Embarrassed of diabetes

By Anonymous Latest Reply 2015-01-19 11:13:57 -0600
Started 2015-01-18 00:53:44 -0600

I was diagnosed with type 2 diabetes when I was in 7th grade and was devastated. Now I'm a senior in high school, 18 years old and am still pretty bummed that I have it. I don't really like to tell anybody that I have it because I'm embarrassed that I have it. I kind of don't take care of my diabetes because I don't like to inject myself with insulin and don't like carb counting. And I hate going to to the doctor's because he gets mad at me a lot. I don't really have anyone to talk to either because no one I know has diabetes. Any help/support would help. Thank you. (:

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Stuart1966 2015-01-19 11:12:22 -0600 Report

Hello Annonymous…

Welcome to the site!

I smile, reflecting on the dis-ease we all share. And though I am older by many days, as a fellow diabetic, I do understand. I rarely use my experience to make a point, but let me share this, and perhaps it will offer you something to consider…

I have forty plus years on you, riding this dragon we share. Diagnosed as a toddler. IF you can tell me how NOT to be frustrated by needing to shoot, I'd love to hear it?

It (insulin) keeps us alive, without it, the dragon we all share breaks free, and tries to kill us, by every means possible. It does not CARE, that we want to "pretend otherwise", make no mistake, it will kill you if you allow it. Slowly, quietly, or fast, it does not matter, it will try.

Will you permit it???

Being a teen is hard enough! Being a diabetic AND also a teen too… not much fun there! But with a good perspective, fun is allowed… the question becomes, what kind are you giving yourself?!?!?!

I guarantee there are diabetics at your school, 100% But we don't have blinking billboards over our heads, its kinda hard to connect easily. You are many things, but you are not remotely alone, whether in school, and in your area or here.

NOBODY loves counting this stuff.
But its how you make choices, decisions, and do the math so that you can feel normal. Ignore it, and you've literally let the cobras loose in your dark house, and guess what they are angry, and YOU are barefoot.

Anger is a stupid tool to help you. Pity your doctor is not brighter. What do you WANT help with at this point? Telling you you are lazy, or don't care never gets the result, you want, or they need for you.

Do mom or Dad help you figure this out? What challenge do you want to tackle… to fight it (and WIN) you have to identify the opponent you want to beat. Weight? Eating? Fear of something diabetic? Social stuff? Its a long list… help us start with something you're willing to change?

"…Those who wander are not always lost…"

Your diabetic elder "brother",

tabby9146 2015-01-18 18:18:20 -0600 Report

everyone has said what I was thinking, sorry you have it and that you feel the way you do. I would seek out others in your area around your age that have it also. this will help a lot. I hope you have some family members who are supportive? it does not sound like they are. I hope you will take care of yourself. we are here to listen, when you want to vent and talk and to offer support. you will learn a lot here. you really should not be embarrassed about being diabetic.

Type1Lou 2015-01-18 17:22:11 -0600 Report

I'm sorry you've had to deal with diabetes at such a young age. But you're 18 now and considered an adult. I don't want to come across as "preachy" but, the choice of how you deal with your diabetes is entirely up to you. Most of us would choose to not inject insulin if we could live well without it. If I want to live, I have to inject insulin. If I want to live well and avoid complications, I also have to count carbs and keep my BG's under control. I'm not sure where you are financially or whether you would have the option of volunteering or getting a job at a summer camp for children with diabetes. You've been in their shoes and may be able to help them while also creating relationships with others who have diabetes. Diabetes is nothing to be ashamed of. I've never hidden the fact that I have it and it is part of the package that is ME. Ignoring it will not make it go away and may harm your quality of life. Please love yourself enough to take care of yourself. We care.

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Jibber Jabber 2015-01-18 06:37:27 -0600 Report

I am sorry you feel so bad…but you really shouldn't. After reading your post you seem to be a very intelligent articulate person…I have run across many, for lack of a better word, dumbasses, BOTH your age and older…Hell I am an old chicky in my 40's…and a full time college student..They're times I want to shoot myself in the head (joking)..because of how DUMB the COLLEGE STUDENTS sitting next to me are…what I am trying to say is..they are not embarrassed about being dumb..they just keep on trucking…so why should you be embarrassed about being diabetic..we all have our crosses to carry..I would rather be diabetic than dumb as a pile of rocks…as far as taking care of your diabetes and injecting your insulin…hold on to your hat..If I was a doctor I would yell at you as well…yes I would..you are 18 years old…and have your entire life ahead of you..and you need to try to keep yourself as healthy as possible…your doctor knows that taking your meds will help you live longer and live better…he must be very frustrated with you…(not joking)…think about it this way..if one of your parents or someone you cared about was suppose to take medicine to make them better and they were not taking it..how would that make YOU feel…????..take your medicine..and watch your diet..carb counting does not have to mean you cant eat any yummy foods anymore…I ate chocolate mouse with next to no carbs last night and it was heavenly..I put up the recipe on one of my post…and if you need to talk to someone about private crap..you can inbox me whenever you like…I am 46 have 4 kids a little older than you and two grandkids…just a wee bit more life experience than you..(wink wink)…take care and I hope to see you here often..hugs..

lilleyheidi 2015-01-18 03:04:46 -0600 Report

Wow, sweetie, I'm sorry you got diagnosed with type 2 diabetes at such a young age, but I really want to urge you strongly to please take care of yourself.
I know injected insulin is a real pain, both physically and sometimes emotionally, I get it. We have to do it. So is paying attention to all of the things we eat, every bite that goes into our mouths.
You sure won't get any lectures from me. I'm here for you if you want an old lady for a friend or someone to talk to who has a good ear to listen with.
One other thing, If your doctor seems to get mad at you, or if your not happy with your doc, (do you see an endocrinologist? if not you might ask to see one) see if there is a different doctor you can see. I wish you all of the best in life. HUGS, Heidi