Today is an "I hate diabetes day". I hate the way it makes me feel, the damned restrictions on what I can eat, the fact that it is wrecking my kidneys, having these depressions that I can't control, not having my husband here to help me with this, having to consider first what impact anything I do will have on the diabetes. I was supposed to be enjoying my retirement and I can tell you, so far it hasn't been much fun. I'm losing interest in the things I enjoy. Just sit in my chair and watch the tv and try to figure out what the hell I can eat that isn't too boring. Lordy, I'm having a bad morning. I need to go bake something…maybe some coconut flour brownies. Need chocolate.
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