. Does your insurance company offer a medical person to talk to? Mine offers 24/7 phone advice. Hang in there, you'll make it!

Darly 2009-08-19 20:28:54 -0500 Report

Hello,Yes,my insurance does cover 24/7 phone advice,nurse I think,I also think it is on my fridge! Thank you so much for reminding me. I just don't know what I would say,I'll figure it out. See there is always something one of you will say to make me feel better. =) Darlene

Judimar 2009-08-19 14:04:21 -0500 Report


I can understand your frustration with your situation… but please don't give up. You are God's gift to this world and believe it or not you make a difference in the lives of people you touch. I sense that you are a strong woman… look at what you've done on your own so far. Keep working at trying to stay healthy for YOURSELF.

I can relate to your frustration with your doctor. When I was first diagnosised with type 2 the doctor who I went to didn't give me any medications or tell me to test. There I was with a fasting blood sugar of almost 500 and she told me to manage it with diet and exercise. She told me not to bother testing.. and I didn't hear from her for a year until she closed her practice… Thankfully I found a doctor who listens and cares.

I know giving up seems the easiest thing to do… but try and find the strength I know you have to keep trying not just for your family and friends… but for the most important person in your world… YOU!

You're in my thoughts and prayers.