I was diagnosed four years ago with Type 1 Diabetes. We go through those stages of denial and why me and I feel like I haven't gotten out of it. I am almost 20 years old and I don't have the desire to take care of my diabetes… I'm not sure why, hence the post. I think about it all the time, "I should check my sugar and take some insulin" but I rarely do it. I have the pump, and when I feel my sugars get out of hand ill give myself some insulin. I know its not good at all to do but I do it… I have this slight fear when I go to test my sugar, I get mad at myself when it is high and I feel horrible like nothing I do works, and I am really afraid of lows. the lowest my sugar has ever been was 32… that I could get a reading anyway. I am afraid of my disease… probably because that's all I heard from my parents when I did something that wasn't by the books… "you're going to die if you eat that or if you do this" "you don't want to go to the hospital do you?"
I did good for about a year, then everything went down hill. I really don't know what happened. I could use some advice.
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