Control/No Control

By Allez Latest Reply 2014-07-18 19:07:32 -0500
Started 2014-07-17 17:32:53 -0500

If I can live my life relatively happily without any of these controls, but my kidneys are failing and I can no longer do some of things I used to do - what is the better way?!
I will probably die. But I may never have to go through the daily suffering of not being able to eat what I want or suffer quitting smoking. I can have the life I want up until I die. And maybe I'll die quickly of a heart attack. Just sayin'.

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Just Joyce
Just Joyce 2014-07-18 19:07:32 -0500 Report

Steve wrote an excellent post. How soon you die depends on how much your life is worse to you.There is a fate worth than death. You will lose your vision, your legs, Kidneys will be useless and you will be a shell of what you use to be. Live or die. the choice is yours.

Type1Lou 2014-07-18 12:09:32 -0500 Report

We are all born "astride a grave" to quote playwright Samuel Beckett. That means we will all certainly die, sooner or later. By not taking "control" of your diabetes and indulging in "non-essentials", you'll likely get there sooner rather than later. It's YOUR choice. I've chosen to stay as healthy as I can. That has meant cutting back my carbohydrate consumption to 120 total grams per day. It has meant exercising more and testing frequently to make certain my blood sugar doesn't go too high or too low. As a result, I feel wonderful and am able to do everything I want to do in my retirement…I just wish I had more hours in the day to do it! After 38 years with diabetes, I have some mild complications but nothing debilitating. The neuropathy in my feet does not hurt and my retinopathy has not progressed in over 10 years. Life, for me, is good and worth the effort and determination to stay healthy, despite my diabetes.

haoleboy 2014-07-18 00:09:32 -0500 Report

I always thought … what is the worst that could happen? I'll die and it will just be over. That thinking took me to 325 lbs., I ate with abandon, drank like a fish, did just about every drug short of injecting, and smoked a pack of cigarettes +/- every day since I was 16.

At 58 I had a stroke and got a real understanding that there is in fact a fate worse than death. I got "lucky" … I had a "minor" stroke. I talk a little funny, I have trouble walking, my left arm doesn't always move as I want it to and my left hand has almost no grip strength, oh yeah and I am blind in one eye … yup … I got LUCKY! I spent almost three weeks in a rehab hospital after my stroke. during that time I saw/got to know a couple dozen other stroke survivors. None of them were as lucky as I. most will never walk again. some will never speak again … and some, well some will never be going home again, they will be in a full-time care facility, trapped in their now useless bodies, minds still functioning but unable to speak or move. I can tell you with certainty that some of them felt that being lucky would have been death.

There is a fate worse than death … I got a little glimpse of that. Quite frankly people with your attitude piss me off, but go right ahead … eat as you wish. smoke if you got em … maybe you will be lucky like me or maybe you'll cash in quickly and painlessly

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jayabee52 2014-07-17 18:11:48 -0500 Report

Howdy Allez
I would venture to say that you are a very young man. Take it from one who has to undergo dialysis 3 days a week for 4 hrs a day plus I have to conform to the dialysis meal plan as well as the diabetes meal plan. And might I say I do very well.

We're ALL gonna die eventually. The thing for me is to make the time between my birth and my death as long as possible. I have 3 sons from my first marriage who have yet to have grandkids. I want to see my grands (and to spoil them and give them back to the parents)

I see a lot of negativity in your attitude toward life. That can change if you put your mind to it.

I thought I would die without a lot of pain when I collapsed on my bedroom floor for about 6 days when I had to first undergo dialysis. Later I learned it was not so easy since I had a time when I needed to restart dialysis and it was delayed. It was miserable to eat something and then puke it back up. Or to have to exert myself and get tired out and need to sleep for an hour while with only walking for about 1 eighth of a mile.

And when you are in the midst of a heart attack, I guarantee you will want to cling to life. It is in all of us to want to live when in distress.

I will pray for you


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