The Emotional Side of Diabetes

By AlexInAtlanta Latest Reply 2014-09-24 13:32:17 -0500
Started 2014-09-21 13:32:38 -0500

I'm 25 years old and I've had diabetes for 22 years. It's been a really long, uphill struggle to come to terms with having diabetes. This past March, I found out I have diabetic retinopathy in both eyes and it's affecting my vision in one eye. I'm terrified that this is the first step towards going blind. I went to an eye specialist to see (no pun intended) what he had to say about treatment options. I didn't like the man; he had a terrible bedside manner and treated me like a child. The second visit I had with him, I was so scared, but he just kept telling me not to cry and making it obvious that I was holding up his schedule. Then he clamped my eye open, injected the treatment and left before I really knew what was happening. I was horrified, traumatized and even more terrified than I had been going in to his office. Clearly he was not the right doctor for me.

Ever since then, I have been struggling with severe depression, anxiety and general feelings of being a bad person because my blood sugars aren't perfect. My therapist and I have been working together to deal with all these feelings, but a lot of times I just feel so overwhelmed by how much effort it takes to manage my diabetes. Every single thing I do affects and is affected by my diabetes.

I have been so angry for so long because of my diabetes that I don't really know how to let it go. I'm trying to just let myself have these feelings and then let them pass, but it's such a struggle. I don't really have any diabetic friends either, so that adds to my feelings of isolation and depression.

I have trouble dealing with my emotions when my blood sugars are out of whack, too. Like when I'm low, I can't handle ANYTHING without feeling stressed, angry, irritable and just plain mean. When I'm high, I have no energy to deal with anything, I feel kind of manic and I can't focus. So when I get on this roller coaster of blood sugars, I flip back and forth between irritability, anger and unfocused mania.

Does anyone else have these crazy enotional roller coasters? How do you deal with them?


5 replies

Littlesister56 2014-09-24 13:32:17 -0500 Report

Alex It does not sound like a great experience at the eye doctor. I think anyone can understand how that experience must have felt, in your situation it is natural to be fearful especially at your age. I can not imagine the difficulties of someone so young dealing with diabetes for so many yrs, but we do what we have to do to continue and sometimes depression is a part of that. Hard to ignore since we have to pay attention to what we do everyday. My sisters are diabetic, as well and for a long time went into a state of denial which has cost them physically. One who has issues also with her eyes and still has not done a thing about it. So you are braver then you may realize. Other then them I do not know anyone else diabetic either which I why I find online sites. People are out there who have similar feelings whether they are going through the same kind of medical issues or not. Your not alone Alex, and I would suggest you find another eye specialist if possible, and you make it clear to them your frightened,they should be used to hearing that from patients such as yourself. It is possible that the Dr you saw just doesn't have the ability any longer to deal with his patients feelings, it happens. The lows and highs can mess with your head and contribute to depressed feelings. I hope things work out for you, sending good healing vibes to you. —

rolly123 2014-09-23 21:32:56 -0500 Report

Hi Alex
I know how u feel i have depression and other problems! Im a emotional eater and when my sugar high i get nervous and try figure out why! I trying get help with my therapist! Hang in their i write down what im feeling at end night it helps me c that their real feeling!

jayabee52 2014-09-21 16:33:14 -0500 Report

Howdy Alex
I had a lot of emotional issues for 2 or 3 yrs after first being Dx'd with T2 back in 1995. I was not a fun person to be around back then. Now that my BG levels are more stable it is much better

God's best to you,

KaseyBrook 2014-09-21 16:07:40 -0500 Report

I'm type one diabetic and have been for 11 years. Like you I have no one to talk to that deals with diabetes and I have no time to schedule a meeting with a professional. My emotions do go crazy when my numbers are crazy. They kind of act the same as what you explained! I would be happy to chat with you about our diabetic lives my email is small.:)

jayabee52 2014-09-21 16:27:47 -0500 Report

Howdy Kasey
Better yet, ask Alex to be a friend, and when he accepts you can then use the DC mail system to talk. Then you can use the edit feature to remove your yahoo address from this site as the spammers can pick up your email account from your posting it on an open discussion like this one. Nothing you post on discussions like this is private because the bots from Google scan these discussions and they show up somewhere in Google search results.

God's best to you