WHY WHY WHY ?????

calayx
By calayx Latest Reply 2014-09-19 13:29:59 -0500
Started 2014-09-16 01:08:12 -0500

I am so depressed. Just checked my finances and realized I won't make Oct rent due to no job.
So I fixed a box of Kraft Mac & Cheese. I ate the entire box full. Box included!
My feet hurt really bad from neuropathy, have a splitting headache, and I'm laying on the couch groaning because I'm so full!
Took my neuropathy pills, headache pills, pain pills and still feel horrible and depressed.
Why, why, why did I do this? I feel horrible !! Forget thinking about my diabetes…


9 replies

callie8
callie8 2014-09-17 23:02:09 -0500 Report

its ok u get up the in a.m. and so better..drink plenty of water.Think we have all done what you have done and worse. Thats why I am on here so I don't feel all by myself.I joined a couple of yrs ago and decided to at least have some friends on here that understand. I can tell you what to do but I am not as good doing it. So i joined to have some support and try to get on here more often.I will be praying for you. You can do this girlfriend!!!!

hateful
hateful 2014-09-17 19:22:30 -0500 Report

so sorry you are having such a hard time…will pray you find a job soon and yes I too didn't eat the right diet tonight…we all need support and im lucky there I have a dear friend that always checks on me…

ReaderReader12
ReaderReader12 2014-09-17 15:08:50 -0500 Report

Yes please hang in there. Lots of us have been there or are still there and so you are not alone. Keep reaching out. There are so many smart things that have been suggested by the people who have posted down below. I just wanted to let you know that I care also and wish you the best and a job and peace of mind soon.

Pam

Dr Gary
Dr GaryCA 2014-09-17 08:16:38 -0500 Report

Hi calayx,

I'm really sorry to hear you are not feeling well and struggling financially. You are dealing with a lot.

I wish I could tell you exactly what to do here. I do want to encourage you to keep your self-care on track. I understand your frustration, and how that can lead to going on a binge. Sometimes comfort food can hit the right spot when you're depressed. But it's a quick fix, and leads to more problems. but I know you know that. I hope you're back on track with taking care of yourself, and managing your diabetes.

Have you looked into local resources that might be able to help you with your rent? Just wondered. You might check out local non-profit organizations, maybe religious affiliated, that offer emergency assistance. Or your department of social services.

Sounds like you might be alone in this. I also am wondering if you are getting some emotional support. Are you in touch with friends or family members?

You have lots of people who care about you right here. So stay in touch with us!

Gary

Brenin
Brenin 2014-09-16 19:15:00 -0500 Report

Hang in there GF!!! Things wont stay like this forever. Sometimes everything seems so insurmountable and like there is never a light at the end of the tunnel. Good friends, good support system…whatever it takes, you will come out on the other end of this.

Graylin Bee
Graylin Bee 2014-09-16 15:48:03 -0500 Report

Sometimes we just gotta eat what we want. I remember indulging in a gigantic amount of French fries with melty cheese and smothered in sauteed mushrooms and onions. I was so craving carbs while healing from surgery # 3 in about the same number of months, and stressed from no income, no job. The only difference was I did not eat the container they came in because it was not offered to me. (Thanks to James I will ask for the box next time :) )
My BG was high, but I survived.
I understand how much stress you are dealing with. I still panic at the thought of loosing my current job and apartment,
Last week I discovered if you mix cottage cheese with some alfredo sauce, and shredded cheese, then apply a little heat you end up with a pretty good cheesey warm soup like substance that satisfies the mac and cheese (or in my case a lasagna) craving without costing much, both in money and to the BG .

Brenin
Brenin 2014-09-16 14:00:18 -0500 Report

The only thing I can say is that feeling guilty and horrible about what you did offers no solution…so you just start over with the next meal being the beginning of better eating. I think we are going to have slips once in awhile…it's part of being human…it's what we do after that slip that makes a difference.

Food is always in our face and there's no way to live without it…how can there not be slips?

For you it was that box of mac and cheese… for me it was the M&M's I ate last night… for someone else it might be that 2nd piece of bread to make a whole sandwich. I think we all face this issue on one level or another… I don't believe for one minute you are alone in this matter.

Financially, I can offer no advice and after looking at my savings and checkbook…I'm in no position to even go that route. You have enough going on right now with worrying about how to make ends meet…beating yourself up about what you did with food isn't going to make things easier.

Gabby
GabbyPA 2014-09-16 05:43:06 -0500 Report

I also deal with emotional eating. When I am feeling down I am always tempted to do as you did....I give in more than I care to admit. It's frustrating, but if I can get a hold of myself before the hands reach in the pantry I do okay. I often get to that "no money" point and then buy the cheap food, which is Never good for anyone, especially me.

One thing that helps me is to talk about it and then ask my family to help me by not letting me binge. Sometimes my meter will scare me enough to get me to think twice. And the best thing for me is to not have that kind of stuff in the house. If I have to go out to buy it, I am less likely to eat it. This is one instance where laziness works for me. LOL

Is there anyplace you can cut to get rent in? Solving the problem helps the depression go away. I have certain bills I pay first, even before groceries. House and Utility are some of them. I have been where you are with no job and in these times that is scary. But there is something out there. I will be praying that you will be able to find a job.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2014-09-16 05:19:09 -0500 Report

Howdy Calayx
I am so sorry to learn that you are having such a rough time in life. Of course your reaction to it only added to the trouble. But you did do something to offset the carb bomb from the mac and cheese. You ate the box. The fiber of the box may well have offset some of the carbs you ingested. (LoL)

I don't know how else I might be able to help you.

Praying for you to be able to get what you need to live.

James