Not doing good today...:(

sugarbaby07
By sugarbaby07 Latest Reply 2014-09-06 04:48:49 -0500
Started 2014-07-18 04:26:33 -0500

So after only a year after diagnosed,
I'm already burnt out with Diabetes :(
Today was a very bad day today emotionally, my 1 year diagnosed anniversary was on July 12 (sad face)
I was also stressed with other things as well, and I was doing so good but today I fell off the wagon! I really just did not care what I ate:( I had a burger with both buns AND fries which I haven't had in a year… So I cried today …all I could think was the long road ahead and if I could do this??!!! I'm sorry I just really need to vent, but today was just one of the worst days I had since diagnosed :( Have any of you had days like this where your just so sick and tired of this stupid D?! How do you deal? Thx friends!
Xoxoxo


8 replies

calayx
calayx 2014-09-06 04:48:49 -0500 Report

I'm so sorry that you feel so bad. I am going through the same feelings that you are right now. Yes, I am sick & tired of dealing with the big D. Your entire post could of been written by me. I try to remember that I have family and friends who care. If I want a longer life span, to be with these people, I must get D under control. Ya, I have days when I fail miserably but I try not to punish myself about it. Some days we really need to vent. Do it here or find a good friend who will just listen. We have to believe that it will get better.
I care for you!!!!! Candy

robinsab
robinsab 2014-07-21 23:17:27 -0500 Report

All of us have good and bad days but the good thing is is that it gets easier and more manageable as time goes on. I am a firm believer in everything in moderation. There is nothing wrong with having a burger and fries—so long as your numbers are good before you indulge. Maybe it won't always be but i promise you—it gets better! I'm 32 and have been type 1 for 31 years and I've had ups, downs, highs and lows but I am perfectly healthy and happy and diabetes is just part of who I am and that's ok. Keep your chin up and let me know if I can help in any way :)

Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-07-20 19:30:46 -0500 Report

My anniversary date is August 5th. It will be 7 years and I am going to have a blast. It is National Night Out and our Neighborhood Services Sgt and I will be riding around in his police car going to all of the events. We have a lot of fun doing that.

In my opinion, I think you spend too much time making diabetes hard for you. It does not have to be hard. You can manage it and you can still enjoy life. Nowhere is it written that you can't treat yourself to a burger and fries. That isn't falling off the wagon, that is enjoying a treat.

I do not focus on being diabetic. That would allow diabetes to control my life. I have so many other things to do that I enjoy. I couldn't do that if diabetes was in control. I also don't think you have fully accepted the fact that you are diabetic. Once you do that the burden of living with diabetes makes life easier.

I don't have days like that because I don't view diabetes as being a stupid disease. People who call it horrible, disgusting and stupid choose to make diabetes hard for themselves. I am in such good control that I can eat what I want to eat. You have to figure out how much you value your life and how much you value your health. If you don't put much value in either, you will have these kinds of days for the rest of your life. I choose not to be miserable and enjoy my life.

sugarbaby07
sugarbaby07 2014-07-19 02:59:11 -0500 Report

Thank You all for your responses!!! I am actually feeling better today :) each and everyone of you gave me some things to think about, and I am realizing that I can't be perfect :) so I am going to take this one day at a time…Thanks again everyone!!! PS: I did go on my healthier food plan today :) Take care my friends!

MichaelJB
MichaelJB 2014-07-18 16:33:05 -0500 Report

It takes a while for this to become the "new normal "in your life. But it will..
In many way I am lucky. I was born with diabetic. I know nothing else but this life style. I also feel that I have a great life and really enjoy every moment. We have the power to control diabetic! No other "disease" allows for that kind of control. I really know that you will overcome this and begin feeling that this is just the new normal in life. There will be a point that you will reach when you really won't give it much thought when you have to control your diet and take your meds or insulin. It's ok to enjoy that burger and fries once and a while. Just know your carb to insulin ratio and follow it. Life's great and I'm glad I have had the opportunity to share my thoughts with you!

Irish1951
Irish1951 2014-07-18 15:18:03 -0500 Report

Don't beat yourself up over this. All of us have been there…if not they will someday soon. You know what to do so forget about the past. You can't change it. Start over and look forward. Know we care and understand.

haoleboy
haoleboy 2014-07-18 11:44:47 -0500 Report

It took you a year? Man, I was feed up with this disease after the first day!

If we focus on the big picture (on anything) it is so easy to become overwhelmed. It's the old story about how to eat an elephant … one bite at a time, right? … to me that is all about focusing only on what you have to do RIGHT NOW, just this very moment. Don't clutter your mind looking down that 'long road' … just focus on this little piece of the road you are on at the moment …

Francis of Assisi said it this way, "Start by doing what’s necessary; then do what’s possible; and suddenly you are doing the impossible."

And whatever you do, do not look in the rear view mirror! Leave yesterdays burgers and fries (and other baggage) in the dust. "Let each day start anew"

I find that meditation really helps to keep me focused on the moment … you might want to try it. This is an easy way to start: http://www.onemomentmeditation.com/

namaste
-Steve

Gabby
GabbyPA 2014-07-18 08:31:05 -0500 Report

It's a good thing the wagon is low to the ground and if a burger and fries are your tumble, then you are doing okay. Perfection is not required.

Most of us struggle from time to time and after the first year, it's often what happens. Reality sinks in, that this is for the long haul. But you can do it. My cave in's usually include some kind of ice cream. You will find that you can cave in once in a while. Just get back on the wagon before it gets too far ahead of you and you have to work harder to catch it again. I've been at that point too, and getting right back on is MUCH easier.

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