Last year I lost my husband and a few months later I was told I was type 2 and from that point I became very ill, in September I left my home to come to the Chicago area where my daughter lives with her family, My grand daughter was turning 10 and I came for her birthday celebration. 2 days into my visit I was in the ICU came close to dying, Now I am to ill to live in my home alone, had to sell my car because of blindness due to Diabetes. I take enough meds to kill a horse. I can't see my doctors from back home, had to find all new docs. Can't walk on my own, I an pretty much home bound. My daughters home is very small and so I have to sleep on the sofa, can't make it up stairs. Because of the meds I fight depression, and sometimes very deep depression. Not sure when I will be able to go back to my home…if ever. I have lost my independence, and my freedom.
They now tell me that I am type 1.5 LADA and will be going on the pump any day now.
but I want to tell you the good news, I have decided to stop feeling sorry for myself and take back control of my life, by doing what I need to do, taking my meds, watching my weight, going on short walks, cooking my own meals and getting active again, I have made friends with the older lady next door and I have started going to church with her, and I have started an excerize program. I have to tell you these little changes have really made a lot of changes in my life. I have found that its really a matter of choice. When I felt beat down, I was down ! But the truth is I wasnt' down, I just told myself I was, so now I tell myself I am winning. For me its just a matter of attitude.
I will create my own sunshine.
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