Habits--Good and Bad

Pat Roth
By Pat Roth Latest Reply 2009-07-15 00:04:00 -0500
Started 2009-07-11 12:54:35 -0500

It just dawned on me that I am not wanting to SNEAK some sweets aboard, I have been flailing around like a beached whale, fighting, being told what to do and what not to eat! But I have been venting a LOT on this site and do you know what? I think that it has helped in ways I wasn't expecting!
I attended a church women's birthday dinner, 2 days after our town burned, and I TURNED DOWN a piece of CHOCOLATE CAKE WITH YUMMY LOOKING CARMEL ICING, and it didn't even hurt!! I just watched the others eat—ooh, and ahh—BUT I DID NOT FEEL LEFT OUT! I had made my choices, no sweet cakes that might send me too far up again! It was a CHOICE! Not a deprivation ! No one forcing me to watch my diet, and to lose weight, and now I am doing both! Amazing to ME! Thanks a LOT my FRIENDS!! Hugs, Pat Roth


36 replies

BLC
BLC 2009-07-14 23:27:51 -0500 Report

Pat, I just want you to know what an inspiration you have been to me. I have low self-esteem and am very unsure of myself a lot. After reading your posts I have become empowered. Now I see its a good thing to be me, to say how I feel, to believe in myself. God Bless You.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-15 00:00:40 -0500 Report

Thank you so much!! I just got blasted myself, and was ready to QUIT! I hate being torn apart, especially since I just got myself put back together! I will never give in to someone else's sour interpretation of who I am and what I am trying to do! My first impulse is to run, HIDE, I HATE CRITISM! IT HURTS beyond belief, doesn't it!? But I must stand strong too, it is so hard to stand up for oneself, but we MUST as others will eat you alive if they get the chance, so guess it is time to practice what I have been trying to preach! I so do NOT want anyone else go DOWN to that horrible level——Just ask yourself what type of pain do you want—where you knuckle in to another's poor opinion of you (like I almost did) or stand up for yourself and your feelings and take a chance of being hurt, BUT knowing that in your own mind, YOU ARE A GOOD PERSON AND GOD and you are in tune and no one can really get to you!!You are protected with God's enveloping armor!—but thanks for YOUR post——I will just back offfor awhile as I did not mean to monopolize this site, I am just learning to speak up for myself and others, be strong as I feel that helps to strengthen your body to fight anything, even diabetis! Bless you, BLC. Take care, Pat roth

cakeybakes
cakeybakes 2009-07-14 23:18:58 -0500 Report

Good for you! Now, loan me some of that willpower!

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-15 00:04:00 -0500 Report

I got so fed up with being a door mat, that I have gradually learned to know what I mean, before I open my mouth, and just state my needs calmly. But I could NOT have done it without the support from this group, even the critics! I figured that someone loved, or liked me, even if a few didn't! I still get riled tho! ha—Take care! PR

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-14 19:32:20 -0500 Report

Even though I slipped yesterday, my practicing better life style and food choices, I was back on today, venting here and there, but it isn't so intense—just yik-yak—So I think that for the first time since I started trying to accept this new diagnosis of diabetis, I think that I am becoming more comfortable in not accepting the sweets that others eat in front of me, and frankly I NEVER THOUGHT that day would arrive! Today my BS are 120 and under—also I got the nerve to talk to my druggist and they willingly gave me enough new strips to continue my close monitoring! I guess it just depends on taking that FIRST STEP!! Not too bad once you take it!! ThanksPR

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-13 22:07:06 -0500 Report

Well, like I said, develop good habits then STICK to them!! I commented about not being tempted to eat sweet on the sly? Well, I had done so good the past few days, I got careless, took my BP this afternoon and it was GREAT 130/ 70 Just took my BS at 10pm and it was 155, and I had taken my meds, lost 1.6 pounds of weight this week—still at 210, but at least this is a beginning! I know, 155 is nOT that high, but too high for MY goal—-BUT I will NOT stress over it, just try to make better choices TOMORROW! I THINK that I am trying to pin it down too closely—-and one cannot do that with diabetis, I GUESS! Right now, I am going to bed! Good night, dear friends! PR

cyncyn
cyncyn 2009-07-14 21:35:24 -0500 Report

This is great. Congrats on the weight loss, and the BP is great. Don't stress over the bs number. You are on the right track, and headed for the finish line. That makes you a winner!!!

HUGS,
Cyndi

cyncyn
cyncyn 2009-07-12 19:44:02 -0500 Report

Maybe we should have a .."VENTING SECTION", where you could go to and let off steam and frustrations. Where there is no harm intended, no hurt feelings, no jugdements made, etc. Just plain good ole venting!!!
That would probably be the longest post ever! ROFL
Venting is good.

HUGS
Cyndi'

daniel velazco
daniel velazco 2009-07-12 19:57:11 -0500 Report

That would be great. Just imagine how long that thread would be. I think that some people don't like to vent as they are afraid of what someone would say. But this site
helps when we vent, you can get all kinds of support from
the community. What do you think about this John?
Dan

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-12 20:38:41 -0500 Report

Many THREADS! We could weave quite a carpet!!! And no one to pull it out from under you! HUGS TO ALL!! PAT ROTH

cyncyn
cyncyn 2009-07-12 20:57:00 -0500 Report

People don't like to vent out loud, because of fear. Some many are ready to jump at the lower counterpart! So many people who have vented get belittled, judged, and ridiculed. They are made to feel small and unimportant. Or weak. Or others, compare! They think, why should you be crying, when I am worst off then you! Everyone has a right to feel loved!!! No matter what their complaint, BIG OR SMALL. And who has the right to judge, if it is too small or too big. To the one who needs to get it off their chest, it is LARGE!!! Now, this is only my opinion!!!
This has no bearing on any post or anybody!

HUGS
Cyndi

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-13 19:09:47 -0500 Report

Oh, Cyndi, you said it so aptly!!! How true, that is what I FINALLY decided! I decided to be good to myself as I sure wasn't getting much from anyone else, and I finlly decided that "I was WORTH IT!" Gone is "Pat, the passive, people pleaser!" Yeah! And I will get on top of this tricky BS thing, too!! PR

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-13 19:11:46 -0500 Report

It does have a bearing on all of us, posting, discussion, what have you, we are complex beings, but thrive on love and understanding!! And no one can deny that one, BS too! Love, Pat Roth

patbranam
patbranam 2009-07-12 15:48:17 -0500 Report

GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!!

daniel velazco
daniel velazco 2009-07-12 18:35:43 -0500 Report

That is what I like about this site, it's one big family that you can share anything with and not be belitteled. There are so many great people here and the support is really great. So if you want to vent go ahead we will listen and
give advise where we can. Dan

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-12 20:37:33 -0500 Report

Thank you!!!!!!! You have no idea how LONG I have waited to Hear those very words! In my circle it SEEMS that you have to be perfect!! I TRIED! hah—Lets just say, that I didn't make it and felt like TRASH!! Thanks for the ray of HOPE!! I am teary at the moment—so, take care, good friends!! Pat Roth

patbranam
patbranam 2009-07-12 15:48:16 -0500 Report

GOOD FOR YOU!!!!!!

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-12 18:22:12 -0500 Report

Oh, Thank you so MUCH for your support! Since my own parents and all of my aunts and uncles, are now gone, I feel like I have finally found the type of family I have always been searching for!!! hugs to ALL!!! PR

Gabby
GabbyPA 2009-07-12 12:30:18 -0500 Report

It's amazing when you change how you see things. When your attitude is not that of being left out, but participating in a way that is good, then you can feel good all the way around. That is great and I hope that you will share more of those little victories with us....we all need that kind of encouragement.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-12 13:43:18 -0500 Report

Thank you so much for your understanding as it means more than I can ever express! We all need each other, as we discussed at church this morn. Even when we can't stand ourselves—-and others are leary of speaking to you because of a possible "flair of speech" it is so wonderful to know that you CAN pull up out of this, with God's and friends help—-I was beginning to wonder, "Is this all there is?!" I read somewhere where, if you get to the end of your rope, tie a knot and just hang on! Which is a lot easier to say, than do, but I like to think that I am FINALLY a better and stronger person for my own LITTLE TRIALS!! Yow—-right!! Now, Pat—ha-

lipsie
lipsie 2009-07-11 21:08:37 -0500 Report

Great to hear Pat! Maybe I need to start venting, lol. But seriously you have been very involved in helping others, and caring for others…its great to hear this cake did not phase you, now that is REAL!! *HugS* Sheila

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-12 09:29:45 -0500 Report

Venting, I was TRAINED as a child, as were many, to never talk back, really express yourself and if you didn't have a close friend, parent or such, it became like steel chains tying me up into knots—no wonder my body hit a sugar high, I ate enough that I should have felt better, but no, it ravaged my body—moderation is the real key to feeling better, and gaining control of our bodies! ha—PR

cyncyn
cyncyn 2009-07-12 19:38:21 -0500 Report

Pat,
I know what you are talking about!! The law in our home, as a child, was, you spoke when spoken too. Children were seen and not heard!!! And if you were heard, lord have mercy on your soul!!! Those chains were big and heavy, but I always seem to know how to get out of them! Maybe, that is why, I was always in trouble! Luckily, I had my good friend, who was raised the same way, and we would vent to each other. We called it .." Our b@#*& sessions!!!!! And they were always, far from home. So as not to be heard!! (giggle)

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-14 19:27:11 -0500 Report

So true, I had no one, one of my grandmothers told me when I was 11yrs. that I was dirty, lazy and never would amount to anything! I worked my head off trying to diprove her, till I colapsed, now I am starting over, this time—doing things because I WANT TO, not because I feel that I HAVE TO, Now I am FREE!! PR

cyncyn
cyncyn 2009-07-14 21:30:51 -0500 Report

Good to be FREE!!, isn't it. I did the same thing. The only thing different, mine came from my step-father!! I did succeed, but not because of him, because of me!!!

HUGS
Cyndi

remiglo
remiglo 2009-07-11 20:31:28 -0500 Report

Good for you Pat! I that were me at the birthday I'd have looked like a 4 yr old child with Chocolate cake and icing smeared all over my face…and a GREAT BIG SMILE.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-12 09:26:43 -0500 Report

Does your picture of the oppossum indicate your version of "chocolate all over your face?" ahah I can't believe that I am NOT wanting to eat everything in site, IF I don't take that FIRST EXTRA BITE! Old habits are so hard to break, but it is actually getting easier! Hugs to all—-PR

cyncyn
cyncyn 2009-07-11 13:23:11 -0500 Report

Pat,
CONGRATULATIONS TO YOU!!!( CLAPPING)
This is great. This VENTING, GRUNTING & GRUMBLING,(exercise) thing is really working!!!lol
You should be proud of yourself! I am.Be it self control or choice, it is great!! Kudo's to you!

HUGS,
Cyndi

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-11 15:19:59 -0500 Report

Oh, THANK YOU, so MUCH for your applause!! I have been trying all of my life to fit into other's molds of me, more serious (for one) and I just kept "busting out" I KNOW that you understand THAT one! Well, pooey, I am ME and I am Finally realizing and ACCEPTING that. So, folks, laugh and join the fun!! Since I am LETTING GO, I DO NOT CRAVE THE FOOD like I DID!! I could not have done this without all of your kind support!! I KNOW, because I have TRIED THAT!! "Been there, Done that!" (I also have that saying on the front of my RED car tag, along with a rose—-You all can do it too, IF I HAVE because I am about the most stubborn person there is, or else I would not even by here—but there comes a time when you have to regroup and learn to trust others again!! Yea for OUR SIDE!! Hugs, PR

cyncyn
cyncyn 2009-07-11 15:47:38 -0500 Report

This "factory of life" that we live in has many molds. And no two are alike!!! We just do the best we can, with the one we were issued , at birth. Along the journey, we have to make adjustments to our own mold! And some molds are thicker than others, so some of us have to break out of our mold!!! ha ha (mine had a lot of little spurs, on it, ouch! ha ha ). So break out, by all means!!!

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