Dealing with the day

By suecsdy Latest Reply 2015-01-30 09:19:52 -0600
Started 2015-01-29 10:47:44 -0600

For some reason, it is important for me to look good today for this Damn MRI, so I'm wearing my pretty jewelry, my hair is clean and fixed and I even painted my nails. I've already had a meltdown this morning,so maybe that's out of the way. Made sure the underwear is decent and the bag is fresh. Thinking about making Stumpy a cover so she won't embarrass me. Got my good boots on and a bright pink shirt. If only I could calm my mind. Too many hours til I have this appt. I'm worried what they will find. I'm worried what they might not find and hoping the results will come sooner(tomorrow), rather than later(Monday). Please God, give me strength to make it through this day and deal with whatever comes next.
I know the Dr. said this is not urgent and I should not stress, but it's not her body and health in question. I am scared. Maybe admitting it here will help
Sorry, I am rambling and know you are all probably tired of this subject. I was so looking forward to retirement and now all my time is taken up seeing drs and planning meals. Not exactly how I planned it. I'm sure this is all a tempest in a teapot for some, but it's my teapot. Still trying to keep my sense of humor.

10 replies

RosalieM 2015-01-30 09:19:52 -0600 Report

Try this, think of the worst thing that could happen and make a plan for dealing with it. Very likely the result will be something far less than the worst thing that could happen. You have a plan, and what ever report you get will probably be better than expected. It works for me. It will keep your mind busy and you will be ready for anything. That is better for you than your free floating anxiety.

lilleyheidi 2015-01-30 01:38:00 -0600 Report

Looking good always makes me feel a tiny bit better, and even if I don't feel better it projects an image that I feel better. That sometimes helps You are so right, this is YOUR body and you have every right to be nervous and scared and concerned. No need to be ashamed of your feelings. I hope you can find something special to do for yourself this weekend. Maybe some way to celebrate your body. Celebrate it's specialness. Maybe a massage or a pedicure or I dunno just something to make you feel good. And like you said a good book.. Never lose your sense of humor and always keep us posted.

jayabee52 2015-01-29 19:02:37 -0600 Report

Howdy Sue
Prayer helps to calm one down. I noted that you also did that in your discussion. Please continue that and I will also prsy for you.


PS: "Stumpy"? is there a story here?

suecsdy 2015-01-29 19:12:30 -0600 Report

Stumpy is my stoma, the part that governs my bowels for now. Lots of people give their stoma a name. When we were introduced after surgery, The "Stumpy" just kind of popped out and stuck. I know it isn't very imaginative, but I didn't plan to have her very long. Blame it on the drugs. I was a pretty happy camper that day. Lol

suecsdy 2015-01-29 13:21:25 -0600 Report

Thanks ladies. Your support and good wishes mean a lot to me. I will be OK. Just have to keep believing that.

sweetslover 2015-01-29 12:55:35 -0600 Report

I know what you mean about looking forward to retirement, then having all these medical problems. It seems I fell apart after I retired, too. Actually, I'm sure I had diabetes for several years, but was just not diagnosed. Hang in there. You can do it. Let us know when you get your results.

Pegsy 2015-01-29 12:17:46 -0600 Report

I'm sorry you are afraid. I am hoping and praying for a good result for you. I would leave the jewelry at home. They will make you take it all off. Try to relax. After the MRI you should schedule yourself to do something that you really enjoy that will occupy your time and mind until the results come. Hang in there, Hon. You're going to be OK.

suecsdy 2015-01-29 13:09:47 -0600 Report

I know I'll have to take the jewely off, but I'm wearing it anyway. Just a little statement of ME, I guess. A little way to assert myself. Getting tired of doing what everyone tells me to. A little good news… my primary just called and my request to see a counselor is already approved It helps to know I am going to have a little backup.