depressed and type 1

kenziekenzie
By kenziekenzie Latest Reply 2014-07-27 13:51:59 -0500
Started 2014-07-22 21:37:49 -0500

Hi. I just joined the site looking for something to help me. I'm 16, and t1 with depression.

I don't take care of my self because I just don't care enough to. My dad and my younger sister are both t1 diabetics as well and try often to make me talk care of my self. when I was in 9th grade I got so skinny people I thought I was anorexic but it was just because I wasn't talking care of my self. I did the same thing 3 more times up until 10th grade summer. my parents threaten to take my phone away and stuff but it doesn't seem to make me motivated to do anything. I have an endocrinologist appointment tomorrow and I don't know what to say. I know I'm going to get in to trouble. I haven't been taking care of my self all summer. I lost 10 pounds and frankly I like losing weight. and I don't want to take care of my self. its not like I can't. its just that I don't. I hate myself for it. I can feel my self growing weaker and weaker every single day now and I know I'm hurting my self. but I can't seem to find the motivation to care about it. I saw some other people on here have the same problem but I just don't know what to do. every time I do end up taking care of my self I stop and relaps into not caring anymore. I'm sorry I'm not very good at explaining but i really need help.


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суммiе
суммiе 2014-07-27 13:50:47 -0500 Report

Hey, can I inbox you? I have suffered from depression and an eating disorder all my life, and then was diagnosed with t1 at age 17 after a rather dramatic episode of DKA. I'm 21 now and have struggled with diabulimia and all the fun things that come with being suicidal and depressed AND having a dumb pancreas. I would love to talk with you. Being lonely sucks.

jayabee52
jayabee52 2014-07-23 03:14:53 -0500 Report

Howdy Kenzie
WELCOME to DC!
You know you're hurting yourself. You know what you should be doing but you don't do it. Do you wish to put yourself into a DKA and wake up from your coma in the ICU?

Please sit down with your Dr and have a heart to heart about what you are putting at risk by following this course of action (or inaction).

At this point I don't have much else to say except to pray for you.

James

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