life sucks

enge
By enge Latest Reply 2009-08-14 00:26:23 -0500
Started 2009-07-23 13:20:48 -0500

hey, this is all new to me, i have had type II diabetes for about 5 years, at first i could control it with diet, then for the past 3 years meds, now today i need to go on insulin. My hgb A1C in 11.2, unbelievable, so i have an appt in about a hour with the diabetes center to learn all this. I am scared to death!@!!! Thanks, just needed to get that out!


14 replies

Harlen
Harlen 2009-08-01 13:35:12 -0500 Report

Benn there done that and it BIGHTS
What dosent kill you makes you stronger
I am now on the pump and it works good for me.
Best of luck

kahine
kahine 2009-08-13 23:16:34 -0500 Report

I am 47 years old. Yes to me life sucks. I've had Type 1 diabetes for 33 years. I've had extensive laser surgery on both eyes, triple bypass surgery 7 years ago, 3 stents 6 months ago. Currently have cataracts, neuropathy, and need surgery on both hands and feet. I'm to the point of being depressed daily, cry nightly because of the pain I'm in and because I THINK LIFE SUCKS and I've been dealt a rotten hand. My husband can't even afford me anymore.

P2putt
P2putt 2009-07-24 07:21:34 -0500 Report

As John mentioned,you are now in a position to have better,more precise control. I was on insulin,did so well the Doc took me off,put me on oral meds. There went my control. Readings were all over the place. Went back on insulin. Now numbers are respectable. Please don't prejudge or blame yourself for how your body responds. Keep us informed on how your B.S. readings are. Pete

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-24 09:50:20 -0500 Report

Interesting—I am learning so much, even if I am fortunate that it doesn't apply to me. Makes me feel more fortunate that mine isn't too bad, and I actually think it is coming under control!!! hmmm—It was 104 this morn, continuing to look more respectable IF I remember to take my Metformin! PR

enge
enge 2009-07-24 10:23:44 -0500 Report

Mine was under control for 5 years with diet, then in 2006 my A1c's started climbing and i went on oral meds, til now when it really peaked. I find it interesting though how that in 2006 is when all the extreme stress and depression started in my life. I lost my Dad and my sister, big stressers began with my son, now I am trying to help my Mom sell her house, find an apartment and whatever else she needs help with. I don't handle stress well, im the type of person who wants to make things good for everybody else. I finally realized that I can't. Need to find ways to relax and deal withthe stress.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-24 11:33:34 -0500 Report

So true, Enge! There is such a fine line between caring for others, then yourself without guilt and the feeling of selfishness. For me, I had to draw a line,"do what I could, NOT what others and myself, expected me to do". I had to resort to having a taxi take mom to the clinic, then call to see how it went, I couldnot rely on what she said—I would get chest pains so badly that i couldn't walk—but no one else got it, "But she is your mother!" Well, TRUE! But I am POOED beyond belief.

I finally had to shut others out, and check within myself, follow my own heart, decided that it was basically a good heart, I just got so TIRED, I CARE intenseley, which probably accounts for the extremem fatigue, then depression—You feel responsibe for all lives that touch yours—You are the caregiver and so much has depended on you——-BUT, there comes a time when others have to assume repsonibility for themselves, YOU CAN NOT bear their pain for them, for how else are they to learn the rules of life?! Sure it hurts them, and you, but, what after you are gone? Have they learned their own painful lessons so that they can continue on to nurture their own children?

I learned the hard way, that one can not make others happy, no matter how hard you try or whatever you say, if their own mind is in a snit—-over whatever, don't waste your breath, just let them know that you are there, love them unconditionally as they struggle to find their own way. For me, that applies to our kids, and our parents, who are now all gone, along with my emotional health because I cared too much—-

But after sharing so many things on this site, I can feel myself healing, rising up once more, only with a whole new set of coping skills that help to protect myself, yet give me more of a neutral balance to the rest of our family!

I so wish you strength, rest and pEACE!
from another caring soul, Pat Roth

PAT L
PAT L 2009-07-23 16:11:10 -0500 Report

I HAVE BEEN THE SAME ROAD AS YOU AN NOW MY A1C IS JUST OVER 6 NOW.. I TOOK THE PILLS AN WATCHED THE FOOD BUT THAT DIDNT WORK.. SO THEY PUT ME IN INSULIN AN NOW MY NUMBERS STAY IN THE GOOD AREA. AN I ADJ MY INSULIN TO FIT THE NUMBERS, I HAVE 2 TYPES OF INSULIN AN I VERY SELDOM HAVE TO USE THE QUICK ACTION INSULIN NOW…BUT I DO THE OTHER TWICE A DAY AN IT WORKS… HOPE THIS HELPS ITS A PAIN BUT IT ALSO EASY WHEN YOU GET THE HANG OF WHAT GOING ON WITH YOUR BODY…

John Crowley
John CrowleyCA 2009-07-23 15:02:27 -0500 Report

Sorry that things have not been going well. But from the perspective of a family where insulin was a part of treatment from day 1, going on insulin might be just what you need. It is definitely a more precise way to control blood sugar than oral medications. So you may actually end up feeling like you have more control. For example, if your blood sugar is high, you can take extra insulin to bring it down. That's not exactly something you can do if you're treating your diabetes with diet and oral meds.

Hang in there.

enge
enge 2009-07-23 21:15:25 -0500 Report

That is alot of what the Diabetic Nurse was explaining to me. I feel a little better now that I have talked to her and she explained things. Thanks for your encouraging words.

mamaoak
mamaoak 2009-07-23 14:25:22 -0500 Report

that really sucks, iguess all you can do is go with the floww. hope this doesent happen to me.

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