By alwaystryin Latest Reply 2009-04-21 08:58:58 -0500
Started 2009-04-20 12:36:28 -0500

For the first time since my Wife went back on her meds, and was given novolog on top of oral meds and lantus, she (we) had a major meltdown this weekend. It was brought on by other distractions in our lives, but escalated to her stating she wishes she could just OD on insulin. She has been off her anti-depressant meds for over a month while we try to get them through a Program. We are back on track today. But it really sucked.

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cakeybakes 2009-04-20 22:48:08 -0500 Report

I had a meltdown of sorts myself today after being off my meds for the past 2 days because I couldn't keep them down from the flu. She is very blessed to have you supporting her. My husband is my soft rock for me and has put up with me for more years than I care to mention. I cannot begin to tell you how much we women depend on our men to be our support! I'll pray for you both!

cyncyn 2009-04-20 20:06:43 -0500 Report

sorry to hear it. i've been there myself, and i still fight depression at times. i've been to counseling, and it works wonders. pain killers, been there, nothing helps. so i know where your wife is coming from. tomorrow, the dr. are going to tell me when they're doing another spinal fusion. life keeps giving it to us, but what don't break us, makes us stonger. hang in there and best wishes to the both of you. thinking of you both,

alwaystryin 2009-04-20 20:18:42 -0500 Report

Hi Cyn,

How u been, well considering? the name says 'alwaystryin' which also means to me, never giving up. It is just not in me. During my career starting in the early day's of PC's and throughout time, I could never give as an option that 'it cannot be done'. I had to fix it whatever it was. And supporting that technology day to day, and the human factor inherent, I would spend my day's helping others, even if those others were pieces of equipment or whatever, and then of course go home and be the Husband, Father etc. also.

So don't you worry, I willl never…

2009-04-20 18:51:33 -0500 Report

I've been where she was and is. I'm on Lexapro for PTSD. Many times I've wanted to take the deep sleep, but my husband reaches over, holds my hand or just says he loves me, and I get jolted back to reality. Ask the doc why he doesn't give her some sample medication? Don't you just love it when docs tell you that you have soemthing, but don't do crap about helping you combat it?? I wish I could help, what you guys are going through hurts me, I hate to see it happen to such a caring couple!
Many hugs to both of you!

Sarguillo 2009-04-20 16:18:17 -0500 Report

Hi Always, Dont take this wrong, but get your wife some help. I dont know if you know this or not but, yes, she can like OD on insulin. Take enough, Go low enough on BS and you go into a coma, then death. Its not funny. It sounds like a cry for help. Dont take it lightly. Hope it all works out for you.

alwaystryin 2009-04-20 16:24:25 -0500 Report

Hi Sarg. And yes, this episode did not fall on deaf ears. I put a call into her DR to see about getting samples of her Cymbalta pending approval on the Assistance programs we are looking into. And not to sound put-offish, but after almost thirty years together, I know pretty much were she was coming from, and I love her to much to let this go. Thanks again for your concerns.

Sarguillo 2009-04-20 16:39:28 -0500 Report

Glad you are on top of things. Im kinda in the same boat as you. Wife of 6 years, been together about 10 years, is a constant pain sufferer. She has been on the high level norcotics to the point that Morphine is like candy to her. Yes, I have seen her take enough morphine at a hospital and walk out. today, they wont even give out to anyone more than 1/3 of what they gave her that day. She has enough narcotics at home to OD anyday she wants. Its a worry to me that one day I might come home and find a cold corpse. She is under the care of a head doctor. But I hear cries for help less often now. Does that mean she is lulling me into a false sense of eveying is fine? I dont know. I hope, I pray. I do her refills so I try to keep track of her meds, but she can sneak some pass me. Hope it all works out for you. Hope you took what I said in the good intentions that it was offered.

Antique-Dave 2009-04-21 08:58:58 -0500 Report

Anytime someone indicates they are thinking about suicide don't be afraid to ask them how they plan on doing it.

if they have the means the method and the desire to follow through you have a problem that needs to be addressed right away. Meds, counseling and a support system that includes family and a group outside of family are where to start.

another thing to watch for is a change in mood where the person is suddenly happy and content, it often means that they have made the decision to kill themselves.

DiabetesDiva 2009-04-20 12:56:26 -0500 Report

I'm so sorry you & your family are experiencing a rough time. Your wife must be thankful for having such a loving husband. Depression is difficult to handle without the proper medication. My doc is a big advocate of exercise to raIse the endorphins. Hoping you & your wife find relief soon.

Take care.

alwaystryin 2009-04-20 13:17:01 -0500 Report

Thank you for your kind words. This was a very scary incident. Last month we celebrated our 28th year being together. Some of the other things said were terrible, on both our parts. Last night during a sleepless night, I rolled over, held her hand, she hugged me, and life was somewhat back on track.

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