depressed and type 1

By kenziekenzie Latest Reply 2014-07-27 13:51:59 -0500
Started 2014-07-22 21:37:49 -0500

Hi. I just joined the site looking for something to help me. I'm 16, and t1 with depression.

I don't take care of my self because I just don't care enough to. My dad and my younger sister are both t1 diabetics as well and try often to make me talk care of my self. when I was in 9th grade I got so skinny people I thought I was anorexic but it was just because I wasn't talking care of my self. I did the same thing 3 more times up until 10th grade summer. my parents threaten to take my phone away and stuff but it doesn't seem to make me motivated to do anything. I have an endocrinologist appointment tomorrow and I don't know what to say. I know I'm going to get in to trouble. I haven't been taking care of my self all summer. I lost 10 pounds and frankly I like losing weight. and I don't want to take care of my self. its not like I can't. its just that I don't. I hate myself for it. I can feel my self growing weaker and weaker every single day now and I know I'm hurting my self. but I can't seem to find the motivation to care about it. I saw some other people on here have the same problem but I just don't know what to do. every time I do end up taking care of my self I stop and relaps into not caring anymore. I'm sorry I'm not very good at explaining but i really need help.

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суммiе 2014-07-27 13:50:47 -0500 Report

Hey, can I inbox you? I have suffered from depression and an eating disorder all my life, and then was diagnosed with t1 at age 17 after a rather dramatic episode of DKA. I'm 21 now and have struggled with diabulimia and all the fun things that come with being suicidal and depressed AND having a dumb pancreas. I would love to talk with you. Being lonely sucks.

jayabee52 2014-07-23 03:14:53 -0500 Report

Howdy Kenzie
You know you're hurting yourself. You know what you should be doing but you don't do it. Do you wish to put yourself into a DKA and wake up from your coma in the ICU?

Please sit down with your Dr and have a heart to heart about what you are putting at risk by following this course of action (or inaction).

At this point I don't have much else to say except to pray for you.


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