Why me???

Anonymous
By Anonymous Latest Reply 2014-10-02 10:59:06 -0500
Started 2014-09-18 17:12:18 -0500

I was recently diagnosed with diabetes. It broke my heart. I was in denial and I still am somewhat in denial. I don't know what to do???


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AlexInAtlanta
AlexInAtlanta 2014-09-21 12:48:21 -0500 Report

Hello! Your story really resonated with me this morning, so I wanted to share a little bit of mine in the hopes that it could help you. I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes when I was 3 years old. I spent most of my childhood and into my early 20's being angry that I had this incurable condition that would never go away no matter how hard I wished it. I made a lot of poor choices that have affected my health along the way. When I was in high school, my a1C got up to 14%. I hated that my body betrayed me and that I would never be "normal."

I started seeing a therapist 2 years ago and she and I have been working through a lot of my issues with diabetes, especially my anger. She told me that in order to live a healthy life, I was going to have to accept my diabetes. Truly accept it, not just tolerate it. I'm still working on that one, but every day it gets a tiny bit easier to bear.

I take Humalog as my short acting insulin. For every 15 grams of carbs I eat, I take 1 unit of insulin. I take Lantus for my long acting and that level varies depending on what time of the month it is for me. It can be anywhere from 13 units twice a day to 18 units twice a day. I try to eat low carb and eat as many vegetables as I can stomach in a day. Right now my a1C is 6.9% and I stay fairly active.

It's a daily fight to not be angry and curse every time I have blood sugars that aren't within a healthy range. Sometimes I draw up my insulin and then stare at it for 5 minutes before I actually inject myself with it. Im always the last person in a group to start eating because I'm checking my blood sugars and taking insulin. I have lows on a daily basis that give me raging headaches and send me home early from work. Life with diabetes isn't easy and it isn't pretty, but it's manageable. You just have to be willing to put in the work and realize that you're only hurting yourself by denying it.

I hope you find the help that you need to live with diabetes. Stay strong and listen to your gut.

Alex

Anonymous
Anonymous 2014-09-21 14:31:00 -0500 Report

Thanks Alex. What you said really just helped me. I've only had it for 7 months and it's difficult. I take novolog and lantus. Ive went to diabetes education class to get more help

Type1Lou
Type1Lou 2014-09-19 11:59:07 -0500 Report

Denial of diabetes won't make it disappear…it will just ultimately make things worse for you down the road. I was diagnosed Type 1 at age 27 and am now 65. With the right decisions about food and exercise, and a good diabetes team to help you determine the right dosages and ratios, diabetes is very manageable. ..but YOU have to take the management reins. I was on MDI of Lantus and Novolog until 2011 when I began using an insulin pump. The pump allows much finer control and I'm kicking myself for not having tried one sooner. Learn as much as you can about diabetes and what you need to do to regain control. Gary Scheiner's book "Think Like a Pancreas" is my go-to reference. For me, reducing the amount of carbohydrates in my diet was a major turning point in gaining better control. I never felt my diabetes limited me. I had a demanding and successful career prior to retirement in 1994 and continue to be physically active (downhill skiing and racing prior to retiring to Florida and now playing golf and working out.) It is stressful being in college whether you have diabetes or not…and stress can cause spikes in BG. With your new diabetes diagnosis, there is added stress, which makes it critically important for you to learn as much as you can about properly managing it so that you can get on with your life. If you have any questions, please don't hesitate to ask…there is a wealth of information available here and we're happy to share what has worked well for us.
Hugs,
Lou

TsalagiLenape
TsalagiLenape 2014-09-18 19:00:42 -0500 Report

Well first smart move you did was come here! Next need to find out more about what type, what kind of meds they have put you on. As if you have realized there are some small changes to be done for yourself. So any questions, or whatever like jayabee52 has said. Also find outlets that is healthy to lessen the stress.

Anonymous
Anonymous 2014-09-18 20:37:42 -0500 Report

I have type 1 diabetes. I take two types of insulin. I just don't know where to start. I have a roller coaster of high and low blood sugars. I'm stressed out because I am in college. What do I do about stress?

AlexInAtlanta
AlexInAtlanta 2014-09-21 12:54:06 -0500 Report

I know it sounds silly, but don't stress about your stress. The more you worry, the worse it gets and the worse your sugars are. Try to do things that you know help you calm down, like yoga or walks after dinner. Take your time in the morning so you don't start the day stressed. Read books, hang out with your friends, exercise, whatever feels good to you that lowers your stress!

Anonymous
Anonymous 2014-09-18 17:38:36 -0500 Report

How do you deal with diabetes? I have a lot of stress being in college how do you deal with stress? Carb counting? Do you ever ask the question why me?

jayabee52
jayabee52 2014-09-18 18:34:27 -0500 Report

I used to ask the "Why me" question early on in my Dx but that was many years ago.

Basicly I manage my T2 diabetes by eating a low carbohydrate, high protein meal plan. It did take me a lot of time to understand what I needed to eat and avoid eating, so that I could discontinue diabetes meds.

So are you type 1 or type 2? What, if anything, do you use to keep your BG (blood glucose) readings down? What are your BG readings running for, let's say, your AM fasting reading? Do you see a regular MD for diabetes care, or do you see an Endochrinologist?

Some of this info I could get from your profile, but since you are anon I can't see your profile for that info.

God's best to you!

James

jayabee52
jayabee52 2014-09-18 17:20:59 -0500 Report

Howdy Anon
Sorry you have diabetes. I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.

You do not, however, give us much on which to comment.

Please ask us some questions to learn what you don't know what to do.

James

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