Why me?

Devon - 37635
By Devon - 37635 Latest Reply 2010-02-18 22:27:18 -0600
Started 2009-04-21 12:15:43 -0500

Hi All, I'm new here and seeing as I've been completely overwhelmed with my new diagnosis I thought it might be good to talk to others. After a few weeks of extreme thirst, weight loss and fatigue I went to my family doctor only to be sent to the ER with a blood sugar reading of 494. There I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes and admitted for 3 days.

I am still so in shock about all of this…I am only 25, active and at a healthy weight. Now I wake up each morning and get to give myself an insulin injection, take metformin, check my b.s and repeat the cycle each night. I don't want to have to do this for the rest of my life. I don't want to have to count carbs when I go grocery shopping and skip by all the things that I used to eat guilt free. I don't want to have to worry about how I am going to pay for all of this stuff without insurance.

I have been trying to do my best, for my sake. Checking my blood sugar, watching the number of carbs I take in. My blood sugar spikes even if I only have a cup of coffee!!! So I guess I'm just wondering if anyone else ever feels hopeless about all of this and if that feeling of hopelessness goes away…

122 replies

nerdse 2010-01-06 10:30:07 -0600 Report

Some info:

Metformin is given to both kinds of diabetics. it makes your body respond better to insulin, whether it's your own or by shots.

Type I is autoimmune, type 2 is not, but eventually, type 2s will have to use insulin. But it's diagnosed by looking for antibodies to insulin. If you have insulin antibodies, you have type 1. If you don't, you have type 2.

Insulin is a hormone, so other hormones are affected by it - and other hormones impact it.

Stress, like pain for example, makes sugars run high. Being tired usually makes them run low. Exercise generally lowers sugars & the need for insulin, regardless of whether you're type 1 or type 2, but some diabetics can start exercising with a normal sugar, never touch anything sugared to drink, & end up in the 400s after the exercise. The trick is to time your meal for the after-exercise crash if you go high with exercise - because you'll have to give yourself insulin for the high, but a few hours later your sugar will drop back down, so you'll have to eat then. Periods in females can make insulin fluctuate; you may think it's some sort of food or drink when it's your sex hormones impacting your metabolic hormones. Hormones mess with other hormones. Many people with type 1 end up with Hashimoto's, autoimmune low thyroid; but i've had Hashimoto's since I was 11. I have other autoimmune diseases, but I'm a type 2. Go figure.

The thing is, the more we learn about medicine, the more questions we have about how the body works. So don't blame yourself for questions medical science is still asking.

Yeah, it's a jolt, but I think about my son & his 2nd cousin. Our great nephew has Duchenne's muscular dystrophy. He'll be lucky to live to see the birthday my son just passed. My son can live to a ripe old age if he keeps taking care of the diabetes. But his cousin is going to die without a miracle. So, although I wish my son was not diabetic, it could be so, so much worse.

I don't know if any of this helps. Mom used to say she didn't care what was wrong with others, because that didn't make her problem go away. But for me, it put mine into perspective. Anyway, FWIW…

Take care. Take it a day at a time. After all, that's all we really have. Tomorrow is an unknown, yesterday's gone. And you can do anything for just one day!

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2010-01-06 10:46:35 -0600 Report

Thank you so much for your helpful words. It will take a bit for it to sink into my scalp, but thanks!!! PR

MarkS 2010-01-01 12:18:35 -0600 Report

Hi Devon. I completely understand your feeling of helplessness and 'why me.' I had those same feelings when I was diagnosed with Type 1 diabetes when I was 32 years old. I too was the 'right' weight, ate healthy, and seemed to be 'on top of my game.' However, autoimmunune diseases, as is Type 1 diabetes, could care less about your lifestyle! Its all about your own immune response and whatever triggered that response to begin the attack on your beta cells of the pancreas. Something that I would highly recommend as you pursue a 'normal' lifestyle is am insulin pump. I've had mine for about ten years (actually I'm on my third pump; getting new ones as the technology has improved) and don't know how I lived without it. Feel free to drop me a line, if you'd like, and I may be able to answer questions as well as point you in the direction of useful information. Good luck and keep a positive atitude!

Genell 2009-12-30 19:25:53 -0600 Report

I was recently diagnosed with Type II Diabetes; it's difficult for me to get over the initial shock. Some days I am ok, but I never stop thinking about Diabetes and what it can do to me. I do exercise everyday and I try to monitor what I eat. I am happy for this site; because it has been my motivator.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-12-30 23:45:35 -0600 Report

Good for YOU! Sounds like you are on the right track! Personally, I have been trying to talk myself out of having REAL diabetis, but am beginning to be proven thru testing, that I guess I do. Lately have discovered NO chocolate Hersheys, nor apple cider with red hots. Just HOPED, thought positive, but it didn't work for me, at least not yet! hah——PR

fcmeeks666 2009-07-23 23:49:24 -0500 Report

step 1.
find an excellent endocrinologist

step 3…n survive make sure the endocrinologist is there continually while you are in gestation.

get this verified by at least two other endocrinologists. i mean verified whether type 1 or type 2. some young adults are developing type 1.

be careful who gives you advice. this is an individual disease. i lost some weight ergo:

i cannot take the pills. my blood sugar crashes.

sometimes i can eat a bunch of candy. i check and need insulin. other times i do not. i take insulin on a demand basis. i have to test two to three times daily. if it is over 200 in the daylight, i take a small shot of insulin, as in three to six units. if i get 150 or over at bedtime i do the same. it is a fast acting insulin, novolog with a flexpen. this is easy because you slip a short needle on the end and twist to get your dosage and inject on your stomach or side or…

my wife takes a short acting and long acting intensive dose morning and evening. if i did that i would be dead before i got to the hospital.

this is not fun. the fluctuations in what happens if you are type 2 may affect your mind. i see a psychologist for this and other conditions. i am disabled, not because of the diabetes.

i wish you well, n'shallah, god willing, in the names of the gods


jen58 2009-07-22 17:38:04 -0500 Report

Hi DEVON, I was diagnosed with diabetes 3yrs in june. I was thirsty all the time. So I decided to go to the doctor like you did. I was put in the hospital with a blood sugar of 410. I was like what did I do to deserve this. It was in my genes. I was in the hospital for 4days. I cried & said I can't this. Iwas taking 6-7 shots a day so me CDE put me on a insulin pump but I still with alot of trouble with my A1C.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-04 12:12:31 -0500 Report

I was so SURE that I would NOT fully develop this disease! haha—-So, I was borderline for over 50 yrs. have a low thyroid, but mostly I have been fighting this depression, battle fatigue=complete exhaustion—-barely get out of bed for 4 years, was so sleep deprived I was NUTS! There, I have said it!

I am 77 yrs. and felt a bit smug about NOT really developing diabetis, BUT when I had my second knee replaced, was also trying to care for my declining, 98 yrs old mom, and grumpy husband, quit my 72 hours a week job, after retiring—-it was 170. Not too high but the Drs were concerned! POOEYYYY! I should have KNOWN BETTER< But I thought that anyone could overcome anything if they just set their mind to it! Well, that has become another adjustment——I too, was mad at first, it wasn't enough to be as messed up as I was, God chose me to endure one more thing, the VERY thing I hated——to WATCH WHAT I EAT!!

But you know what—after struggling, denying, trying again, I am gradually learning to take my BS like I am supposed to, watch the "goodies" that I had loved so well—-that had so helped me in my depression—I know—-emotional eating——-well, it caught up and I had to pursue other things to make me "feel good"!

Now I am FINALLY getting into a better, healthier life style, joined the Wellness Center 3 X a week, going swimming, something I do ENJOY—but usually have to FORCE myself to get around and go! But once I get there, I so enjoy it. My BS is gradually staying within better limits, and I am losing a pound or two a week. I have belonged to Tops for years, but for the first time, I am finally, actually losing a bit, and I feel WORTHY of the progress! Another story— hugs to all for your kind support! Pat Roth

roshy 2009-06-22 19:53:13 -0500 Report

hi there!!

well i guess alot of us are in the same boat!! i was 16 when i was diagnosed and felt the same way you did!! nothing seemed fair!! "i DONT WANT TO" became my catch phrase and the more i said it the less understanding people got! and the less important my diabetes became!! but i soon learned that my diabetes is important and the best advice i would give to some one who was newly diagnosed later in life is ALWAYS TALK ABOUT WHAT IS ON YOUR MIND. You might find yourself getting frustrated sad , angry or even lonely, but dont feel like you have to deal with it on your own, its JUST TOO HARD TO DEAL WITH IT ON YOUR OWN!

so my friend, thats the best advice i can give you, remember that life is a gift and the gift of life sould never be wasted on pointless questions like "why me" just be happy that you're you!!

best of luck in the future


ps feel free to get intouch

Richard157 2009-06-25 13:16:23 -0500 Report

Roshy that was excellent advice and it was very well written! Thanks! How are things going for YOU now?

Devon, I hope you are doing well with your diabetes. I have a hunch you are. Good luck to you!

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-04 11:45:15 -0500 Report

Amen, as to NOT keeping everything INSIDE! I tried that and my mind got so weird——can't explain, BUT NO ONE WANTS TO GO THERE! I barely made it out, finally found a FEW who would listen and support, NOT say,"Oh, you shouldn't feel THAT WAY!" No one should deny HOW THEY FEEL! That is NOT to be dictated to anyone, especially if you are so vulnerable and unsure of who you really are== a recipe for disaster! So that is why I am so thankful to have found this site, so I too can, "LIVE again! Imperfections and all!!! Pat Roth

1mohick 2009-06-06 17:59:55 -0500 Report

I felt the same way. I love to eat and since I quit smoking 6 years ago the food just tasted better than ever. Now I'm 60 years old and stabbing myself in the tummy every day. Its not fun but something we have to do. You can still eat all the good things you just have to do it smarter than before. Hang in there you have a long way to go.

maxcats 2009-06-24 13:11:01 -0500 Report

I am definitely with you. I quit smoking and food tastes better. Now I am 60 and stabbing myself in the stomach. I find all this very hard but know I have to do it and CAN do it if I just follow my rules. I can eat what I want if I'm careful. WE have a long way to go but we can do it. Hang in there and you will find it is all possible.

kartist1 2009-06-01 01:33:38 -0500 Report

It's ok to be nervous…and unsure. You well be ok about your health. Just think in terms of living a good lefe with the illness. You can do this…take your insulin and live.
Take care,

Bertlette 2009-06-06 14:31:33 -0500 Report

Hello old and new friends I haven't been here on the site for maybe about a couple of months, and I miss it when I'm not here. We have all been in Devon and many others place at one time or another, I still haven't gotten it down pack where I'm handling it the way I should. So everyday is a one day at a time for me, I talked to my regular doctor about me trying to change somethings so I could get off of insulin and metformin, but he said I probably will be on this diabetic meds. for the rest of my life. I don't know but I will do the best I could to better my life.

Caring & Sharing,

jtcobjr. 2009-05-25 13:57:27 -0500 Report

I'm sorry, but this is lite compaired to other things out there. All you have to do is take care of your conditions, and like me, maybe get off the meds.

Devon - 37635
Devon - 37635 2009-05-30 21:23:01 -0500 Report

Well yes, you are right. Just as my husband likes to remind me when I break down in tears (in his not so sympathetic moments) there are plenty of worse things out there that I could have been diagnosed with. HOWEVER, it is confusing, overwhelming, maddening, frustrating, etc. Yes, I will take care of my conditions with the hope of one day getting off my meds. Thank you for your blunt reality check.

DaveTheCompGuy 2009-06-06 16:01:06 -0500 Report

One thing you might watch for… depression is common among people with any chronic disease, but particularly diabetes.

I started a thread elsewhere here on depression, you might want to look at that. There's a lot of people with issues out here… my only suggestion is don't stop talking to people around you, and seek help if it gets overwhelming.

Pat Roth
Pat Roth 2009-07-04 14:43:39 -0500 Report

Oh, CRAP!!! I HATE it when others tell you that things could be worse! How would they know> Have they ever had much of anything wrong with them??!!! IT is so hard to keep up in this world, when you FEEL GOOD! Without well meaning folks (they think) tearing at you!

As for the bruising, may I ask if you are on a blood thinner? Aspirin, rat thinner?? Can't think—My mom had a lot of bruising from drugs in trying to prevent her having another stroke or heart attack—-one never knows for sure—- PR

Devon - 37635
Devon - 37635 2009-05-16 18:14:33 -0500 Report

Oh I am alive…and well! Forgive me for not posting sooner but things have been rather hectic in my part of the world lately. On top of my new diagnosis my mother-in-law has been diagnosed with terminal brain cancer and still has two young children at home. That's a whole different story though…

I have had numerous doc appointments within the last few weeks…the most notable being my appointment at a diabetes facility. I was given the results of my c peptide test which was 1.6, apparently normal, but low. I was told that I was in the honeymoon phase and that my natural insulin production would end most likely within the year. I was also told that the antibodies were present, making it officially type 1. The doc took me off the metformin and added Humalog on a sliding scale )should my sugars be above 200 pre-meal). That was a blow…I thought 2 shots a day was bad enough. The other blow…Before my diagnosis, my husband and I had decided that after two years of marriage we were going to start our own family. The doctor told us to forget it, that we shouldn't plan on it for a least a year and even then not if my sugars weren't under control. I know it's for the best, but it was a really hard thing to hear.

So far I haven't had to use the Humalog very often, which is good because two of the times I've taken it it has made me crash! My doc told me I was "insulin sensitive" and I would need to adjust the amount I give through trial and error. I am a preschool teacher and I think one of the most frustrating parts of this condition is trying to make time for myself during a day that is already chaos, with so many little ones depending on me for so much. It's a huge burden right now…grocery bill is making me broke, shots are painful and making me cry. I'm still trying to be positive about all of this but it's not working so well.

Momto3 2009-05-16 22:47:46 -0500 Report

Devon - it sounds as if your plate is really full what with the preschoolers, your diabetes and your mom-in-law's diagnosis. Maybe (and I am just playing devil's advocate here) the timing is just not right for you to start your family - you need time to take care of YOU first. Once you are in control of the diabetes thing and you see what is hopefully a good outcome for your mother-in-law, then a baby would be a wonderful thing! Just think how much stronger you will be then! Just take care of yourself…the rest will take care of itself! Good luck with everything and remember we are all here for you!!

Devon - 37635
Devon - 37635 2009-05-17 08:24:50 -0500 Report

No I completely agree with you. My plate is overflowing and I don't need to add more to it right now. It was just a hard realization to come to. I've always wanted children and when we made that decision to have a baby, I just got so excited. All in good time I guess.

Richard157 2009-05-17 10:39:13 -0500 Report

Thanks for your reply Devon. I see you are taking things well and dealing with your new life with a good attitude. That is so important! I have read about many diabetics having children safely. The doctors ALWAYS insist in stable blood sugar control for an expectant mother. Some diabetics have been put on an insulin pump temporarily until the baby was born. The pump gave them good control rather quickly and kept then in good shape throughout the pregnancy. If you doctor approved then you could have your baby much sooner. If you got along really well with a pump then you could keep on pumping after the birth. If you are a fulltime teacher you probably have insurance and the pump and supplies may be covered. Good luck in getting control!


Devon - 37635
Devon - 37635 2009-05-17 11:09:27 -0500 Report

Thanks for the tips Richard, I will definitely talk to my doctor about it. And while I may be a full time teacher, I work at a small private preschool…with no insurance. I am currently working on getting it through one of the state run programs.

Richard157 2009-05-12 19:01:22 -0500 Report

Devon, apparently you have not posted on this discussion since April, 26. That was 16 days ago. If you are still reading these replies I hope you will let us know you are still alive and well. PLEASE!!!!

bpmbet 2009-05-11 10:58:11 -0500 Report

its bombet, lets hope medical science comes up with a cure. I was very outgoing and still try to be. ajust take care of your feet and regulate your blood sugar. Avoid anything sweets and definitely lower your carbohydrate portion(s). regards

TLJ 2009-05-01 22:16:48 -0500 Report

I'm so sorry. I know the frustration. Just keep doing what the doctors' say and count every minute as a pleasing. You can get help with your meds at the manufacturer, patient assistance, go t their web site. They all have it. It take more work but worth it when u don't have insurance. God Bless TLJ

Anonymous 2009-05-01 19:29:17 -0500 Report

Hi, I have type two diabeties. However, when I first was diagnosed I was on insulin injections inorder to keep my blood sugars down. I believe I was taking two shots a day for about two or three months. I was 60 pounds heavier then, but it sure dosn't seem as complicated as it use to be. I pretty much check my blood sugar twice a day and it is usually around 100. Things have really leveled out. I think this happens when you get familiar with your body. Take Care, Hope this helps.

maxcats 2009-05-01 15:36:44 -0500 Report

I'm a Type 2 diabetic and have been for 25 years but I still have to fight my cycles of not wanting to pay attention to my diet. I am overweight and need to do that just for my weight too! Now I'm on insulin, which scares me a bit, so I'm trying to crack down on myself. I live in a place where they feed you so sometimes I just have to cut things in half or cut them out completely—especially desert! I don't keep anything especially caloric or with sugar in my apt. except for OJ which I keep for emergencies. This helps me a lot in not cheating. I'm trying to watch my carbs more than calories, though my doc doesn't agree with me. I find I stay in my calorie range counting those carbs…that works for me!

Keep up your efforts—don't give up. It is definitely worth it, no matter what your weight. Your diet is essential with minimal medication. Something must be done in this country about that, it is a desperate problem.

Please know you have LOTS of people for you and behind you who care about what happens to you so don't feel alone. Definitely try to find a diabetic buddy, one who really understands the problems you are going through. Take care, friend

Sherib - 38995
Sherib - 38995 2009-04-30 18:38:26 -0500 Report

Being newly diagnosed can be very difficult. Is there some way to find a group in your community that you can share with and learn from? I have type 2 and fight myself in cycles. I do very well for awhile and then start in on the sugar again. It takes awhile but then I start over. It would help me to have a diabetic partner to share with - someone to help when sugar calls. Do not beat yourself up - it will take time to get used to your new diagnosis - treat yourself with kindness. Have you taken any diabetic education classes yet? There are ways to eat the things you ate before and even desserts! Good luck and know you are not alone.

robmj 2009-04-27 14:41:39 -0500 Report

Hi Devon,

YES - it gets better. I've had type 1 diabetes for 10 years now. It still is very hard some days but MOST days are good. I hated the first few months after my diagnosis, when I was just getting used to things. So many people thought I was "counting carbs" for diet reasons and gave me grief (b/c, like you, I'm a normal 125 lbs) before they knew what I was doing. Please also know that YOU did not cause this to happen - healthy eating, healthy weight…nothing contributes/takes away from getting this disease. Instead of looking really far ahead where it looks too hard to handle, please just take one day or even hour at a time for now. But please also know that it DOES get better - I live a completely normal life, with three kids and a great husband. Take care…

Babs341 2009-04-27 11:18:29 -0500 Report

I was reading all the responses that everyone has left in regards to this "Why me?" and I found that there is some of "me" in each of the respones. It made me feel alot better in knowing that there is someone out there that knows what I'm going through. I'm sure that I'm not the only one who feels that way.

I wish I found this site sooner. I didn't find this site until after I was diagnosed as a Type 2 until close to a year after I was diagnosed. The information that has been given is great - what's so important is that each of the repsones is from real life experience, not just a story someone heard. When you are newley diagnosed being able to learn what you need to do, or how do you do it doesn't have to make you feel "lost" in this big world. Cuz someone here knows about the who's, what's, where, and there are more friendly people here that will be there for you during your up's & downs. Ready to pull you out of that downward spiral.

It's such a relief to know that no one makes you that you asked a stuipd question or a wrong one. Here in our community we have such wonderful people that will give you all the support & help that they can & will give without judgement. It would be a perfect world if the strength, caring, & love that is freely givien in our community would spread out into the rest of this world :)

Have a Great Week everybody!! And just to let you all know that I think you "ALL" are such AWESOME people:)


Anonymous 2009-04-27 09:31:24 -0500 Report

I was in a diabetes education class at our local hospital and a 60'ish year-old asked this same question. She stated that she "hadn't asked for this"! No joke! I didn't either, but I am so thankful I wasn't trying to deal with this before they discovered insulin and all the medications they now have for diabetics.

kartist1 2009-04-27 00:37:29 -0500 Report

Dear Devon…
You will overcome all of this crazy stuff as well like we all did. Just take your medicine daily there are low cost medicines online-check with you doctor first. Try joining a health group at the hospital. Mine really helped me out.
Take care,
Keith G.

Latte Lady
Latte Lady 2009-04-27 09:06:07 -0500 Report

I was diagnosed in October because all hospitals in our area do a test when anyone goes in for any type of procedure. Outpatient or full long stay surgery. I am sure that has saved many lives. At that test, it was at pre diabetic levels, but follow up testing showed T2.
Not surprised. Ran in my family, I am also obese and lazy.
Boy, was it an eye opener. I have now lost 30# (lots more to go, but it IS coming off), taken every class I can find, read every book/article my docs/dietian/endo recommends and am walking (briskly) every day. As I told my husband "I got myself into this and it is up to me to deal with it". So far diet and exercise are doing the job. But my life is full of stress (DH has terminal cancer), so some days the FBS is way up there. Ditto from some foods.
It is a learning process, apparently a lifelong learning process. I am taking it as a challenge vs the 'why me?' syndrome. Yes, I am sure one of these days I will ask that, but for now I am working hard. Life goes on no matter how you approach it, right? Make the best of it.

Momto3 2009-04-27 16:26:54 -0500 Report

Dear latte - I read the responses on here and while all them are heartfelt and wonderful yours hit me pretty hard - especially given what you are going through! You are honest and sharing about your PREVIOUS lifestyle was brave, and I wish you all the best. Given your circumstances with dh and diabetes and everything I may just be sitting in a corner, rocking back and forth, sucking my thumb and talking to no-one! I am proud of you for not doing that and would like you to know that I am pulling for you! Good luck!

ali eletre
ali eletre 2009-04-26 17:58:34 -0500 Report

dear Devon
I hope you now in good health .. my story just like you .. i was taking bills for 7 years and sudinly i found my blood sugger is 520 and doctors transfar me to insuline shots & i take 2 shots per day .. i was loying sweets & makrony & i drink tea & coffi like watter every hour .. but now i have to keep my blood sugger in low level .. make that ilness your friend and try to adjust your self on a new program and believe me you will used to live with it with any problems and you are wright you still young but you have to accept it & you will be happy
i hope these words will help you
yours sencerly
aly eletre

momwantsacure 2009-04-26 13:35:59 -0500 Report

Devon, Everyone on this site are 'just the best' people, very informative and are here with open arms…I am not diabetic but my 22 year old daughter is, she was diagnosed in 2005 and is still having a hard time (at times), she has other medical conditions also. jphj00's remark so touched my heart, please listen…While you are younger, if you get into the daily routine, it will become habit and get somewhat easier…Best to you…Kathy

wilfredo 2009-04-26 13:24:58 -0500 Report

hi devon! i know you've heard this several times now, but once again, welcome to the club. i've had type 2 for over 15 yrs. now, having been diagnosed at age 29. i remember how scary it was at first. i've always loved food, then suddenly food felt like the enemy. the best advice i can think of early on is to learn as much as you can, but at your own pace. besides seeing a diabetes educator (make sure he/she is a CDE certified diabetes educator), there are some very good books for newly diagnosed folks out there. "diabetes: the first year" is particularly helpful, and i'm sure other folks can also recommend some others. i'm sad to say that this never goes away, so you'll have to learn to deal with it in your own way. that's something we all have in common. just remember you're not alone, and lots of us are rooting for you.

Tiff 2009-04-26 11:12:04 -0500 Report

I write on behalf of my daughter Tiffany. She is 10 and the exact thing happened to her October 27th 2008. She was released from the hospital on October 30th the day b-4 halloween. Life has changed. We went to the movies instead of trick or treating. Alot for a 10 year old. She too goes up for no reason. It does seem to be about the same time as my monthly cycle. She is still young and we will see how that all effects her. Some days are ok and other days she doesn't want to eat carbs cause she doesn't want a shot. The hardest thing I think for her is she cannot just have snack she craves, even fruit, unless she treats herself. At times she hopes she's low just so she can eat some carbs without a shot. As a mom you want to make everything all better for your child and this time I can only watch and hope God takes control. Stay strong!!!!

frenchtwin 2009-04-26 10:58:09 -0500 Report

I can honestly say;I know how you feel.When they told me was a diabetic.They wanted to start me on shots right away.I said whoa can we try the pills first.They did with diet , excerise,and meds. I've been able to control my blood sugars.The best adivce I can give you is , that you take the attitude,I'm going to control this.It's not going to control me.If they have the class there on diabetes.Take it.It really does help. your Friend Darlene

Blue Eyes
Blue Eyes 2009-04-26 09:45:04 -0500 Report

Dear Girl,
I am so sorry for your present struggle as a newly diagnosed diabetic. Time heals all wounds and it will once you become familiar with your schedule. I sincerely hope that in time you can get an insulin pump. It will make life much easier for you.

I was seven when diagnosed and I am now 67 and in very good health. Thanks be to God. I live a rich and full life. Please let me know if I can be of help to you.
Blue Eyes

shirl914 2009-04-26 05:31:18 -0500 Report

Hey Devon!

Don't despair girl!!!! I felt exactly like that too…diagnosed at 17…and that was (gulp) 25 years ago! BUT the sad part is, yes you do have to do this for the rest of your life, but you know what- You will be Healthier than most people because you have to watch what you eat. I'm always open to helping newbies :) just kick any questions you may have my way…I have lots of experience- some good some bad- I'm currently on an insulin pump which is great because you only get poked about once evey 3 days for the insulin injection. Hang in there! You'll be fine. if you want, check out my profile and take a look at what my father in law told me when I was 17…it always helped me…

Advocate 2 Lisa
Advocate 2 Lisa 2009-04-25 23:01:09 -0500 Report

Hello… My name is Lisa

I have been type 1 diabetic for 26 years now… and yes, I asked myself the very same question, way back when… You know though, it's not as scarey as you think… It is a lot of : new education, and following of new diet, and carb counting. however, things have advanced so in the many years since I was diagnosed, you are some-what lucky. I know how you feel though, for I just asked that very same question to myself, just 6 years ago, when my daughter was newly diagnosed at age seven type 1 diabetic as-well… gee… that crushed me more, then when I found out. There are so many advancements in the last 26 years since I found out, it is just unreal… There are now newer insulins, and insulin pumps, and carb counting etc. YOU'LL BE FINE JUST REMEMBER, CHIN UP, SMILE, AND TAKE EACH DAY AS IT COMES, AND STRIVE FOR THE BEST YOU CAN DO, AND START A NEW NEXT DAY IF JUST QUIET DOES NOT WORK OUT… STAY RELAXED, DON'T GET STRESSED AND BELIEVE ME, YOU'LL DO GREAT!!! I HAVE EVERY FAITH IN YOU TO MAKE A GOOD DIFFERANCE, FOR YOUR BETTER HEALTH,.. IT IS SCAREY AT FIRST, I KNOW, BELIEVE ME, AND I DO WORRY A LOT FOR MY CHILD, AND ME, BUT FINDING PEOPLE TO HELP AND SUPPORT YOU THROUGH IS JUST GREAT, AND THIS WEB SITE WILL DO JUST THAT… IT IS CHALLANGING AT TIMES, AND YOU WILL GET DISCOURAGED, BUT YOU KNOW WHAT, KEEP YOUR CHIN UP, AND A GOOD DISPOSITION, AND YOU WILL DO FINE!!! smile… Lisa and daughter Advocate 2

cyncyn 2009-04-25 22:34:17 -0500 Report

first, welcome. you have come to the right place. i'm a caregiver of a Type II. no, she doesn't take insulin daily, but at times she needs it. she won't give herself shots, so i have too. so i know how you feel, hon. the first time. well, something like yours. now, just last weekend, my 27 yr. ole was diagnoised with Type II. but we're all here for you, day or night, you can find someone, if one can't help, then other can. and if nothing else, we have BIG shoulders for you.
take care,

Babs341 2009-04-25 21:01:46 -0500 Report

Wow… I can honestly say that you "really - truley" sound just like I did when I found out I was diabetic(type 2). It seemed like breathing was spiking my BS. And because I have other medical problems - when they give me problems or if I'm in alot of pain - my BS will spike. It took me about 2-3 weeks to get past this. The hardest part was "accepting" that I was diabetic, and that if I didn't take care of myself than I wouldn't be here. Not being able to grow old w/ my hubby - watching my kids grow up - get married - and one day see my "Grandchildren".

Some days it's so easy, and I still have those days that I just want to throw out all my medicine - meter, strips everything to do w/ diabetes. Wanting to eat anything I want and as much as I want. I found out the hard way that even w/ the medicine and checking my BS 3 times a day… you can't just eat "anything" you want because you will pay for it in the end.

It will get easier. Once you get over that inital shock, anger, depression, crying, temper tantrum, feeling as if its the end of world,etc.

Hang in there sweetie!! You can do it :)
You did make one good step in the right direction by joining this community. You will have lots of support & get lots of ideas and someone will share tips that will help out.


Randy42 2009-04-25 20:35:47 -0500 Report

Hello there Deven and as what sarg said welcome here. It's not I would wish this awful disease on anyone ether.I've been with this disease for a couple of years now and in this community for only a few months but it has been a life saver for me. You here with people that's in the same boat as you are. I've asked the same question as why me. Going through the same kind of emotions as you. I don't have insurance ether, my doc works out a plan with me on the bill.
I do wish you all the best in this roller coaster of life. Wish you lots of luck with this disease and finding your comfort area. As we all have.

cyncyn 2009-04-25 20:23:29 -0500 Report

heh Devon,
hi. i'm a caregiver to my mother-in-law. she is type II. she was diagnoised several years ago.just last weekend my 27 yr. old son, was diagnoised with type II. he also said"why me" it has only been a week, and he is doing great. it took him about 3 days, for him to reach reality. now he say's it just eating healthier. good luck, and glad you found us. .

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Paul 1761 2009-04-25 19:57:45 -0500 Report

I know what you are going through. It's not easy I have been diabetic for 37 years. I have had my share of problems. But the one thing I can tell you the better care you have right now the less problems you will have latter. It is so worth the extra care right now to do the best you can. I have a lot of problems now including kidney failure. Please take care of your self you have a lot going for you and being young they may have a cure very soon. Thak Care.

Chewy 2009-04-25 19:45:21 -0500 Report

Hello Devon,

Welcome. Why me indeed. Why any of us? DNA? Health choices? Environment? Who knows. Instead of "why me", I like to think of what I can do about it. This site has some of the world's best people on it with countless advice, knowledge and opinions. Stay here and read about it as much as you can, and you'll never feel alone or confused.

bighead 2009-04-25 19:43:45 -0500 Report

Hi, My name is Barbara also known here of my dogs name (bighead).
I must have had Diabetes for years and didn't know even though I went to several doctors and they never checked it. Finally I had a heart attack which was my second one and was in ICU for nine days, when I came home I wasn't getting my strength back and was bed fast, so my husband took me to a doctor again and my sugar was well over 600, They didn't think I would make it through the night. so the next morning I went to his house and he gave me a shot. I found a specialest and now I am taking 2 shots a day. I lost 65 lbs in 2 months. There are so many things I eat that I never did before but I am so thankful to be alive I can do it. I crave sweets and other things I use to eat but I just can't have them and I know it, so I eat healthy a lot of meats and sweet potatoes baked. I drink a instant breakfast drink and coffee for breakfast. which does raise my sugar some but I take 2 shots every day plus 16 heart pills. and my fingers stay sore from testing.
You can do this sweetie, just set your mind to it as I did, I thought I was very healthy too, I sing gospel music and loved to play different outside games , swiming, and the works, but it has slowed me down very much. I am so glad God spared my life I will do what I have to do, and you can too. It want be easy I know I have been taking shots less than a yea. and I am sure you can get help with your meds,they are very high in cost if you have to pay for them but I am sure there is somewhere there is a place to supply them for you. Take care and God Bless!! Barbara

Angelah533 2009-04-25 19:41:57 -0500 Report

Im sorry to hear that you have diabetes. I know how you are feeling. There are a lot of good sites like this one that offer support. Use them, it really helps. As far as eating what you used to eat, try looking for recipes that are similar, and try them out. Ive found that adding herbs really helps make them great tasting and will help you with your sugar. The hopelessness will go away when you get better control. Don't get discouraged. We are all here for you. Educate yourself on diabetes and it will help you understand what is going on with your body. For now just remember to take it one second, one hour, one day at a time and you will get there. Good luck and smile. You are not alone.

WarrenThelma 2009-04-25 19:41:26 -0500 Report

Hi I know how you feel.By the way my name is Thelma.I have had diabetes for a long time.I believe somewhere around 8 to 10 years.I've ask the same thing why me.My daddy was diabete.So now myself and my oldest sister have it.I don't know what else I might could do,but be here to listen to anything you've got to say.

policeofficer 2009-04-25 18:40:50 -0500 Report

It's normal to feel depressed and upset. But with the right attitude, you will make it. Do not let diabetes control you, you control diabetes. I was diagnose 2 years ago. As a police officer I was afraid to lose my job and my social life. But with friends and a good team, such as a certified dietitian, good doctor, do your regular checks.i.e. A1C, eyes checks yearly, blood pressure, you will be OK. if I can help you in anyway, please email me. at policeofficer002000@yahoo.com small. My advice is not a medical advice, just what I go thru daily. take care. Officer Mitchell

2009-04-25 18:20:11 -0500 Report

Why me?

It's cause you are special! And we who have this disease are all just extra sweet!!!

JamesNY 2009-04-25 18:03:52 -0500 Report

You are not alone; the same thing happened to me only my numbers were always over 560 and once my doctor told me I had hit 800. Which the doctors and nurses at the hospital said was impossible for anyone to actually have hit. I have the same problem of having to pass up the foods I love for the ones that will make me live longer and healthier.


samir 2009-04-25 17:40:59 -0500 Report

although u r diabetic , you r more butifull than many other non diabetic females
would lhke to keep in contact with u

Bertlette 2009-04-25 17:12:37 -0500 Report

Hello Why me?
My name is Bertlette, and I know exactly how you feel I was wearing those shoes only a year and some weeks ago "April 1, 2008", I was diagnosed with type 2, and to really top it off I was diagnosed with Congestive Heart Failure, after waking up from a medically induced coma, for 15 days and trying to learn how to walk again. What I'm trying to say is "yes", having diabetes is one of the worst diseases I feel I could have, but you know what I'm alive I'am still here for my loving family.

I thank my God, the doctors and nurses and especially my family they was there to take care of me, it's one day at a time and to be honest with you I still have bad days, I have to check my b/s 3-4 times a day and if it's too high I have to give myself insulin those many times a day, as well as taking metformin. I didn't know about metformin until I decided to check out "diabetic connect", and a article was written about this medicine that could really help me, with the constant shaking and fatique. So I decided to talk to my doctor about it, taking the pill has been very helpful. And venting my hurt and anger about this disease to my wonderful friends and the people on diabetic connect that's not my friends can also be helpful because they could tell you much more then I could. I wish you the best, days will get better as time goes bye, and one more thing I would like you to be a new friend to me.

Caring & Sharing

navywife 2009-04-25 16:36:23 -0500 Report

Hi, and welcome friend! I was diagnosed in 2006, and I had extreme thirst overnight, and was put in ICU for 6 days! Diagnosed with Diabetes Mellitus Ketoacidosis, I have been taking 5 shots of insulin daily for this entire time. It is what it is, a lifestyle change. I was told if I had gone home, I would have gone to sleep and slipped into a coma and died. Since my husband had been deployed two days earlier, the thought of my kids finding me made me realize I had to adopt another way. I walk 6 miles daily, and it only takes an hour and 1/2. I take a low dosage of aspirin and Lipitor as precaution. My A1C has stayed at 5.7 all of this time. I eat what I want, using the correct serving size, and I attended nutrition classes to know what foods are best. My life is better, and I feel so much gratitude to still be kicking at 40! navywife

navywife 2009-04-25 16:52:28 -0500 Report

To keep your bruises to a minimum, I would suggest two things; First, use the stomach and make sure you are injecting straight horizontally. Secondly, I use .05 cc ultra thin II syringes. I use two insulins, three inches apart before two meals. I have only one shot at lunch, so I do not want to see that many bruises than I have to either!

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Chars thoughts 2009-04-25 15:49:38 -0500 Report

Hi! I 56 years old, a nana to 3 and a mom to 1. Never imagined that I would ever be diabetic. I was a deer in the headlights when I was diagnosed a couple of months ago. Still comming to grips with it. I have found that the best thing to do is visit the people on this site often. It is a place where you can find friends and information. You will find loving support when you feel overwhelmed. This,I have found is the place to go because sometimes friends and family don't understand the devastation you feel at first. They cannot know what you feel about the struggle of balancing your carbs, the things that can go wrong if you don't.
Once you get used to counting carbs you will find that you can pretty much eat whatever you want within reason. I had Birthday cake on my Birthday this week, I gave up carbs for dinner, my daughter made Taco's so I had a taco salad and no shell. My diatician says there isn't much you can't have that you had before you just have to be aware of portion size and the amount of carbs. Be creative with your meals, they don't have to be boring.
checking the glycemic index is a great idea. I wish you well and hope to see you as a friend.

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tabby9146 2009-04-25 18:27:41 -0500 Report

I control mine with diet and exercise also. I was on metformin but lost enough weight to come off of it.

jphj00 2009-04-25 15:06:21 -0500 Report

Devon, Welcome to the club. So sorry about the news.
I was diagnosed with type one when I was eigh years old. Have had it sinfor 49 years.Let me offer some advice though. Keep your blood sugar where it should be as much as possible. I don't want you to end up like me.
I had a stroke in 1999, caused by diabetes. It left me paralyzed on the left side, no balance and almost blind.
Since then I've had both legs amputated above the knee, left arm still paralyzed, legally blind, kidney disease,thyroid disease, heart attack, and blood clot in my arm. All this because
I didn't take care of my blood sugar.
I'm not trying to scare you, but these are the facts.

It's getting much easier to control things not.Diatetic snacks and desserts taste almost exactly like the real thing now.
As you go along things will get easier and automatic.
I know it seems scary and hard right now, but they are making strides every day in care and prevention. I urge you to go to the American Diabetes Association web site and follow the updates. There may b light at the end of the tunnel.
I didn't want to scare you any more.
I just wanted to show you the urgency of keeping your diabetes in check.
I wish you thebest as you go along. but it will get easier and easier.

Babs341 2009-04-27 11:39:47 -0500 Report

Thank you for telling us about your life w/ diabetes. Your story was very touching and so heartfelt :) Again thank you for sharing it. It also shows that we can learn by our mistakes. And it shows that you are a very "strong" person to survive the heartships that you've been through!! Here where I live so many people just don't understand what having diabetes 1-2 is like and how serious it can be. Some people think that I'm giving them a load of crap because I can't do certain things (I have fibro & myofascial - plus am Type 2), and that I have to beable to eat - but can only eat certain things, needing to test 3 x's a day sometimes more.

I was in court Tuesday as a witness & the judge didn't break for lunch. I knew that my BS was dropping, after testing I knew I needed to leave to get something to eat. I told one of the court officers what was going on, and he went to check to see if the judge was going to break for lunch. Since he wasn't the officer told me that I could leave "anytime". (The judge was very serious about people coming in & out of the court room while in session). I finally had to leave to get something to eat. While I was out - the officer went up to my daughter to make sure that I went to eat & that I was ok. (That made me feel so good to know that one person cared.). Yet I heard 1-2 people making comments that I did all that just to make attention for myself. (ok - jerks!!). I wear a mediacal alert necklace saying that I'm diabetic which I make sure is on the outside to be seen (my bs has been dropping alot more for some reason and it's so scarey when I'm out in public - I now have to have someone with me even if I go to the corner store), plus I have a med alert bracelet that states that I have a serious medical condition w/ medications since I'm on so many.

My Grandmother was Type 1. She didn't take her diabetes serious and really suffered in her life because of it. Because of this I knew that I had to "follow" the doctors orders. Get as much info as I could.

Best Wishes to you jphj00 & to all here!


2009-04-24 06:07:17 -0500 Report

I do on my stomach it is much better no muscle in there bu it is not for everyone it has to be follow Dr's order but you can try askk dr. to insert in stomach

Richard157 2009-04-23 15:27:04 -0500 Report

Hello Devon, welcome to our community! I know this is very frustrating to you.
I am thinking that you are not seeing an endocrinologist (diabetes specislist). I see both and endo and a GP type doctor for more thorough care.

I an assuming that you are not using a fast acting insulin. I don't understand why you are using metformin. Are you still producing some insulin of your own? If so that is called a "honeymoon" phase. If you are not producing some of your own insulin and you are type 1 then you should be using two kinds of insulin. Your current insulin is evidently a long lasting type. That is a "basal" insulin that you take 1 or 2 times per day. The kind you need to avoid those highs is a fast acting insulin. That is a "bolus" insulin that you take prior to each meal or snack. You need to establish your own personal carb ratio that tells you how many grams of carbohydrates (carbs) one unit of bolus insulin will handle. Some people need one unit for every 15g of carbs. I need 1 unit for every 6g because I have insulin resistance even though I am type 1, like you. If you use both basal and bolus insulin and make adjustments as needed then you can get very good control and not have these highs except on rare occssions, like John mentioned. Once you have good control your life will become less worrisome and you can feel much more normal. I have been type 1 for 63 years and I am very healthy. You can have a long, healthy life too.

After seeing an endo you can also see a diabetes educator and a dietitian for further assistance with carb counting and determining your carb ratio, etc.

Good luck to you!


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Devon - 37635 2009-04-26 15:11:25 -0500 Report

That's what they called it, I just couldn't remember…They "honeymoon" phase is apparently what I'm in. My docs told me I was producing little to no insulin, in sporadic bursts and put me on the metformin. At my last appointment my doctor told me that she had referred me to a specialist and that when I meet with him, he will most likely take me off the metformin and add the short acting insulin instead. I am currently seeing a certified diabetic education counselor, my docs, and soon the specialist.

Pluckinfool 2009-04-26 20:47:05 -0500 Report

seems to me that Richard is living proof that you can live a long and healthy life with diabetes. I've been at it 52 years myself, and am healthy, active, etc. May I offer a happy observation? It will be easier than you think. You already aren't overweight, and you're active. You most likely don't have bad eating habits (if you did, you'd be overweight).
And one more thing. Some won't agree with this, but you don't have to obsess over the numbers. It's important to know about carbs, fats, and proteins, but some of us have *never* counted the little buggers, and are doing fine long-term. Throw in some multi-vitamin/mineral supplements, remember to laugh, and you'll be fine. Enjoy!

bpeale 2009-05-12 12:14:43 -0500 Report

my daughter is a T1 and she takes 1000 mg of metformin twice a day. i don't think thats unusual.

Devon, don' t think of a T1 diagnosis as a death sentence. i always say that the diabetes diagnosis helped to save my life. it makes me do what everyone should do. btw, i am a T2, but there are T1's in my family too. the best advice is to get a book on diabetes. look for the ones on amazon.com that are rated the highest. keep it for your library. then, see a diabetes educator if you can. that was sooooo helpful to me.

good luck Devon. this is the beginning of the rest of your life.